Arranged To be Malik

Chapter 33

'Cause you know,

You know, you know,

That I love you,

I have loved you all along,

And I miss you,

Been far away for far too long,

I keep dreaming you'll be with me, and you''ll never go,

I stop breathing if,

I don't see you anymore~Nickelback-Far away.

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Rawan's POV:

I enter my room after a long day, working in the house and other stuff, Zayn asked me many times to help me, or even to bring someone to help me in this work, but every time I refused, I want to do all of this work by myself, I want myself to feel a good wife to Zayn and a good mother to Adam.

I sigh sadly when I notice Zayn is not here any more, I miss him a lot, you will never know how much sad I am, the house is so empty, there is no a beautiful soul like Zayn's, the house is so quiet, I swear sometimes I become afraid when I am all alone, yeah Adam is with me, but it is not like before, when Zayn is with us, I know there is a real man who will do anything to keep his family and home safe, his absence affects me badly, I miss his aperence in this house.

I miss the feeling of his warm body, I miss his breaths that sending shivers down my spine everytime he breathes against my neck when we sleep, I miss his arms that always make their way towards my waist, I miss the way he hugs me, they make me feel alive, I miss the feeling I get when his lips are on mine, I miss it all.

It's been like one and a half week since Zayn traveled, I remember the day he woke me up to spend sometime alone before his plane took off, I was happy and sad at the same time, Happy because he wanted to stay with me as much as he could, this day he woke me up with a beautiful breakfast in bed, a morning kiss, a little simple but effective words that can make any knees weak, I wanted to cry, but at the same time, I wanted to enjoy that moment, I wanted to feel his breath against my neck, his arms around me, his body next to me, so I let it away from my mind to the back of my head. At the same time I was sad because he had to travel, and he didn't want to go anywhere, but he had to do that, it's his job and he has to respect it no matter what.

Many things happened in this week, let's start with something simple, first, I have filled many papers and folders to make Adam be accepted in pre-school. Zayn knew about it all, and actually he was a little sad because he missed it because of his little tour or whatever what people call it.

Zayn blamed himself that day, saying he was a careless father, I tried to comfort him as much as I could, and I think it helped him a little, yeah he was still sad but I tried to tell him how amazing he is with his son and with me.

To be honest, I have missed him so much, it hurts being far away from each other, I think I wasn't that hurt when I left Sara, Emily and my mother. Zayn is something else, he isn't like anyone I know, I realize I need him in my life, no matter what he is the one for me, I don't care if he hit me before, it was a mistake, and everyone makes mistakes, and I forgave him, so there is no need to be angry at him. It's Zayn, he is like an angel to me, he is perfect in everything and I wish I tell him that everyday, but I am too shy to say something like that, but If I had the chance, I would do it and there is no doubt.

My phone cuts me off from my thought, I go to get the call, praying it is Zayn, we didn't talk last night because he was busy and I didn't want to bother him much and keep him away from his work.

It's like God listened to me because the caller is Zayn, I make a happy dance inside my mind and a stupid grin covers my lips.

" Zayn" I whisper through the phone, happy at the fact that he called me, and sad because I can't see him.