Two- A Josh Dun fic

18- forever

I woke up in my bed, with a pounding migraine.

"What happened?" I whispered.

"You passed out, after telling me that you don't know what Jaelyn will do to you." Josh said, adjusting his position.

"Oh" I began to remember what happened a few hours ago. "Oh" I said a little softer.

"Listen Tori, I'm so sorry. I should've never told Jaelyn anything about you, or brought you up." Josh began rambling.

"Hey, hey, it's ok." I began reassuring him while touching his soft cheek. "It's fine." I lied to him.

Lying. Something I need to do less of.

Especially to Josh.

"Just promise me one thing."

"Yea?" I whispered.

"Don't do this-" he motioned to my left arm. "Ever again. Please. If you need me call me, just don't do this." He was on the verge of tears.

"I'm sorry Josh." I said, barely audible.

He lied down on the bed and tried to sleep.

I could see he was having trouble sleeping and so was I.

I rubbed his back and helped him steady his breathing from his crying. I'm messing up this boy, one who shouldn't waste their time on me.

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Later on, I found out that Josh was moving out of his apartment and into Tyler and I's complex. When I asked him why, he told me that he doesn't want to be anywhere near anyone who hurt me. I was surprised. No one has ever loved or cared about me enough to change their lifestyle completely.

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"Josh?" I murmured in his ear while we were watching "The day after tomorrow".

"Yes babe?"

"Why do you love me? Why do you put up with me? I'm a freak that destroys everything in its path." I added the last part quietly.

"Because I don't see a freak," he said, signaling that he heard the last part. "I see the most beautiful person ever, inside and out. One with an amazing voice, who can write songs better than Tyler," He chuckled. Did he hear me sing? I blushed at his words. "and someone who will love me no matter what." he finished quietly.

That's a problem I have and Josh is right. I do love someone no matter what. If Josh broke my heart right then and there, I would still love him. I just hope he doesn't leave me in my worst times. It's Josh, he would never do that.

But everyone leaves at one point.

Nothing is forever.

And that's what scares me.

We all have paper hearts that rip too easily.

"Paper hearts." I whispered to myself. That could be the name to my next song.

"Hmm?" a sleepy Josh asked.

"Oh, nothing." I said, forgetting that Josh was still here. "Just thinking out loud."

I sighed looking down at the sleepy boy resting his head on my lap. God, he was adorable. The way his eyes squint when he laughs or smiles. Or the way he bites his lip when he's nervous or happy.

I began to play with his hair wondering how it would look a different color.

"Blonde, maybe."

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OK SO i know josh doesn't dye his hair during the RaB era but i sorta wanted to do a little AU for fun so don't get upset