Sleeping Beauty

Kabanata 31

Kabanata 31

Crazy

-Iya-

I heard him sigh. "And why are you telling this to me? If you want me to let you go then-"

"No," maagap kong sambit at hinarap siya. Seryoso at puno ng sakit ang tingin niya sa akin. "I'm telling this to you because I want to forget him. I want you to wait for me until I finally forget the feelings that I have for him." buong lakas kong sambit sa kanya.

"You know, Iya, I can always wait for you. Kahit hindi mo sabihin sa akin, mag-aantay na ako sa'yo." his voice sounded between hopeful and in pain. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at malumanay akong tinignan. "I hope you'll allow me to help you forget him..."

Hindi na ako nakapagsalita. Hindi ko na din alam kung ano ang gagawin ko.

I just want to forget Jerome and open my heart to someone I know who loves me.

I need security.

When deafening silence filled us, Keith leaned towards me. I didn't move. He cupped my face with his both hands as he slowly closed the distance between us. Natigilan ako ng maramdaman ko ang labi niya sa noo ko.

And from that moment, I know that I made a right decision. To let go of the uncertainties and to hold on to something that will give me an assurance. If this is the easiest path to solve my problem... then I'm in.

"Let's go to National Museum after you submit the list of songs that you'll sing for the fair, okay?" nakamasid na sabi sa akin ni Jethro habang abala ako sa pagsulat ng kanta na kakantahin ko for the fair.

"Oo na," sabi ko at sandali siyang binalingan. "Ang kulit nito!"

"Conscious lang ako sa grades ko, malapit na kaya deadline nun." lumapit siya sa akin at tinignan 'yung sinulat ko, kaagad ko naman 'tong tinakpan. "Nakita ko na, Iya."

Sinimangutan ko siya at inalis ang kamay ko doon sa papel. "Panira ka,"

"May hugot ba 'yang mga kanta mo na 'yan?" he asked once again. Why is he asking so many questions by the way?

"Wala..."

"May kanta na ba kayo ni Jerome? Sino magsu-submit?"

I suddenly let out a heavy sigh. Hindi ko alam kung bakit 'yung okay ko na araw kanina ay hindi na okay ngayon dahil sa pangalan niya. Ang hirap talagang mag-move on. Hay. Naalala ko 'yung text niya sa akin kagabi. Ako na lang daw ang mag-isip ng kanta. He's fine with whatever song I'll choose. And gusto niya na isang kanta lang ang kantahin so that we don't need to put much time and effort to practice.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit medyo na-disappoint ako ng konti.

"Yup, ako na ang nag-submit kanina." simpleng sagot ko.

Pagkatapos kong sulatan ang form ay bumalik na ako sa room ng Music Org kasama si Jethro. Sheena wasn't able to come with us because she's busy cascading all the tasks to the writers of the school publication. Malapit na kasing mag-end ang school year.

Pagpasok namin ay bahagya akong nabigla ng makita sina Jerome kasama 'yung ibang mga kaibigan niya. Siguro ay nagpasa na rin sila ng song list.

"Ouch!" sumigaw si Luke kaya napatingin kami sa kanya. His hand was on his chest and his expression was in pain exageratedly. "O kay bilis namang maglaho ng pag-ibig mo sinta..." kanta niya bigla.

Halos manlisik ang mata ko sa kanya. Before we can even cut his drama, a guy shut him up. Marahan niya pang hinampas sa dibdib si Luke. "Baka wala naman kasing feelings in the first place," humalakhak ito.