Developed Love || Auston Matthews (Completed)

Chapter 32

Auston told me his story about what happened with Emily. She came here the day after I left for Calgary, it was unannounced, she just showed up. They hung out for a couple days and before she left they had sex. It was as simple as that in his mind.

"Why?" I cried, referring to them having sex.

"I don't know (Y/N)." Auston was crying too.

"Are you seriously sorry? Or are you just saying that?" I asked quietly.

"I am sorry." Auston firmly put his hands on my shoulders.

I tried to look him in the eyes but it was so hard. I felt so vulnerable around Auston now, I didn't feel beautiful, or pretty or special anymore. I felt like I was just another girl to him. Looking him in the eyes made me feel more uncomfortable than safe.

My feelings for Auston were still there, I still loved him more than anything. If I didn't I wouldn't be like this.

"I want to accept your apology Auston, I do, but this is going to take some time for me to understand and accept." I said, sniffing my nose.

"I understand that." Auston sighed heavily.

We didn't say anything to each other for a long time, we were standing in an awkward silence, neither of us knew how to break.

"But I want to forgive you, and I want to make our relationship work again." I spoke quietly, letting tears fall out of my eyes still.

Auston grabbed my shoulders again and looked at me, I wanted so badly, to look at him, but I couldn't bring myself to do it.

"I promise, for the sake of our relationship, because I love you and because I don't want to hurt you ever again, that I will clean up my act, and I will make this better."

Auston kissed me on the forehead and pulled me into one more hug, his face was buried into the top of my head.

"I need to sleep." I mumbled, realizing just how tired I was.

"Go to bed then, I'll be here when you wake up."

I walked off to bed and cried myself to sleep, that was my routine lately.

I was woken up to breakfast in bed, fruit salad, crepes and champagne. I weakly smiled at Auston when he brought it in. I was still mad and hurt and upset but it was time to forgive and forget.

"Thanks Aus." I said while grabbing the glass of champagne and taking a sip.

"Don't mention it love." He sat beside me on the bed, eating his breakfast.

"I have practice later today, I think it's at 3. Mitch and I are going together."

I nodded my head, the breakfast was actually really good.

I finished my breakfast and thanked Auston again. I went to get out of bed to take my dishes to the sink but Auston stopped me.

"Let me get that." He insisted.

He was trying so hard to make this right, I knew it would never be right, but at least he was making the effort.

I got out of bed and hopped in the shower, I wanted to get clean, but mostly I just wanted to stand in there and think. I had a lot on my mind and I needed some space to myself to think about it.

I kneeled down, underneath the stream of water, so it was hitting my back.

(Y/N)?" Auston walked in the washroom

"Yeah?" I answered

"What are you doing?" He asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Showering." I stated simply, standing up to turn off the taps.

He wrapped me in a towel when I stepped out of the shower.

"I like your tattoo." He smiled

I thought about it, smiling as well.

"Thanks, I like it too." I giggled.

Auston and I hung out around my apartment for the day until he had to go to practice. After him and Mitch left with each other Steph and I sat down and talked about everything.

"So, did you forgive him?" She asked curiously

"I didn't forgive him, but I said I would give him another chance because i didn't want to give up on us." I admitted

"Well I'm happy you two are together still, and it's clear that he loves you, and I love you both." Steph smiled, placing her hand on mine.

"Thanks Steph." I smiled back at her.

I took in a deep breath and began to think, I don't want to hold this against Auston, I know it's his fault but I don't want to be mad at him. Or upset. I want our relationship to go back to normal, how it was before all of this mess.

Instead of sulking I put on a cute little set of lingerie, it was all black lace, like a lot of my sets, but this one made my body look fire. My boobs looked great and my butt was popping. I put on thigh high tights with it and a pair of black pumps and waited. I was going to surprise Auston, I was going to show him that I'm better than any other girl he's ever been with and any other girl he ever will be with.