This is Not What I Had Planned || Joshler [Completed]

15: Little White Lie

A/N
Thanks so much for getting this story to 1k reads !! I don't have an excuse for it being 16 days since I've updated and I'm very sorry.
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We'll try
To fly
Without
The wings of mine
We'll die
Fragile lives again
We won't proceed in this life
If we don't see what we need
Won't succeed
Please tell me
Where did we go

I knew better than to interrupt Tyler while he was recording, so I wrote a note instead. I wrote that I was going for a walk and to get coffee. I doodled a heart before leaving the note on the kitchen table. I closed our door and locked it behind me.

My nerves shook my body the entire walk. I thought that this would be a mistake and almost turned back. But, I convinced myself to keep going. I knew I would hate myself if I didn't find out what Brendon wanted to tell me.

I looked back and forth from the address on my phone and the apartment building in front of me. It was right. Inside the 27th apartment, Brendon was waiting. I rang the bell and played with the sleeves of my jacket.

"Hello?" The voice was unrecognizable through the speaker.

"Hey, it's Josh."

"Cool. Come on up." There was a buzz and I opened the door. My nerves rose with every step. I approached the door cautiously. I took a breath before knocking. The door opened and, to my surprise, it was Dallon who answered.

"Hey," I said, confused.

"Hi! Brendon should be back any minute. He said he had to run and drop something off at the post office and to let you in if you got here before him."

"Oh, uh, okay." Dallon gestured and I walked inside. He closed the door behind me. I looked around the apartment. It was similar to Tyler and I's. Maybe a bit bigger, but not by much.

"Can I get you something to drink?"

"I'm fine. Thank you though."

"Mhm." And then we settled into an awkward silence. I just sat and fidgeted with my hands.

Why would Brendon leave when he knew I was coming over? Me coming was his idea anyway.

Dallon looked like he was gonna speak when the door opened. I saw Brendon and stood up. Dallon did the same and walked toward the hallway.

"I'll leave you guys alone. It was nice seeing you, Josh."

"You too." I sort of wished that Dallon would stay. I didn't know what to expect from Brendon.

"Sorry to keep you waiting. I completely forgot that I had to mail this thing by tomorrow. I knew that if I didn't do it right away, I would forget again."

"It's fine. What's so important that I had to come here for you to tell me?" Brendon looked hurt for a moment but I didn't really care. I just wanted to get this over with. He crossed his arms over his chest and leaned against the wall.

"Well, I wanted to talk about what I said the last time we spoke."

"Of course," I sighed.

"I know that was stupid. I know that you love Tyler. I'm sorry."

"Y'know? I never thought I'd say this, but I'm tired of hearing you apologize. Instead of apologizing, you should just stop doing shitty things."

"Josh, I-"

"Brendon," I said, cutting him off, "I need you to listen to me. I get that you're trying to be a good person now, but it's not working very well. It's hard for me to be friendly with you when you were so awful to me in the past. I did try to move past it, but then you pulled all of that shit back by telling me that you love me. I can't move on when you won't either." Brendon just looked at the floor for a moment, biting his lip. Thinking.

"Okay." His voice was soft and thick with sadness. I almost felt bad. "I'm sorry."

"I'm gonna go. I'll see you around." Without another word from Brendon, I walked out.

I walked home with a feeling of relief. I opened our apartment door and didn't hear any music. I looked around and saw Tyler sitting on our bed. He was writing in his journal.

"Hey, Tyler. Your song sounded good earlier." Tyler didn't respond and I frowned. "Are you okay?"

"Where were you?" He still wasn't looking at me.

"I wrote a note that said I was getting coffee. It was in the-"

"I saw the note, Josh. But, I know that you didn't get coffee." Tyler finally looked up at me. His face was growing flushed with anger. "I read the note and thought I'd meet you there. But, when I got to the shop, they said you hadn't come in today."

"Tyler, I-"

"Why would you lie to me? Twice."

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A/N
Do you hate me? I'm in love with jealous Tyler

I needed some drama to keep me motivated. The next chapter is something I've had half-written since I started the book so that's exciting.

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