This is Not What I Had Planned || Joshler [Completed]

23: Air Catcher

★Josh's POV★

Today was the day Tyler was going to post his first song online. He had just recently decided that he didn't want to upload the music under his name. He came up with the name Twenty One Pilots. It was a reference to an Arthur Miller play. He explained the importance to me and it made me smile.

He spent so long deciding which song he wanted to put up first. Finally, he picked Air Catcher. I really liked that song.

"You can do this," I said. I placed my hands on his shoulders. He was sitting at his computer. The mouse just hovered over the "post" button.

"Are you sure?"

"Positive."

And then Tyler clicked the mouse. A loading screen popped up saying it would take a few minutes to upload. Tyler let out a shaky breath and I kissed the top of his head.

I was proud of him. He worked so hard on all of his music. The rest of the world needed to hear his voice and his words. Tyler deserved this.

"Let's go get dinner," I suggested.

"I don't know if I can eat," Tyler laughed. My mind snapped into the worst idea and I looked at Tyler. "Just because I'm nervous." I blinked away my fear. Of course that was what he meant. Tyler is okay.

"We should get something anyway."

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Right when we entered our apartment again, Tyler went to the computer. He opened the tab and checked to see if anyone had listened to the song.

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"Probably just mom and dad," he said, sadly.

"It's only been up for an hour or two, Tyler. Give it time."

Tyler nodded but he didn't smile. He just tugged at his hair and leaned back in his chair. I put my hand on the mouse and clicked on something. The song began playing.

I don't fall slow like I used to
I fall straight down
You've stolen my air catcher that kept me safe and sound

I sang along. Tyler just looked at me with those beautiful brown eyes. I saw his lips curve up into a smile. It wasn't big, but it was there.

"Sing to me," I said. My voice was timid. I sometimes forget just what this man does to me "Please." He sighed and stood up. He grabbed my right hand in his left and spun me into him. I laughed.

I think you would beat the moon in a pretty contest
And the moon just happened to be the very first thing that I missed
I was doing fine on my own and there wasn't much I lacked
But you've stolen my air catcher and I don't know if I want it back

I could feel the beating of my heart as Tyler sang to me and we swayed. His hand was warm in mine. His other hand was on the small of my back. He made me feel safe.

And I just don't say what you wanna hear
So I'll write my fears
And I don't believe in talking just to breathe
And falling selfishly

And then I kissed him. I kissed him delicately and lovingly and with everything that I had to give. This man gave me all the words he could. His voice continued through the kiss from the speakers.

Now I'm here to give you words as tools that can destroy my heart

I pulled away and said, "I love you."

"I love you, too."

"Always?" Tyler looked confused as to why I would even have to ask. I was just feeling unsure. I didn't know why. Maybe it was because I knew that he was lying last night. Because I knew he wasn't fine but he didn't tell me.

"Always and forever."

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