Developed Love || Auston Matthews (Completed)

Chapter 48

Being in the hospital was not fun, after the police found me, that's where they took me. Now I'm here in the psych ward and I feel extremely embarrassed. I told them I didn't have anyone to call, and technically I didn't, I had nobodies phone numbers memorized and I left my phone at the apartment.

Honestly all I wanted was to be alone, being with people wasn't my thing I guess, but I took it a step too far and now here I am, in an ugly hospital room, wearing an ugly hospital gown. It was only for 30 hours, and then I would be let off suicide watch, and I could return to my friends, hoping things could go back to how they were. Long before Auston and I were a thing, he could be his usual self to me and I would be best friends with Steph and Mitch. I would live my own life outside the Toronto maple leafs, outside of Auston Matthews.

As I was laying in my hospital bed, deep in my thoughts, my back facing the door, I heard someone shuffle in. I turned around and made eye contact with my beautiful blonde best friend. She looked like she hadn't slept in months, her eyes were puffy and red, but she had dark undereye circles. She was wearing sweat pants and a sweater, her hair was up in a bun.

"Steph," I said quietly.

"(Y/N)!" She broke down into tears and rushed over to me, hugging me tightly. I was next to cry, seeing how I'd hurt her and remembering how hurt I'd been.

She grabbed my cheeks and stared into my eyes, both of us still streaming tears.

"You have no idea how happy I am to see you." She smiled widely, wiping her tears away.

I was still distraught, I didn't know what to say, or how to say it. I knew I had made a mistake but I didn't know how I was going to fix it. Was everyone going to treat me like it was walking on eggshells? Was I going to be the one who almost killed herself over a boy?

The thing with that is people don't realize Auston isn't just "a boy", I was in love with him. But now I'm not sure. He cheated once and I should have known better back then, but instead I chose to ignore it and forgive him. But here we are again, in the same situation, but worse this time. And it's my fault I let it happen again.

"Where's Mitch?" I asked

"On his way." She nodded and left the room, only to come back in about 10 minutes later, with her mess of a boyfriend. He looked just like Steph, if not worse. But he had a different reaction. Instead of rushing over to me, he just stood in the doorway and nodded. He seemed angry at me, but it was not my fault. Nothing would have happened if Auston didn't start it in the first place.

"I'm sorry." I said in a whisper, looking down at my hands, hoping they would hear.

"It's not your fault." Steph said, slightly louder than what I'd spoken.

"It's my fault." Mitch finally spoke, his voice was somber.

"It was all a big misunderstanding and now I know better." I mumbled.

Nobody said anything else after that, Mitch and Steph sat with me for a long while in silence before finally saying goodbye. I laid in my bed, trying to sleep, to get my mind off of it, but it didn't work.

Austons POV

Mitch Marns
"She's okay."

Me
"Where is she?"

Mitch Marns
"I don't know if you should see her. She's pretty upset man."

For fuck sakes. I ruined it for good this time, the love of my life feels all alone and worthless because of me. Because of my actions. My self control is garbage, Jordyn seduced me and I couldn't say no. I physically couldn't. I knew it was wrong, I was slightly intoxicated, sure. But before, during and after, I knew it was wrong, yet I never did anything to stop it.

Jordyn
"I'll be in Toronto in 2 weeks, maybe we can find time to have some more fun 😉😘"

Me
"Yeah maybe. We'll see."

It all depends on one thing. By thing I mean person. And by person, I mean the love of my life.