Arranged To be Malik

Chapter 51

" Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are, 
I had to find you, tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart."  Coldplay- The scientist 
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Rawan's POV:

           I don't know what happened to me, or what happened to my relationship with my my husband, but all I know is blaming my mother for doing this to me. It's been over a month since my real breakup with Zayn, and it's been over a month since I smiled, or talked properly. There is nothing left for me to do in my life, the only thing that I have been holding on for dear life is now gone, so why do I bother to keep on fighting for my life, and for every relationship I have with my friends, family, and Zayn?

The only achievement that I did in this month was learning how to drive. I didn't ask anyone to help me in this, I just went to a very well-known driving school in London, then, I asked for a personal teacher to teach me, which they agreed immediately once they knew who I was being. All I could tell, this is the best decision that I have made in my whole life so far, which makes me somehow happy because I do something good in my life. Moral of the story, I passed my driving exams, and now I, Rawan Malik, have a driving license, and I am so happy because I prove to myself that I am able to do anything without asking for help from anyone.

Zayn hasn't called me since our last fight, he even doesn't care enough to ask about my health, or how I am copying with his harsh words, he just leaves me like this. Anyway, Adam calls me everyday, asking me what's wrong. I know for the record, he notices my absence, he asks me many times what happened with his father that makes the both of us not wanting to talk to each other ever again. As usual, I lied, telling him that everything was fine, plus I said I had to stay with Sarah because she was having problems with her pregnancy, which doesn't consider as a lie, Sarah is really having problems with her pregnancy, it makes Emily, and me take turns into helping her cooking, cleaning etc.

The last fight makes me realize how much I have been hurting Zayn, it makes me know that I have been walking on his heart without having a mercy. That day, I have called him many times, but he doesn't even bother to let Adam pick up his phone to tell me any lame excuse. I have tried to call for three days straight, but I only get the same reaction, which breaks my heart into tiny peaces from being too far away from him. I want to apologize, I really do, but he doesn't allow me to do something like this, as if he wants me to never contact him ever again. Am I that bad? I don't know, to be honest.

A knock on the door breaks my train of thoughts. I huff a little to myself, not in the mood to talk to anyone, but at the same time, I don't want to be rude to Harry, and Sarah, I should be thankful because they let me stay with them that long.

" Come in!" I yell through the door. I am in hurry, I need to finish changing my clothes, and doing my hair.

" Hey, Rawan!" Harry greets me as soon as he steps in the room. He watches me weirdly, because it will be the first time to go out, besides my driving lessons.

" Are you going out?" He questions me after he is done staring at me. I nod my head, but not wanting to tell him any details because I know he will blow in my face when he knows the reasons for going out tonight.

" Can you cancel it?"

" No!"

" But I invited the lads over here to have diner with us! Adam, and Zayn will be here too." My breath hitches in my throat at the mention of Zayn's name. His reasons make the desire in going out increase. I can't face him, at least not right now.

" I am sorry, Harry, but I can't be with you tonight." I bite my tongue hard in order not to make me cry in the thought of me seeing Zayn for the first time in nearly two months.