Arranged To be Malik

chapter 11

Rawan's POV:

I wake up feeling I am fine again and actually I can run,walk and do anything and everything.I decided I will go take shower to make me re-fresh again but first I should check on Adam and Zayn first,I am thinking I will made a special dinner as a thank you to Zayn because he looked after me yesterday after all.

I went downstairs seeing Adam is watching TV.,I kissed his head and smiled down at him,he looked very surprised I guess he didn't think I would be fine today or something.he hugged me very thight but it took me by surprise,I didn't expect he would do that.

"thank God you are fine mum,I was very worried about you"he said,I saw some tears in his big eyes,I smiled down at him and wipped his tears,it broke my heart to see him like that because of me.

"I am fine baby don't worry"I said and kissed his cheek and he kissed my cheek back,I am very happy that someone cared for me,happy when I am happy and sad when I am sad,and Adam gave me all of this,I wish Zayn will do the same to me.sometimes I wonder what would I do if he loved me? oh!! I remember he won't ever love me or even think about that because he is truly madly in love with Perrie.sometimes I became very sad when I thought about that,I mean she is more beautiful than me and every boy will die in order she will love him.

"Adam I will drink some water and have shower then I will make you some breakfast,okay?"I asked him,he nodded his head at me and smiled,I kissed his head for the last time and got up to drink some water,Gosh I am very thirsty,I entered the kitchen and drink while I put my cup in the sink I heared someone behind me,it scared me very much.

"Rawan,I am happy because you became fine"Zayn shouted and he looked very happy and smiled at me,WHAT?HE LOOKS HAPPY BECAUSE I AM FINE? of course not,I don't think so.

"by the way sorry for scaring you"he said and chuckled when he saw my face,I felt my cheeks turn to light pink when he said that.

"no problem,by the way I will have a shower and then I will make you breakfast,okay?"it came like a question from me,he chuckled again,well I look very stupid when I said that.

"of course you can"he said,I smiled at him and started to go to my room.

"ah Rawan!!"he said,I turned back to look at him and raised my eyebrows,he smirked at me.

"can I join you? maybe I help you to clean your back or something"he said and winked at me,my eyes widened when he said that,I blushed like there is no tomorrow.why did he say that?

Jerk.

I tried very hard to not show him my face because it's very red.

"in your dream Malik"I said at him,to tell you the truth I don't know I am very strong to say that to him,my own husband.I looked at his face seeing his mouth is wide.well he deserves it after all,I swear if he was a girl I would punch and kill her.I smiled at myself and turned back to go to my room,I closed the door behind me and sighed,I can't get over what he told me about showring with me,I feel my whole face is hot and red.Rawan got over it,of course he didn't mean anything.I sighed again,I grabbed my clothes and went to the bathroom,I took off all of my clothes,I smelled like a very ill girl.I relaxed when the warm water hit my back,actually all of my body,I finished showering and covered myself with towel and went out of the bathroom.I opened the door to face Zayn.what the hell is he doing her?I remembered I am naked,yes I have a towel but still I am naked and to be honest I am very insecure about my body,my look,everything in me.I blushed very bad,when will he stop that?

"what do you want Zayn?"I said while my hand grabbed the towel very tight not to fall down.

"well I came here to said I made you breakfast and waited for you to come out,and I am happy because I waited and saw you like that"he said and smirked at me,he took a step forward,making me take a step back.he chuckled when he saw me like this.

we did that until I hit the wall.

oh my God!!

he came closer very closer and wrapped his arms around my waist,pulling me closer even more.

I looked at him in a wide eyes and red,very red,cheeks.

"Zayn,what are you doing?"I said to him,my voice is shaking very much,actually I whispered at him,I don't even dare to look at him,I think if someone of us move we will kiss each other which I don't want to kiss him,I want to kiss him when we said I love you's to each other which something won't happen.

"maybe we can have some fun,Rawan,c'mon"he said in his sexy voice,please God help me.

"Zayn please let's go downstairs,if Adam saw us like that,he wouldn't understand please."I said in a whisper tone.he didn't say something back to me,I looked at his eyes which is dark very dark.I blushed even more,I think he could hear my heartbeat.he looked at my eyes,then lips,jaw line,my neck.

I think I might faint or fall if he didn't hold my waist tightly.

he then started to lean in but not at me lips,instead my jaw line he started kissing it softly,he then kissed my neck,every inch of it.my eyes closed with themselves in pleasure and excitement.
he kept doing that to me,I can't hold my moan any longer.I moan quietly,he smirked when he kissing my neck.I remembered Adam when we doing that.

I pushed him not too strong so I can talk to him.

"Zayn please,stop d-doing that,we should g-go downstaris,A-Adam might see us"I said to him while shuttring,he came closer to me again but placing his lips near my ear.

"what? do I make you blush and nervous?let's have some fun before we eat"he whispered,his warm breathe hitting my ears,he then placed a soft kiss on my earlobe.

"n-no,Zayn please,I don't want this please"I started to feel nervous very much.I tried to push him but of course he is much stronger than me.

"Zayn please"I whispered at him for the last time and one tear escaped my eyes,well I am afraid he will force me to have sex with him,and I am not ready,and even that I don't want to have it.

when he noticed my voice changed he looked at me and then regret replaced his dark eyes.

"Rawan,I swear I didn't mean it,I am sorry,I wouldn't do anything if you are not ready,I am very very sorry"he said very quickly,I nodded my head at him.I want him to leave me alone.

"please get out,I want to change"I said to him while looking down at the floor,I then felt two fingers pulled my chin,of course I know it is Zayn put I am very afraid to even touch me.

I pulled my head back because I don't want him to be near me at least in these two days.

I looked at his eyes and saw his eyes full of sadness,regretting,anger and most of all hurt,he looked very hurt.

I felt very bad when I did that but he deserved it after all.

"please Zayn,leave now"I said to him while looking down,I heared him sigh and leave me alone,when he closed the door,I broke down the tears,I am sad,very very sad.

I cried and sobbed very much and hard but I tried not to make a sound,I don't want him to make him feel bad even more,and also because I don't want Adam to hear me or ask me what's wrong it would be very awkward if he asked that.

I finished crying and quickly I dressed in my clothes.

I went downstaris and saw Zayn put the food on the table,Adam looked at me and smiled,I smiled back at him but my fake one.

Zayn saw me and quickly turned his head to another side.

I sat far a way from Zayn,the whole breakfast I feel him staring at me,well I am tried to not to cry again in front of them.

I didn't eat much,when they finished eating I quickly grabbed the dishes to wash them before Zayn talk or ask me anything.

"do you want any help?"Zayn asked me,I shooked my head as a "no" .

"Rawan,I swear I didn't mean to scare you or anything,I am sorry, very sorry"he whispered to me,I think he doesn't want Adam to feel anything.again I nodded my head at him like it's okay or whatever,he sighed and left me.

I feel the tears will stream down my face but quickly I held them back.

I just hope everything will be fine at night,I think I should call Sara and Emily to tell them about my mum and Jack,I haven't told anyone about this but hopefully they will believe me when I tell them that.

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