Blue Moon

81) What to Do With Myself

I began with:

"I want to be free"

and I flew

in paper wings

from my house of cards

from the palace

of my mind. I flew

from the attic window,

drifted away

in the sky. It's not so

blue today, but forget that

I flew with paper wings

I dreamed of freedom,

found it in my cage

in my ribs, my bones

my bones my bones...

I flew in a breath of life

flew in my first breath

reborn I take my first-

breathe. I can breathe again

for a bit. Let me not

let time pass me by

can you give me anything?

Because I can give you everything

I have. Will you give me anything

when I will give you everything that I will?

I'll close the door on myself

if in the end that's what it's all for.

Forget that,

will you?

guys say, 'they got bitches'

well okay then, I'll be a bitch

(I'll do it real good)

be like them girls

be like the movie, be like the picture

so put me in a movie

put me in the picture, make me your muse.

I'll do it real good, 'cause that's what's expected of me,

right? You can be the boss

and I'll be pretty.

Yes.

I'll be pretty

because that's what's expected of me.

(31st March 2014)