Melrose • Dolan Twins

課 001

The clock struck one.

The water looked deep and inviting. I knew for myself that time has come for me to end it all, for I had nobody else by my side.

No family. No friends. No lover.

Oh, but don't blame them. They were good people. In fact, the best people I've ever met. So instead, blame it on me. Hate me. Throw those shiny, sharp knives of yours at my bare back. Afterall, it's my fault, so it is only fair.

Besides, you don't have to worry. I won't throw them back. I'll even team up with you.

You with me, vs me. If that makes sense.

Hatred won't grow inside of me since I already am full of hatred. I'll simply accept my defeat and ask for forgiveness.

Though I must admit, that at that very moment, I felt a little tiny ounce of pride, and perhaps, happiness, you could call it. Looking back at everything I've been through, I still wonder how did I make it so far. How did I bare the pain throughout all these years.

But that didn't matter to me, not anymore.

My mind was set.

But before I proceed, your curiosity must be eating you out alive, wondering what lead me to this point in my life.

Or, maybe you're even going against my own will, judging my own acts without having the knowledege of the whole story.

And let me guess, some of you may even be itching to ask the reasons for my own decision.

But, even if I did explain, you wouldn't be able to understand.

My apologies, I'm not understimating you, though, I refuse to give you my reasons. Instead, I'll just proceed to tell you a little story of my life.

So to those of you who'd like to know, I'll begin.

And I might as well,

start here.