Arranged To be Malik

chapter 9

Rawan's Pov:

it's been like what,like a month since I have married to Zayn.things are going good but from time to time Zayn doesn't tell me any word,he doesn't talk much to me,and to be honest I started to get very bored.he walks in the morning to go to the studio then he comes back at night,he would eat and sleep.see my life is very boring,all day I am lone sure I have Adam and all but what can I do?

I am still friends with Sara and Emily and I think we talk every day,I miss them so much,if you wonder I haven't told them about me and Zayn didn't do anything in our wedding night.I want to tell them but I feel they will think I am idiot because I didn't sleep with him,I mean he is the Zayn Malik from One Direction any girl want to be me.I made up my mind I will tell them today maybe at night.no I will tell them after I make the dinner I don't want Zayn to hear my conversation with them.

I started making the dinner when my phone rang,I looked at the screen,my mother is calling me,it's the first time to call me since I am married to Zayn,I don't know why does she do that with me?I am her onlt daughter,she should take care of me but instead she didn't and I am sure like hell she is calling me now because she wants something.I answered the phone.

"hey,Rawan how are you?"she aske me,and maybe I tell you,she seems to be upset.

"hey mum,I am fine what about you?"I asked her.

"I am not very good,I want something very important from you"she said.

I rolled my eyes at her even she can't see me.

TOLD YOU SHE WILL WANT SOMETHING..

"of course mum what do you want?"I said,she seems very nervous about that.she cleared her throat and she started talking again.

"me and Jack had a huge fight he left me this morning,I want you to talk to him please because he won't listen to me,can you call him?"she asked,I sighed,if you wonder yes we are muslims and all but when my real dad died she married a christian man.I knew she lost her mind but what can I do?yes I forget,nothing at all.

"mum,what did you do?"I asked her,my mum seems mad sometimes,when she and Jack fights she will fight with me,she thinks it's all because of me.

"it's not you business,you have to call him and make him come back okay"she snapped at me,well I didn't think she will do that.

"okay mum,I will do that call you later"I said to her,I hanged up before sha can tell me anything again.I called Jack like two times but he didn't pick up,I called him the last time,he picked up but I don't hear anything instead I heared something which dropped my heart in my feet.I heard some woman's moaning,my eyes widened when I heared that,Jack and this woman moaning each-other name at the top of their lungs.

I feel sick very sick when I heared them,he is cheating on my mother with someone else,and me is listening when they is having sex.I feel like I will vomit.I quickly hanged up before I will do something very stupid.I stood there like a statue,I can't move or anything.I don't know how I will tell my mother.I want to tell her,but of course she won't believe me.

I will think about that with Sara and Emily,I don't know if I want to tell them or not,I make up my mind quickly,I will wait sometime and then I will tell my mother that Jack is cheating on her.I sighed,I hate that kind of this men,I always hate Jack no matter what but this time I hate him more than before.

I looked at the window to see Adam is playing I smiled at this sight,he is very pure,he doesn't know anything about this cruel life and people,I finished the dinner and decided I will play with him,I don't want him to feel lonely because of me.I went towards him,he looked at me and smiled.

"hey Adam what are you doing?"I aske him.

"I was playing but I got very tired so I am having some rest"he said.

"do you want me to play hide and seek"I said and smirked at him.

"of course I will beat you"he said,he ran quickly before I can catch him,I giggled when he did that.I started to run and search about him,when I spotted his dark hair.I came behinde him and started tickling his back he then laughed very hard I can see his tears because he is laughing very hard.I stopped and he tried to catch his breathe.we both lied at the grass looking at the sky.

"you know mum,if I dated a girl,what does she look like?"he asked me,I didn't expect he would tell me that,I looked at him and shooked my head as a no.

"I want her to be like you,the same hair,the same ears,the same your beautiful big eyes,the same everything in you,I want her to be like you"I said,I looked at him in a surprise face.I don't know why he is telling me that,I mean I am not beautiful or anything,Perrie is more beautiful than me very much.

"Adam,I am not beautiful,why are you telling me that?"I aske him.

"first,I love you so much,second,you are very beautfiul no matter what mum,third I feel like saying it"he giggled at his last part.I put him in my lap and started playing with his hear.

"thank you Adam very much,I love you"I said and kissed his head.

"I love you too mum,very much don't ever leave me,promise me"he said

"I promise,Adam,I won't leave you or Zayn"I said.we sat like five minutes when we heared some one cleared his throat behind us,it gave me a heart attack.I stood up and saw Zayn looking at us.

"daddyyyyyyyyyyy"Adam said and ran at him,Zayn picked him up and hugged him.

"how are you?"Zayn asked him.I stood there like an idiot.

"I am fine,dad I want to go the bathroom and I will be back"he said,he ran to the bathroom.Zayn looked at me in a starnge way.I feel really insecure infront of him.I cleared my throat feeling awkward.I decided I will talk first.

"hey Zayn,why are you here early?"I asked him.

"it's my house I come whenever I want"he snapped at me,I looked at him with nothing but hurt in my eyes.

"yeah,I am sorry"I started walking away towards the kitchen,I feel the tears streaming down my face but I quickly wiped it,I don't want to show Zayn my weak side,so he can play with me any time when he wants it.

I prepared the table and the food,while I am making them someone talked behind me.

"Rawan"I know that voice it's Zayn.

"what now Zayn?"I said,I looked at him and sighed.I am really tired of that,everyday he snaps at me and leaves me like nothing happened.

"well I am sorry,don't be mad"he said,like everyday he would say that and being the idiot I am I believe him everyday he will stop doing that,but this day never came and never will come.

"okay,Zayn whatever"I said.I am about to go to my room when he grabbed my wrist,I looked at him and he looked at me as well,we stood there staring at eachother not saying a word.he looked at my eyes then to my lips,I feel my heart will explode.he started leaning down to reach me,it's funny somehow because he is very tall and me very short.

I don't know how to react if he gonna kiss me,should I kiss him back or not?I don't know,please God save me from that,please.

Adam walked down and Zayn quickly left my hand while me blushing like mad.I tried to catch my breathe again to normal.

"the dinner is ready Adam"I said very quickly,he nooded his head and went to set down.I put the food to Zayn and Adam,but I don't feel like eating now.I was about to go to my room when Adam stopped me.

"mum,aren't you eating with us?"he asked me.

"no,I don't feel like eating now,when I am hungry I will eat okay,call me if you want anything"I said and ran quickly to my room,I entered my room and shut the door.OMG I feel something very strange I don't know what is it,but it feels good,very good.

to be honest I want to sleep very bad,it's like 5 PM. but I am very tired my eyes began to shut and I found myself sleeping.

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Zayn's Pov:

I feel like I am sad and happy at the same time,well happy because Adam came in the right time before I kiss Rawan,I feel again I am cheating on Perrie.I am sad because I don't have the chance to kiss her or feel her lips on my cheeks or my head.I am sad because every day I snap at her and then come to say sorry and she forgives me.I don't know why I do that,and I don't know why does she forgive me about everything,Perrie didn't do that,she doesn't forgive and forget very easily.

I heared what Adam told Rawan about dating someone like her,I am totally agree with that,but which broke my heart three things.

first:she doesn't know she is very beautiful.

second:he said don't leave us and she promised him that but I am happy when she said she won't leave him or Zayn.

third:Perrie is his real mother,he don't love her.he loves Rawan more than anything which is good but it will be a lot better if she is his real mother.

it's been like an hour or two since Rawan went to her room,I am worried about her,what if she is crying or sick or anything I must check her up just in case if she is ill.

I went to her room and knocked no one answered me,I knocked again but nothing happened,I opened the door and there she is.

she is sleeping looking very calm but somehow she looks tired or ill,I hope she will get better,I smiled at the sight she is beautiful and just it,everything about her makes her more beautiful,especially her big warm heart.I kissed her head slowly not wanting her to wake up I want her to take some rest.I stroked her cheek slowly her skin is so soft.I kissed her for the last time but on her cheek because I know when she is a wake she won't let me near her after I am being a jerk.I sighed.I covered her with the sheet because seemes to me she is very cold.I began to walk towards the door.I shut the door and the light and went to my room to do anything because I am very bored.

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