The Phoenix

Chapter 18 - Don't Talk, Just Walk

(Scar's POV)

My alarm sounded in my ears, but it was much more pleasant than the one I used before. Instead I used my phone now, which let me pick and choose the alarm alert that I wanted making it peaceful to wake up.

Kinda.

Pulling my phone from under my pillow, I silenced the alarm just to lay my head back on the pillow.

My eyes wide as I stared up at the ceiling and for the first time in along time I felt a bit of happiness. And I only have one person to thank for that happiness and it happened to be the person that I lie to everyday.

Kyson.

I lie to him about the real me and he doesn't deserve that. I know that I should have at least opened up to him when he told me about his sister, but I was scared. I was still in a vulnerable state after what Ivan did to me just hours prior to that.

I'm just afraid that he won't like or love the real me.

I'm not from his side of the tracks.

What if he could never see himself with the real me?

I frowned at the ceiling now, mad at myself and how much of a coward I am.

I'm so much of a coward that I should have it tattooed on my forehead.

I'm going to tell him...

I just don't know how....

Or when...

I made that promise to myself, that I would tell him soon.

I pulled myself out of bed, it squeaked under me in protest as I got up. Pulling my cover over my sheets and pillow I grabbed my phone and headed to the bathroom to brush my teeth.

After cleaning up, I went back to my room to start dressing. I went to my closet in search for my uniform. With it being the middle of the week, Wednesday, I had no choice but to wear it.

I hated how fast the days and weeks were going by. It's getting closer and closer to the Halloween dance at school which had Paisley pressuring me to go every chance she got.

Sometimes I wish that she would just drop it.

Kennedy always knew what to do to make Paise stop hounding me about stuff that I rather not do. However, Kennedy has been MIA this week and hasn't been speaking with me or Paisley.

I'm starting to get really worried.

I see Nick and his douche bag friends, but Kenn is never there. I even thought about asking him where she is but, he would probably never give me a straight answer.

Hopefully, I can talk Paisley into going by her house after school today to check on her. Paise just thinks that she is sick considering she was at school all last week.

Kenn is still mad at Paisley for the whole Nick situation and hasn't spoken to her at all.

I dressed pretty quickly, deciding to straighten my hair and add a bit of makeup to my eyes; eye shadow and mascara.

I grabbed all of my belongings, including my black peacoat and scarf to keep warm in our dropping temperatures.

Throwing my backpack on my back, I glanced at myself in the mirror. I was actually happy with the way that I looked today.