Arranged To be Malik

Chapter 31

I never thought that you..
would be the one to hold my heart..
But you came around and you knocked me..
of the ground from the start..
you put your arms around me..
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go..
you put your arms around me and I'm home..~ Christina Perri, Arms

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Rawan's POV:

" I think they are late guys" Harry's voice filled with panic when we notice Emily and Sara are late, their plane should have arrived the past half an hour, but there is no sign for the both of them, making us worried sick.

" Calm down Harry, maybe they are signing some papers, they will be here is no time" Zayn tries to calm us down.

" I hope so" Niall mumbles, we all sigh, waiting for them to arrive soon, I look ahead, seeing and watching all of the people, maybe I can catch a look to either one of them.

I'm worried, there is no doubt about that, what if something bad happened to them? what will I do without them? all of these sick ideas filled my brain completely, making me walk back and forth, waiting for them, Zayn notices my worried mood, so he comes closer to me, and puts his arm around shoulders, kissing my head softly, I can see Niall and Harry smile at us, making me blush slightly, I mean they saw us when we act like a lovely couple! I am sure they are dying to blow on our face but the situation is so awkward to do that, and this isn't the right time to high five each other.

After the kiss, Zayn didn't say much to me, but he hold me like I would disappear anytime soon, even when he drove to the airport, he hold my hand, I swear if he had the chance to put me in his lap while driving he would do that, there's no doubt for sure.

I don't knwo why is he afraid to love again? I mean yeah, maybe he does move on, but that doesn't change the fact he isn't able to love again, although I want him to myself, only, I'll be happy if he finds another girl who can treat him like a prince, it sounds stupid, right? yeah, I know, but his heart needs to be fixed, I promised him I will fix it, but I'm not sure if he will fix mine or not!

I wonder sometimes if he will love me or not, I'm not sure if it'll actually happen, Zayn came in my life in the right time, saving me from myself, but I'm the one who came in the wrong time into his life, making him to be torn even more, his heart does not belong to me, he didn't say it to me, but I have this feelings, everytime I imagine his heart is mine, I become happy, but when I know he doesn't tell me that in person, I feel like crying.

Zayn has my heart, there is no doubt about that, I think he even knows that, the boys of course told him, I know that, but I don't know what was his reaction, and I wouldn't dare to ask anyone, even Harry or Niall. everytime I fall, his arms save me form it, and I'm thankful to have him in my life.

I have never thought, Zayn would be the one to hold my heart, especially when he proved himself wrong in the first time we talked to each other, to be honest he was rude and jerk, big jerk, I know we forced to do that, but at least he could be nice to me, just to make it more easier for the both of us, However if someone told me before after this little slap he would be nice, I would never believe him, and that's what I saw, he slapped me, I cut myself, we cried together, promising we would never do that again, I forgave him but I can't forget, I can't help it, but I'll never use it against his will one day, then he saved me from Jack before he could do anything, then he shouted at me again in front of the boys when we thought we lost Adam forever, I ran away, he came to me, he said sorry like a million times, and I told him I have already forgave him, then he kissed me like he has never kissed anyone like that, then he kissed me again on the top of the world when we were in the ferris wheels, after that he gave me the teaddy bear, then we went to the hostel and we almost made out in front of Adam, yeah he was sleeping but still, then asking me to move in the same room, telling me he will choose me over Perrie everytime, until the amazing kiss we had a few hours ago, telling each other how we feel, pouring all of our emotions in that kiss, and I must say, it's the best kiss I have ever had in my whole life.

" They are here" Niall's screaming voice woke me up from my thoughts and daydreaming about my husband, I look where Niall looks and see them, As soon as Sara's eyes land on Harry, a wide stupid grin spreads all over her lips, she throws her bags away and runs to our direction, specifically Harry's direction, his arms spread open and pulls her against his body, he picks her up from the ground and twirls her round and round, I can see the happiness in there eyes, I have never seen them happy this much before, from their look, I believe in love.

" They are cute" I mumble, resting my back against Zayn's chest, his arms wrapping around my waist tightly, he makes gagging voice and I giggle but shoot him a playfuly glare at him.

" but we are cuter" He defends us, I look at him and raise my eyebrow, but he ignores it and nods his head, pleasing with himself.

" Maybe" 

However, when Emily's eyes notice Niall is here with us, they change, they filled with guilt, it's an awkward thing I know, I mean she didn't tell him she would be here by now, I think if I were Niall, I'd be angry and pissed off and maybe would be mad at her, but she has her reasons, I'm not taking her side, I know she is wrong, but again, she has her reasons, she still thinks Niall doesn't love her, although he is in love with no one else, but her.

We all notice Emily and Niall are looking at each other, like they are watching if anyone of them make a move first, I can't help but feel bad for the both of them, they are madly in love with each other yet they can't tell each other, why are they taking so long? damn, just tell her Niall.

Niall moves to the other side, so now he isn't standing in front of Emily, she looks about crying, we all stand in shock, even Sara and Harry are the same as Zayn and I, but I have this feelings telling me Harry and Zayn are faking their look, I think They know what Niall is doing, but again I don't want to say anything, Adam doesn't much surprised about what's happening but he is confused.

Niall comes to one of the chairs, then he stands on one of them, all of us looks at him weirdly, even Emily, like he is crazy or something, which is the truth, then he shouts all over the airport, " Attention please", making all of people heads turn around to look at him, Zayn and Harry smile at him, they are encourage him and I am sure like hell they know what will happen next, making me want to beg Zayn to tell me.

" What will he do?" I whisper in Zayn's ear, slightly begging him.

" Watch and you will see" He whispers back.

" Niall, what are you doing?" Emily whsipers/yells wanting him to stop what he is doing, but I want to know what will he do?!!

" Emily, I can't hold that any longer, I know I am an ass and a stupid to let you wait to hear my feelings towards you, but just hear till the end, Emily Rose Collins, I love you so much with everything in me, I was too chicken to tell you that, but here we are now, I'm telling you, in front of everybody that I love you so much, and I'll do everything in my power to keep you happy with me, so please please please, can you be the honor of becoming my princess?" Niall's heart speaks with his permission, I swear I can feel my tears stream on my face, his words are so beautiful, making any heart warm up beacuse of his words, I wish Niall to be Zayn and I wish myself to be Emily.

I look over her, finding her hand over her mouth trying to control her sobs, I giggle at her sight but can't dare to tease her, she has the every right to cry now.

" I love you too, so so much" She whispers, but Niall can still hear her, as soon as he heard her words, a wide grin dances on his lips, he quickly jumps off the chair and runs to Emily, he huggs her so tight and twirls her around, just like what Harry's done to Sara a few moments ago.

All of the people clap hard for them, as cheesy as it sounds, but I love his surprise, I begin to wipe my tears away, then clap like the other people while jumping up and down, not believing that Emily has found her prince charming, I can feel Zayn watching me but I don't know the reason, maybe because I'm acting like a child right now! maybe he is embarrassed to clap like us, I don't know, so I decided to ask him what's wrong.

I turn around to face him, already finding him smiling at me, he warps his arms around me, hugging and pulling my body closer to him, I wrap my arms around his neck, praying and wishing he will do the same to me.

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" Oh My God, London is more beautiful in place than in the pictuers" Sara gushes when she enters Harry's house, or I must say, her house too?

After this little confustion from Niall to Emily and his love for her, we all decided to go to Harry's house for a while, just having a breakfast with each other and go back to our house again.

" Believe me, when i show you around more you won't believe its look, this isn't a city, it's a paradise Sara you don't understan" Harry explains, we all chuckle at them, making Sara and Emily give us a playfully glare.

" so, what will we do now?" Emily questions, she is sitting in Niall's lap while his fingers playing with her hair.

" I will have the breakfast with you, then I am off, I'm going to go home because I'm tired and want some sleep, but of course Zayn and Adam can set with you" I explain and throw my head on the couch, I'm so tired, I want to sleep as soon as I arrive my house.

" No, I will go with you, Adam can be here if he wants" Zayn decided to go with me, alone time? it'll be fine with us, I guess.

" Okay, let's order something because I'm not in the mood to do anything" Harry states, grabbing his phone from his pocket to call and order the food.

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" I'm off now, I better go now before I sleep on your couch Harry" I explain and giggle, I stand up and wash my hands when I finished eating, I dry my hands with a towel, going downstairs to tell them I am leaving but small voices stop me, Zayn and the others, even Emily and Sara, are whispering, I want to hear what they are talking about, and that's what I do, I try to listen to them as much as I can.

" When are you planning on telling her, Zayn?" I hear Harry questions my husband.

Telling me what?

" I really don't know, I don't want her to be upset" He mumbles and sighs in anger.

" Zayn, you have to tell her before she finds out, and believe me she will be mad" Sara explains.

Mad? What will he have to tell me to be mad?!

" Soon, I will tell her soon" Zayn replies.

" I hope everything will be alright, she cares for you so much Zayn" Emily's small voice speaks.

" And I care for her too, believe me"

" hope she won't be mad when you tell her you're leavi-" Niall's words make me freeze.

Zayn is going to leave me? but why? did I do something wrong?

Before I can control myself or my emotions, I walk to them, Niall stops talking and all of them look at me with wide eyes, like they are seeing ghost.

" You're leaving me?" My voice betrays me and breaks slowly when I asked Zayn.

" Rawan, um let's talk about this later" Zayn explains while rubbing the back of his neck.

He never calls me by my real name when there's something bad or important is about to happen.

" No, we will talk now" I snap.

" Later, Rawan" the level of his anger is increasing and I know that, but I won't wait, I need an explanation right now.

" No Zayn, we will talk now or I'm leaving" for a moment I see Zayn's face feel, fear all over his face making me regret what I have told.

" Rawan calm down, nothing is wrong believe me" Harry tries to calm me down, but unwanted tears are in my eyes, I sigh and walk towards the door, I'm not leaving him, I will wait for him to be outside so he can tell me everything, I open the door and walk to his car, waiting for him to show up.

After like a minute or two, he comes after me, he opens the car door and I don't wait for him to open mine, I open it by myself and enter the car, he sighs but does the same thing as me.

" Talk" I snap.

" Can you calm down a little" He snaps back, I sink a little in my seat because he has every right to be angry while me being the bitch I am, but I hold my ground.

" How can I be calm when I knew from my and your friends you're leaving me" I yell but my voice breaks at the end, I don't want myself to be weak, especially in front of him.

" For the love for our God hear me, it's just two weeks, we have a little tour in America and will come back, it's not big deal" He raises his voice, it's not big deal? how dare he to say something like that.

" Yeah of course it's not big deal, but if Perrie were the one who said that to you, you would be mad and angry, but the fact that you're telling me it's not big deal proved me I'm nothing to you, Zayn" I scream, all of my anger is pouring out, he looks at me in a shock, not saying anything, he doesn't even defend himself, just staring at me.

" I'm going to go home" I mumble and about to turn around to open my door, but Zayn locks the door, I sigh in anger, he put the key in the engine and starts driving to our house, why doesn't he talk to me? why doesn't he shout at me to try to defend himself? he just drives, not saying one word to me.

Finally, our house comes to my sight, he parks the car in the garage, I open my door as soon as the car is stopped by Zayn, I go towards the door and open it, the whole time Zayn doesn't say anything, which make me believe my words, maybe I said it out of my anger and didn't mean anything, but now I actually believe my words, of course if Perrie was the one who told him that he would be mad at her.

" I'm going to sleep" I say, not waiting for his replay.

" Okay, sweet dreams" He mumbles, not looking in my eyes, not kissing me like everytime I say to him I will be in bed, not hugging me, not even smiling or anything, I sigh and go to Zayn's room, changing my clothes quickly before Zayn enters the room, I grab one of my pajama, it's just short shorts, and a shirt, I lay down on my bed on my right side, I stare at nothing, just the wall nothing else, I close my eyes, wanting some sleep because I feel all of sudden tired.

I am about drifting off but the door of our room is opened, I know it's Zayn, so I don't open my eyes, I want to know what will he do, I hear him walking around the room, I open one of my eyes a little, only to be greeting by him in nothing but his boxer, why does he have to be so beautiful, even when wears nothing?

I blush at the thought and close my eyes quickly, he comes to my side, in front of my back, then he brushes my hair away from my forehead with his soft fingertips, I smile a little not wanting him to see me, he kisses my forehead softly.

" You know I didn't mean not to tell you, I was afriad of being you sad or mad at me" He whispers in my ear, brushing his nose up and down my cheek, like he is smelling me, he rests his hand on my left hip, after a while, he puts his hand under my shirt, when his warm skin meets my cold one I shiver, his thumb starts rubbing small relaxing circles, and at this moment I want to say sorry and kiss him, but I want to know what will happen after that.

" But, I guess I was wrong, I shouldn't have done that, I should have told you before, if you only know what you are to me, you are my everything, I would die instead of you" His voice is so soft, his fingers are perfect, brushing my hair better than any brush.

" I wish you are awake now so I could tell you that I'm not leaving you, not now not after that" Zayn continues to speak, Oh God Zayn, just please stop, he makes me feel bad for everything.

He sighs and kisses my head softly, he comes to the other side of the bed, and he forces me to lay on my back, then he lays on his stomach, putting his head in the crook of my neck, brushing his nose over my neck again softly, I sigh happily, he pulls his head back, kisses my cheek and puts his head back, his arms become tighter more than before around my stomach, I put my arm around his neck to bring him closer to me, feeling his soft lips presses a soft kiss on my neck, warming my whole body, especially my heart.

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Sorry for this short chapter, but I'm super busy because tomorrow I'm going to start my school again *crying and screaming*

anyway, I hope you will enjoy it anyway, and forgive me when I update late!

Pray for me to do my best!

Stay Strong!

R.M xx