Developed Love || Auston Matthews (Completed)

Chapter 42

I kept tossing and turning all night, I would drift off and wake up, I was thinking too much. Maybe Auston wasn't in love with me? But I was in love with him, and I wanted for him to know that so badly. I was exhausted, and we had to get up early to to ziplining.

I threw my hair up into a pony tail and put on black lulu lemon shorts and a tight black lulu lemon tank top with a pair of white NMD's, and we were on our way to the jungle to go ziplining.

Steph decided today would be the perfect day to take selfies, the day I wore no makeup and had horrible bags under my eyes.

Getting to this jungle zipline thing was crazy, the people here drive crazy they don't even follow the rules of the road, it's terrifying! When we finally got there I was slightly stressed out from the drive and I was slightly hungry, but this would only take an hour or two anyways.

We got on our gear and the guides led us up this ginormous hill and honestly I was not having it. Yeah I get it I was in a nice country doing fun vacation things but I was so stressed about my feelings for Auston and I was EXHAUSTED.

"You okay babe?" Steph walked beside me and the boys walked ahead of us.

"Yeah just thinking." I said blandly.

"About..?" She asked curiously.

"I can't really say it loudly." I basically whispered to her, I figured the boys were far enough ahead of us and far too distracted by their constant laughter to hear what we were saying.

"Well whisper it!" Steph urged me.

"I know that Auston loves me, and I love him too. But I think I'm in love with him Steph. I'm worried he doesn't feel the same about me though!" I admitted ashamedly.

"What if he's struggling with that same fear right now?" She suggested, trying to ease my stress.

"Maybe." I huffed out, mostly because this hill was causing me to be out of breath.

She rubbed my back, assuring me it would be okay.

After the zip lines I was completely exhausted, I needed food and a nap asap.

"Baby, you doing okay?" Auston asked me as we got back to the resort.

"Yeah babe I just need some food and a nap." I admitted, but partially lied, I still needed to tell him my feelings.

"Lets go get some food in you." He grabbed my hand as we practically ran to the snack bar, we had some pizza, fries with cheese sauce, and of course a lot of fresh fruit.

After eating I was feeling a lot better. But I still needed a nap, so we walked back to the hotel room and Auston and I crawled into bed, Steph and Mitch were off doing whatever, they would be fine alone for a bit anyways.

I sucked in a sharp nervous breath, I was going to tell Auston how I felt, I was, but I couldn't bring myself to do it, I didn't have the courage.

I felt Austons arm slink over my waist and we quickly fell asleep. The nap was only about 2 hours and after that we were ready to party, I put on black high waisted ripped shorts and a red bikini top with checkered slip on vans, since we didn't plan on getting wet or going in the sand. I left my hair up in a high pony tail and put on some mascara and filled in my eyebrows.

We met up with Steph and Mitch at one of the bars on the resort and we all started slowly sipping on piña coladas, well the boys had beers, Steph and I had girly drinks. After a few of those we switched to margaritas, and then it was hard liquor.

Even though we all had a lot to drink, by the time dinner rolled around we weren't really that drunk, the food actually sobered us up, and we were drinking wine over dinner too.

We went to the dance floor where the DJ was about to start mixing and I was excited, I really loved to dance. Steph and Mitch were dancing with each other, she was mostly leading because Mitch wasn't the best, and Auston and I danced together. Surprisingly he was really good, he knew how to move his hips in the bedroom and he sure knew how to move them on the dance floor too.

"You're a great dancer!" I laughed over the music so he could hear me.

"You are too!" He winked.

I blushed but with the lighting in this place, I don't think he could even see.

It felt like we danced for hours, I was sweaty and out of breath and in need of about 30 litres of water.

"Lets go walk on the beach." Auston said smiling.

I nodded my head in approval, when we got to the sand I slipped off my shoes and held them in my hand, and Auston grabbed my other hand as we looked out across the ocean, where the stars meet the water. The view was beautiful, the waves were huge, at least 5 feet tall, there were almost intimidating.

"So it seemed earlier, before we fell asleep, like you wanted to say something." He stopped me in my tracks and looked me in the eyes.

"Yeah, I have something to tell you." I said awkwardly, worried about how this conversation might go.

"Well what is it?" He asked nervously.

"I know we both love each other," I began as Auston nodded his head.

"But there is a difference between loving someone and being in love with someone... and I am in love with you Auston." I admitted.

Well at least that was off my chest, but now I was worried about what he was going to say.

"Wow, yeah. My parents always talked about that difference, and I've never experienced it," he said

My heart sunk, he wasn't in love with me.

"I have never experienced it until I met you, (Y/N)." He stated sweetly.

I stared into his eyes in disbelief, I was happy and excited and scared and amazed and all these emotions at once. Like if I didn't have Auston I couldn't breathe. I felt like he was my air, my lifeline. God, this man made me feel all of these amazing emotions.

"I am so god damn in love with you (Y/N)." He said boldly.

"I am so god damn in love with you too Auston." I kissed him romantically on the lips, with the ocean breeze being the only thing between us and around us.

All of a sudden we heard some people whistling and cheering. I turned around to see my best friends Mitch and Steph walking towards us, they were clearly drunk, a stumbling mess. But wow, they were people I couldn't live without either.

Something about being on this vacation here with my people, made me realize just how much they mean to me, and how shitty my life would be without them.

"YOU GUYS ARE BEAUTIFUL!" I screamed as I ran toward them, barreling them into a big group hug, and giving them both big wet kisses on their cheeks.

And then I turned back to Auston and gave him another big kiss under the stars, he was my love, my soulmate, and I was so lucky to have him.