Melrose • Dolan Twins

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I licked my lips, feeling the anxiety creep up on my sleeves.

I looked at Grayson, who was smiling, laughing and just having a good time. The past was already forgotten, and he was good again, despite having a bruise and a small cut.

Then there was me, pretending I was having fun, while my mind panicked. Time was ticking.

Soon, the event would be over.

I was nervous, anxious as we made our way home. I did not know why, but I had a bad feeling.

Something told me I should not be heading to the twin's house.

"Babe, are you okay?" Grayson asked, snapping me out of my thoughts.

I flashed him a small smile and a small nod. "Yeah. I'm fine" I lied. "Just a little tired I guess"

"Wanna sleep as we get home?" He asked concerned, tucking a loose strand of hair behind my ear.

I nodded and he gently pulled me closer to him.

He gently grabbed my ankles and placed them over his lap while my back rested against the car door.

"Alright, go to sleep" He smiled, pecking my cheek. "I'll wake you up when we get home"

I wanted to apologize right there, right then, about everything. Every single lie, every single unloyal thing I've done.

Bad. Unworthy. Guilty. Unloyal. Slut. Were not only the words that flashed through my brain.

I did not deserve him.

I closed my eyes, listening to my heart pound through my chest, my panicking mind and the voices in my head.

A few tears slipped down my eyes, and Grayson noticed.

He did not question me, for he thought I was already asleep. Instead, he quickly wiped them with his thumb and focused back on his driving.

We got home at 11:10pm. He carried me bridal style up the stairs, to his room.

Everyone else in his family were already asleep.

He laid me down on his bed, removing my three-inch heels and then removed his shoes, before laying down next to me.

He pulled the covers over us and kissed the top of my head, mumbling goodnight.

A few more tears ran down my cheeks as I felt him wrap an arm around my waist.

Eventually, he fell asleep and began snoring lightly.

I received another text. Not from Ethan, but from an unknown sender.

"Countdown starts now. 47 hours left" It said.

I sighed deepily, trying my best to calm myself.

I looked over to Grayson's desk, at his digital clock.

I had one minute left.

I looked around the dark room and removed Grayson's arm slowly and swang my legs to the edge of my side of the bed as I got up.

I walked silently out of his room and walked across the hall to Ethan's bedroom, where it reeked like alcohol and cigarettes.

The door was opened just a crack. I could see Ethan sat down on his bed, leaning on his knees as he ran his hands through his messy hair.

"Don't just stand over there watching me. You got a job to do" I heard him say with such a  deep, hoarse voice.

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- Raine Hernandez & Grayson Dolan, Car Ride, Melrose