Arranged To be Malik

chapter 12

Zayn's POV:

it's been two days since I did this shit to Rawan,I swear I didn't mean it,I won't ever forget how she looked when I tried to kiss her,and I will never forget how she looked sexy and very beautiful in nothing but towel,I couldn't control myself when I saw her,her long black and brown hair,he face and most of all her body.it turned me on very quickly when I looked at her.

when I started kissing her jaw line and neck I held the argue to kiss her beautiful and pink lips,it felt right to kiss her,and when she moaned when I kissed her neck I became even horny,I want her to scream my name in pleasure but not in the pain which I did with my stupidnedness.

things are very awkward between her and me,I tried to make small talk between her and me but of course she didn't answer me or talk to me at all,she just nodded her head as a yes at everything I told to her,some how it upset and make me sad very very very much.

when I looked at her face,and the first tear fall at her silk cheek I remembered Perrie,I don't know why but I just did,and let me tell you something the feeling of cheating on Perrie less than the last time which I am very happy about that,and let me tell you another something,if you asked me do I still love Perrie or not I will tell you,yes I do,and what about Rawan,well I like her maybe as a friend,and if you wonder why I kissed her I will tell you I thought I could forget about Perrie,and by the way she looked very hot in the towel and she turned me on after all.

actually she is the first one to turn me on since Perrie left me,sometimes Rawan drove me crazy,I thought about sleeping with her and kiss her.every day at night when I make sure she is sleeping,I go to her room and kiss her cheek or head,then I stroked her soft cheek.

sigh.

I will try again to make her to talk to me although I know she won't make a sound or do anything with me again,I gave her space enough to calm down hopefully she will forgive me,we tried to avoid eachother as much as we can,like I wake up early to leave to the studio before she wakes up,we didn't even sit with eachother at the dinner.

I told the boys everything they even know we didn't do anything on our wedding night,and they know what I tried to do to her,they became very mad especially Harry,the boys talked to Rawan and they became friends which I am very happy about that,I think Harry loves Rawan as sister,he told me he liked Sara,her friend,very much,he wanted to ask Rawan about her but he thinks it will be very awkward,the same at Niall he told me and the boys he liked Emily,her other friend,but they didn't talk very much with eachother so he diceded he will tarvel to Bradford to try to talk to her and try to know her better,I wish I will see Rawan and like her like the Harry and Niall like her friends but I just can't.

first I am scared if I loved her she would leave me like Perrie did.

second:Perrie still has her place in my heart and I can't to kick her out of my heart.

I want to spend some time with the boys so I told them to be at my place tonight with Sophia and El.,I didn't mention you the girls became friends with Rawan,did I? well,I did now.I just hope she will agree when I tell her the boys will be here tonight.

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Rawan's POV:

it's been two days since Zayn saw me in the towel,I tried to avoid him as much as I can,I don't want him to talk to me about that again,I mean the past is the past,isn't it.

I am watching Tv,while Adam is sleeping upstaris,I heared the door is opening to see Zayn walked in with cigarette between his lips,I quickly turned off the Tv to went to my room before he saw me,and of course because I am very luckly he saw me before I run to my room,he quickly pulled my hand and turned to face me.

"Rawan,please stop acting like that,I am sorry and I will say that until you forgive me,we didn't do anything wrong I am your husbend and I get it you are not ready but what can I do,we didn't kiss eachother since we married,please Rawan forget about that and forgive me and I promise you I won't do anything to you again"he said to me,I sighed he said he is sorry every time he saw me,I forgave him when the first time he said that but I don't feel like I can talk to him,I looked at him and nodded,he smiled very big while me giving him a little one,he left my hand and I turned to walk to my room again,but I should make him stop smoking,after all he is my husbend and I should advice him.

"um-Zayn,don't sound rude or anything but smoking is very bad habit you should stop it because you have a son and most of all because your voice"I said to him in a very soft tone,he looked at me surprised I think he thought I don't care about him or something but in fact I do,and I will care about him even if he hurt me,or hit me or hate me,or doing anything to me.

"so now you act all wifey"he said playfully,I giggled when he said that, I don't sound all wifey or anything I am just care about him very much.

"no no not like that it's just a bad habit and I care about you,alot..."I said but I whispered the last part so he wouldn't hear me,but I think he heard it because he chuckled and smirked, I blushed when he heard me,I think I am bad at whispiring.

"I am not joking it's very bad,please Zayn try to stop this"I said in a serious tone but my cheeks are still red because of blushing.

"I tried it once but I couldn't make it, and when I am very stress about anything I smoke so I can forget about my problems so why not"he said to me and shook his head.

"well you didn't try very hard so stop killing yourself slowly, we all need you Zayn, Adam, your family, the band, your fans and even me need you so try again and don't give up,and if you have any problem try to talk to someone or do something you like to forget about smoking again,okay"I said with smile,he nodded his head at me.

"promise"I said but my voice try to cheer him up a bit, I held my hand out so we can shook our hands,he chuckled at my sound,he held his hand and shook them together.

"oh Rawan by the way the boys may come tonight okay"he said,I nodded my head,the last two days me,the boys and their girlfriends became friends which I am happy for.

"um-Zayn I want to study this year anything,I mean I am home alone everyday and it get me very bored so can I study, and I promise you I will take care of Adam even more"I said,I am bored very much when I am home alone everyday.

"of course Rawan,that will great thing to do"he said and smiled,I smiled very big when he agreed,I had the argue to hug him and kiss his cheek,I didn't think about it twice,I wrapped my hand around his neck and hugged him very tight.

"thank you Zayn very much"I whispered in his ear and quickly kissed his cheek quickly I pulled away to look at his face which his eyes are very wide and his mouth open like an ":O" shape,I blushed and then ran to my room before he could say anything.I changed my clothes and wait for the boys to come and save us from this awkwardness.

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