Developed Love || Auston Matthews (Completed)

Chapter 14

Auston slowed his pace and eventually was walking beside me.

"Hey." He said sweetly

"Hey Aus." I replied

"Listen," he sucked in a sharp breath, before continuing.
"I think I've been sending you some pretty mixed messages, about how I feel... about you."

I nodded my head slowly, agreeing with what he said.

"Yeah..." I said quietly

He grabbed my hand so I would stop walking. And then he took my other hand in his free hand and just held me there, both just looking at each other with wonder filled eyes.

"First of all I want to apologize for being a jackass, we've known each other for, like, a year and I've been rude to you since, well, pretty much since we first met."

"Well, you were nice to me for a while and then you stopped, but I get what you mean." I reminded him and he nodded.

"Secondly, I want to make my feelings clear." He looked up to the sky, sucking in another deep breath, and then looking back down at me.

"I really like you, I have for a long time, I was rude because I was jealous. You had a boyfriend and I was jealous, you were good friends with other guys on the team and I was jealous. I was jealous because that couldn't be me." He said, his tone was sincere.

I really like you.

That resonated deep within me. Auston Matthews just told me that he likes me. I was blushing and I could feel it, the redness slowly rising up my face.

"Auston," I began to say, but he hushed me.

"Let me finish," he said, "and I've been thinking about it, I can't keep being rude to you like that. You deserve much better, and I was hoping for a second chance, to turn this around. I'm better than what I've been treating you and I want you to see that side of me." He finished, squeezing my hands.

"I know you're better than that Auston, and you don't have to ask me for a second chance, I would give you a second chance, a third chance, a fourth chance, its who I am." I said slowly.

He nodded his head, a small smile slowly spread across his lips.

"But do you really mean what you said?" I emphasized the mean, because he could just be saying that, he could take back those words and be the same old Auston I've always known.

"I meant every word of it, wholeheartedly."

I breathed deeply, I didn't know what to say. Of course I forgave him, he didn't know that I liked him how I do and I wasn't sure if I should tell him. I just wanted to get the hard part of forgiving and forgetting over with. Then I could tell him my feelings.

"I forgive you Auston, we can start over, everything that's happened, it's off the table. Here's to a fresh start." I smiled, giving him a small peck on the cheek before catching up to the rest of the group.

At dinner, Auston and I sat beside each other, everyone was having their own small conversations, I was chatting with Auston, Mitch, Steph, William and Kasperi. We were cracking jokes and having a great time. Everyone took notice to how nice Auston was finally being to me, but nobody said anything.

On the walk back to the hotel, a few people wanted to hang out some more so we made plans to hang out in Kapanen and Nylanders room.

"I'm gonna go put on comfier shoes and I'll be back!" I exclaimed

I got to my room and for some reason I just broke down. I started crying, bawling. I wanted to believe Auston, he said he really likes me, he said he was going to change. What if he was lying.

I was standing in the middle of my dark room with my hands on the back of my head, trying to stop the tears from flowing, when someone unlocked my door.

Remembering I gave Steph my spare key, I assumed it was her.

"(Y/N)? What's wrong?" I spun around on my heels, coming face to face with Auston.

"Nothing!" I exclaimed, trying to smile and discreetly wipe my tears.

Instead of saying anything he pulled me into a tight hug and kissed the top of my head. I leaned into him, his solid body was holding me up, he was comforting.

"I didn't know I made you feel this way." His voice was guilty

"It's not you Auston, it's me, putting ideas into my own head." I admitted, sniffing my nose.

He wiped my face of tears and held it in his hands. He slowly placed a kiss on my forehead. From my forehead it moved to the tip of my nose and to the tip of my nose, he finally moved his lips onto mine. His kisses made the butterflies in my stomach go insane, he gave me shivers, and goosebumps.

"Being with you makes me happy. You're unlike any other girl I've been with, you make me feel different, you make me feel passion and happiness and you make me feel like I have purpose. I really like you (Y/N)." He admitted

I blushed and smiled at him. I didn't know what to say.

"I haven't thought about anyone but you ever since I met you. I've been with other girls, sure, but I always wished that it was you instead of them. I've felt like this for a long time."

The sexual tension at this point was unreal and I was ready to rip his clothes off right then and there, until Steph started calling my phone.

"Looks like we should head up there." I giggled

Auston chuckled and we walked to where everyone was meeting. The entire time I was wishing we could have just had sex. It would only be my second time, but I found myself wishing to only ever have sex with him again. He made it a special experience, he made me feel good, he made me feel like I mattered. He made me feel as if he only ever wanted to have sex with me, like to him, I was the only girl in the world.