Warning: this has suicide attempt and thoughts. Do not read if this will trigger you. Also this is my first suicide one shot. Hope you like it.
Rainbow Dash looked down at the water below. Her cold fingers gripped the steel beams of the bridge tightly. She stared down. How did it come to this??.
Oh yeah. I'm crazy.
Rainbow had been suffering of depression for the past few months. She hadn't told anyone. None of her friends and not her girlfriend Applejack.
Rainbow felt tears rise and the thought of Applejack. She could only imagine Applejack right now. Finding her suicide note that she left on the bed at home.
Rainbow let out a sigh, a cloud of mist escaping her lips. The cold bit at her skin like needles but she ignored the cold. She had grown use to feeling cold. The teen looked up at the beautiful night sky.
What a nice night. The perfect night to die. This would be the last thing you see.
Rainbow shook her head. She sat down on the cold metal. The wind wrapped around her in a chilly blanket.
She was decided to just sit there for a bit and think about her life. Then she changed her mind. She was do a verbal diary/ last words kind thing. Okay she's lying to herself. She wad really trying to gather up the courage to jump. Point was she was gunna think outloud for a while.
"My parents abandoned me as a baby so I don't know who they are. The man that took me in was abusive after my mom died and he was mean and just a jerk".
Rainbow felt her heart sink at the memory of her "father".
"Um. I don't remember her much but...... I know she loved me more than anyone I've ever known. But I'll be with her soon so that's good".
Rainbow felt tears rise up. She looked out into the horizon.
"I wonder what the girls are gunna do when they find out. They're gunna probably be relieved that I'm not around anymore".
Rainbow laughed quietly.
"Yeah. I guess the girls would do just fine without me around to annoy them and be a bother and hold them back".
"I'm gunna miss Pinkie pie. If there's one thing I could say to you is...... don't stop laughing and smiling. Keep being yourself and don't let anything take your bubbly hyper personality away. It makes you awesome and I love it when you're hyper and happy and giggly and all. It's fun. Do me a favor. Make the girls smile for me. Everyday Make them laugh and smile, just like you do anyways".
Rainbow smiled softly.
"Um Fluttershy. What can I say about you??. You've been my best friend since junior flight school. We were always there for eachother. Even if you're scared of your own shadow sometimes, you can be the bravest person I know. You could stand up to a dragon if you had to save your friends".
Rainbow let out a giggle at the thought. She sniffled.
"Rarity. Gosh. I know we're not exactly twins or sisters. Trying on dresses annoys me to no end but I do it because it makes you happy. I've always liked it when you make cool outfits for us. Applejack doesn't like it but I always we looked 20% cooler. Though lately, I couldn't give two shits about clothes. I walk around my house in my boxers, a sports bra and a sweater".
Rainbow blinked away tears that she refused to shed.
"It's actually really comfortable".
Rainbow sighed. She was not gunna cry.
