The Phoenix

Chapter 27 - Sit

(Carter's POV)

I hung up with Scarlett and began my self loathing.

I am so fucking stupid.

Really fucking stupid.

I replay the night I showed up drunk to the girls' home over and over in my head. I have made better choices in my life, obviously that wasn't one of them. I already know that Sandy called Miss Green just like she told Lanie and Scar not to contact me anymore.

I've been sulking since then because I'm sure I fucked up my chances of ever being Lanie's foster parent. They haven't confirmed it with me yet, but I know I had.

I fucked up.

Lanie and Scar come from drunken and drugged up households, I should have never went there or brought that shit around them. Miss Green and Sandy don't exactly know me, and they don't know that I would never hurt them in a drunken spell. Nor do I do drugs.

It's too late to prove that to them because I showed my ass to Sandy. I can't fix it. There's nothing I could say, I know it. But I still need to apologize.

It's been a week since that happened. And I had to at least try and fix it. I have to try for Lanie.

School was back in session for me, and focusing on work has helped to take my mind off of all this shit. I try not to think about how much I screwed up, and when it slips my mind even for just a few hours, I'm at ease.

"What's up, Carter?" Kaiser greeted me, walking up behind me as I had just walked into the classroom.

We've been hanging out a lot lately, school was back in session for the both of us. Last semester classes were over and we started our new classes, and I was a little weirded out that he was not just in one of my new classes, but two.

I took a seat at a desk in the back, he sat down at the desk next to me. "What's up, man?"

"What are you doing tonight?" Kaiser asked me, taking his notebook from his backpack and placing it on his desk.

Nothing.

I have no life.

I shrugged my shoulders. "Nothing. What's up?"

Kaiser nodded his head. "My buddy is having a party at this old, abandoned warehouse tonight." He continued. "Wanna come? A lot of hotties, alcohol, and whatever you smoke."

I looked at him, almost like her was crazy.

He knows I have a girlfriend.

"Sure, but just for the alcohol." I chuckled without humor. "I have a girl and I don't do drugs. I'm a fighter."

"You're right. Okay, cool." Kaiser nodded with a smile. "I'll be at your place by ten o'clock."

Thank God it was his buddy's party because besides me, I don't think Kaiser has any other friends. The only time I see him at school is when he is with me, no one else. He doesn't speak to anyone else nor do I see him socialize with anyone else.

I mean, he probably has friends outside the school, but I doubt it.

Dude's a loner. Big time.