Loveless♣

Chapter 52

Wave after wave of shock hit Bella as she watched him leave.The moment she heard the loud bang of the door close,she felt one tear drop to her palm and gasped as her hand flew to her cheek.
She stared at her tear stained palm.
It was over.
More tears fell.
Just like that.
More and more.
Oh,the look on his face when he saw the letter...
The way he looked at her...
Like she was the scum of the earth.
And she was.

She looked at his tossed shirt. That was when the dam of tears broke.
That was when she broke.
She pulled her knees up to her face and sobbed.
Her cries rocked through her body and slippered her knees.
She didn't stop.
Didn't know how long she stayed there crying.
She cried for her dead mother and father.
For her sister and her best friend.
For all the friends she'd lost and all the bad love she'd received.
For ruining the only good man she'd ever met.
For ruining the relationship they had.
She cried because she was alone.
She was all alone in the world.
Everyone was gone.
He was gone.

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An hour passed and Bella sat still in the darkness,holding his shirt to her chest,staring into oblivion.
She'd waited for him to come back.
Waited and waited.
She inhaled his scent and her mind drifted back to when they'd first met.

"You do know that you're in a restaurant, don't you,miss?"he said coldly.
She laughed heartily."Do I look like I care?"she asked,cocking an eyebrow.
"Get your feet off the table," he ordered in a harsher ton.
A smile formed on her lips.
"Make me."

When he'd first kissed her.

"Why are you tongue tied,Bella?"He was grinning fully this time.He walked slowly towards her."Did you think we were..lovers?"
"Are you?"she asked boldly,lifting her eyes to look at him,a mistake she regretted immediately.He was standing right in front of her now and she could see very clearly the green halo ringing in his pupils.They were beautiful.
"Are we?"he asked.
"Hmm?"Bella said distractedly. She was still mesmerized by his eyes.She didn't realize she'd been cornered.His hands were caging her to the kitchen counter.She shook her head vigorously to clear it and she finally saw the position she was in.
"Uhh,what are you doing,Joshua?"
"Answer my question,Bells."
Annoyance flashed in her eyes."Bella,"she corrected."And we're not lovers.We can never be."
"Then why do you look so jealous,missy?"
"Ha!"she laughed once."Why on earth would I be jealous huh?"
He smiled slowly and touched her hair,making her glower at him.
"I don't know,you tell me."
"Ugh,"she groaned,and tried to release herself but only succeeded in drawing him closer."Get away from me,Joshua,you don't know what I'm capable of,"she warned.
He bent over and whispered in her ear,"Show me."
They stared at each other for a few seconds before Bella pushed past him roughly,releasing herself.
"You can't even handle me,nigga,"she said,walking away.
He pulled her back into his arms,caught her face in both hands and kissed her.She stiffened,then tried to stop the kiss but he deepened it,circling her waist with one arm to draw her closer.He kissed her until she stopped shifting and twisting,until she moaned.She wrapped her arms very tightly around his neck,kissing him with her mouth open.The kiss slowed to a stop and she gently untangled herself from his grip.His forehead was rested on hers.
She looked at him for a few seconds.She didn't speak because she knew she would strangle the words if she did so she did the only thing she could think off.She bunched her fist and plowed it into his gut.

She could feel the tears forming again.

...."I'm sorry,Isabella.I will keep my unwanted opinion to myself,as I always have. Can you sit down now?"
She was still glowering at him.
"Please?"he offered.
She relaxed a little,and released her grip on the table.
"Por favor?"
She hesitated,then beamed at the use of her language.Joshua smiled back at her.
"That's better,"he said as they sat down."If I could freeze that smile,I would.It's such a rare thing to come by."
She rolled her eyes and laughed."Oh,come on,I smile a lot."
He shook his head quickly."No,you don't. You smirk,you scoff,you tease and laugh at me,but you never smile like that."
"Well,that's your fault,"she said,scoffing.
"See?You just did it again."
They laughed,then froze.It was a strange sound, the fusion of their laughter.They had never heard it before.They stared at each other for a long moment,then Bella cleared her throat breaking the heated gazing.
"Right,"Joshua said softly.
Bella shifted in her seat uncomfortably.
"Hey,do you know we've not had one study session since we met?Nina and Emiko have had several already,"she told him.
"Yeah,that's because of your hardheadedness,"he joked,sipping the remainder of her drink.
She gasped audibly."No,it's because of your pigheadedness."
"Is that so?"He grinned."I'd punish you for that,but we just called a truce so I'll let it slide..for now."
She laughed."Punish me?Isabella Bronze?Hah!You wouldn't dare."
I probably shouldn't have said that,she thought because his gaze darkened at once,and she saw a flicker of desire in his eyes.
"Uhm."That was the only comprehensible thing she could think of as he stared at her.Her gaze travelled to his lips.
Perfectly formed,she thought and smiled slowly.Joshua did not smile back.His stare was so intense that she thought he'd burn a hole through her.
A phone rang loudly,startling them both.Bella tore her gaze to her phone and let out a shaky breath,thankful for the distraction.She didn't know how long the heated moment would've lasted if her phone hadn't rang.
The ringing stopped as soon as it started.Bella frowned and picked up the phone.A message popped up.As she read it,her face fell abruptly.
"Shit,"she muttered,staring at the phone.
"What?"Joshua asked,concerned.
"Trouble,"she replied and hung her head in her hands."Shit,I'm so screwed."
Joshua frowned deeply.He had the sickening feeling that she was talking about something dead serious.She looked out of the window,her hand over her mouth,a blank expression on her face.It took a moment for Joshua to see the tears brimming in her eyes.His heart raced.Bella crying?Something had to be terribly wrong.
"Bella?"he called.She didn't reply.She seemed to be in a trance like state.
"Bella!"
She was frozen,staring out the window,her mind elsewhere.The tears began to fall slowly.She didn't move,didn't even sniffle.She looked transfixed...helpless.Joshua grabbed her arm and shook her.She turned to look at him.Her eyes were filled with so much pain,but her face was so still.If it hadn't been for the tears,one would think she was just lost in thought.
Joshua stood up and hurriedly sat beside her.He held her shoulders and tried to turn her towards him.She was stiff.
"Damn it,Bella!Answer me!What's wrong?"
She blinked and turned to look at him.She frowned,as though she was just seeing him.
"I have to go,"she said,and a sad expression filled her face.
"No,"he said firmly."What happened?Why are you crying?"
She shook her head slightly, and wiped her cheeks."You wouldn't understand."
"Try me."
She looked at him for a long time.His eyes were so beautiful,light brown with a touch of green ringing in the pupils.Her mind fogged a little.Then,out of the blue,she pressed her lips to his.Joshua jolted backwards immediately.To say that he was shocked would be an understatement.
Bella stared at him.She looked so hurt that Joshua's heart nearly broke.He took her face in his hands,and wiped her cheeks with his thumbs.Bella frowned at the gesture.
Joshua took one look at her beautiful sad face.Desire snaked up his spine,circled his gut.
"Fuck it,come here."
Bella's eyes widened in shock but she didn't have time to reply because a second later,his lips were on hers,moulding her full lips to his in fluid movements.She gasped as his tongue parted her lips to taste her.A moan escaped her lips and vibrated into his mouth.He groaned and deepened the kiss.Her hands slipped around his shoulders and her fingers rested on the back of his neck.He shifted angles,and when she trembled,drew her closer.They were drowning in each other.
Bella was dazed when they parted.She blinked repeatedly,trying to clear her head,trying to understand what had just happened.Joshua was still staring at her,his eyes so intense that they pulled her to him.She tore her gaze away,panicking, and rose quickly before she did something stupid,like kiss him again.