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Rainbow breathed in the fresh summer air. She took a sip from her ice cold water bottle. The sun warmed her up and the breeze that flew by balanced it out.
It was a perfect summer day. Rainbow sat out on the front yard, her shades on, water bottle in hand, relaxing in the hot sun after playing with her soccer ball. She sat there, thinking. Just thinking.
Rainbow thought about Applejack. The thought of her two year long girlfriend brought a smile to her face.
Applejack. The definition of perfection. She was beautiful. Her grassy green eyes made Rainbow's knees buckle. Those eyes hypnotized Rainbow. She could stare into them all day if she was able to. Her smile was one of a kind. It was genuine and for her. Applejack had a certain smile on her face when she was with Rainbow Dash. Rainbow noticed it and it made her feel so special.
Applejack's freckles were the cutest thing about her. Those little dots on her nose and cheeks were so interesting. Applejack had to stop Rainbow from playing connect the dots on here a few times when the couple were bored and Rainbow felt like bothering her.
Applejack. The girl who was as athletic and strong and stupidly brave as Rainbow Dash, probably even more so. Her strong arms could easily lift her up and carry her around whenever Applejack pleased, much to Rainbow's embarrassment and complaint. Rainbow didn't mind it when her girlfriend would hold her in her arms when they were cuddling on the couch or watching a movie in bed.
Applejack always made time for her, no matter how busy she was while working on her family's farm. She even let Rainbow tag along, even if she knew Rainbow would just laze around, sleeping under a tree or something. She happily would wake her up with a kiss or scare her awake with screaming in her ear.
Applejack was kind, and caring, and patient, and just........ perfect.
I'm so lucky to have her.
A sudden thought popped into her head.
I don't deserve her.
Rainbow frowned. Her heart sank. She knew this was probably her depression talking. Her depression couldn't even let her think about her girlfriend without trying to ruin her day.
She's so perfect and amazing, and I'm just a sad, pathetic excuse for a human being. She could date anyone in the world, but she chose me. Why?? I'm nothing special. If anything, I'm less than average.
Rainbow suddenly didn't feel like being out on the yard anymore. She stood up and headed to the front porch. She sat down on the porch, bringing her knees to her chest. The insulting thoughts wouldn't give up.
What if one day she left me??
The thought made Rainbow's eyes moist. She took a deep breath, willing her emotions to calm down.
What if she gets sick of me?? My depression isn't exactly easy to handle. It's never gonna go away. What if she's tired of my low self esteem?? Or me crying because of small things?? Or me getting upset at her for no reason?? Or my nightmares??
Applejack must hate having to wake up in the middle of the night every so often due to Rainbow thrashing and screaming in fear, dreaming of her dad. She must be getting tired of it. Most people wouldn't be able to handle that. She must hate it when Rainbow would yell at her or push away when her depression got too much to handle.
