Developed Love || Auston Matthews (Completed)

Chapter 12

Austons POV

I don't know what's wrong with me. Why can't I just be nice to her? Why do I have to try and make her jealous, why can't I just admit my feelings for her.

All these thoughts were running through my mind, I just finished having shitty, meaningless, loveless, sex with that girl who I just met 2 hours ago and now I was leaving her in the hotel room and going back to my apartment.

Sex is great, I love sex, I have sex often, but having sex with (Y/N) was different. There was passion, I had feelings for her and they were undeniable. Even kissing her felt different than kissing other girls. So why couldn't I just admit it to myself? I really liked her.

I'm worried of rejection, or failing in a relationship with her. I love being around (Y/N), she makes me feel some kind of way and she's so nice to me, even when I'm not nice to her. I need to change that, I need to be nice to her, make it up to her. Maybe I'll take her on a date and tell her how I feel.

God.

All these thoughts running through my mind, walking back to the apartment wasn't a long walk, but it was a good walk, my mind and my thoughts eventually cleared up.

Marns
"Roadie starts in 2 days, I'm brining Steph and convincing her to bring (Y/N), maybe you can tell her how you feel then."

I read the text just as I entered my apartment.

Mitch came around the corner, shirtless and with wet hair, he had just showered.

"Hey Steph, just go to my room." He called when he saw me.

Gross... what did they plan on doing?

"Hey man, you get my text?" He asked

"Yeah, just got it." I sighed, walking past him and into my bedroom.

I had a lot to think about. Was I ready to tell her everything? And be honest? And be nice? Was I ready to give up being able to have sex with whoever I wanted to? Was I able to tell the girls back home that I wasn't available anymore?

I had too much to think about, so instead of thinking, I just shut my eyes.