Sleeping Beauty

Kabanata 34

Kabanata 34

Yes

-Iya-

"Eyes closed that refuse to open

Turning blue nowhere to run

A soft whisper drawn like breath

And those visions confuse my head..."

I roamed my eyes on the crowd as I started to sing my next song. A soft smile surpassed my lips. I suddenly realize that everything happened to me is just a part of my life. Marami pa ang pwedeng mangyari.

Probably the time and memories that I have with Jerome are just a part of a chapter. Maybe in the next chapters, hindi na siya ang kasama ko o wala na talaga siya mga iyon.

Huminto ang mga mata ko sa lugar kung nasaan sina Jerome. His stare was cold and distant. I couldn't even determine the emotions that I'm seeing in his eyes. Mabilis kong inalis ang tingin ko sa kanya at bumaling na lamang sa iba. I don't want to deeply push myself on those emotions all over again.

"How could I forget

Or even lie to myself

That there's just something

Maybe it's pain and love

'Cause the past has the way of holding in..."

I closed my eyes and just let all the emotions I have flow. After this, I know the next chapter of my life will start. Maybe, one day, I can love someone else... that the love that I'll give him is greater than the love that I'm feeling right now.

"Feels like you had me, but I never had you

I gave you all of me and only got a piece of you

My heart is sore but I gotta keep going

Like I've been trying hard, so hard, to keep myself

Breathing

But goodbye

Is not the end

Not the end..."

I opened my eyes and saw the crowd singing along with me. Lumawak ang ngiti ko. I remember how I tried my best to exclude myself from others because I don't want to trust them. But now, I want to meet a more people. I want to learn more from them. I understand that there are people who may break your trust or may hurt you but it's okay.

"I've built these walls so high

And you brought me out of myself

'Til we filled almost there

And yet we crashed to hard..."

Whatever reason Jerome had for him to enter my life, I really appreciate how he broke the high walls I build around me. I hope he'll know that I'm thankful for him even if I have a shattered heart right now because of him. But I don't want to blame him, I let myself fall for him... I let him see me... even if he, on the other hand, didn't allow me to see him.

"Realized that this is far as we can go

From the night that you called

I was sitting alone

'Til you said something you feel like giving up..."

He made me open my life to him. I thought he was open about his life, but I realize that he's more reserve compare to me. I didn't even realize that maybe, the walls that he build around him are greater than the walls that I had.