Make Me Forget✔

T W E N T Y F O U R

Song Of The Chapter: I found- Amber Run.

Anastasia's POV_

"Me and Veronica are back together." As soon as the words left his mouth, I felt the room lacking air, or maybe my lungs stopped working because I could no longer feel some parts of me, I don't fucking know, but hearing this exact same sentence leaving this exact person's mouth was a complete ending to everything beautiful I had in my mind, and as the silence took over the room, the echo of his name with hers started getting louder in my head, and images of the kiss they shared was the only thing I could see, as I was completely glued to my place, wondering if my heart's still beating, or are those just beats of a heart that has been played.

It's funny how this shouldn't affect me one bit, seeing it's only reasonable he gets back to her after every tear he shed through her absence, but in my heart, and all through my body, I have a feeling I've never felt before.

I can't tell if it was disappointment, disrespect, or just pure sorrow to a sentence so simple, yet so painful, but I can assure you, it was like a stab in the back, or a kick in the guts, and I was suddenly starting to realise everything, and see all the missing pieces come together.

I'm here, in the arms of a man that Joyce set me up with so randomly in a club, only to spend one night with, and now I'm here, after a whole month, still allowing him to touch me, only because his hands are the best thing I've ever felt against me, and I'm still showing up when he calls me, only because his lips numb me out everytime, making me feel as if I've never been kissed before.

I'm here, after a one night stand, getting worried when I see tears filling his eyes, and scary thoughts filling his mind.

I can't believe I'm saying this, but after so many years of me leaving guys on read, ignoring phone calls, dumping men for no reason, leaving so many guys wanting more without even looking back, I let a heartbroken singer break my heart.

I've experienced so many feelings today, but I can safely say, that this is the first time I hear the painful crack of my heart snapping in two, and even though I could've found someone else, I still chose someone else's man, someone else's heart, and someone else's hands that shouldn't be touching me right now.

It's hard because I just realised how much I've wanted him all to myself all this time, yet there's no possible way I could have him.

And I swear, when he told me that someone else now owns his heart, the same person that broke it endlessly, it felt like as he's telling me I'm going to be dead the second I walk out of this room.

I had hope.

I had a glimmer of hope that maybe I'm capable to making him forget... but I guess it was the other way around, where he made me forget what I'm already here for, which is a lustful night and a silent morning, and the fact that I'm realising all of this now made my heart shatter into a million tiny fucking pieces.

And if I knew last night was our last night together, I wouldn't have stayed, because every second I've spent with him has led me to get so attached, I don't think I'm going to be able to let go without losing a part of me, and what's breaking me the most is that I've been here for him when his heart was broken, but now, who's going to be here for me?

Who's going to tell me that the foreign feeling taking over me right now will eventually fade away, and that I shouldn't have stayed?

Who's going to save me from the person I wanted to save?

"What?" My hands fell off of his chest and I found myself stepping away immediately, the amount of tears I'm holding back suffocating my inside, as if the inner part of me is already dead without an explanation, yet I'm able to move my mouth, and ask such a useless question, because I heard what he said as clear as ever.