Chapter 7 - Updated*

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Spencer

I sit in bed doing homework.

Or should I say, I should be doing homework,

I'm just too caught up on Toby's behaviour.

He took me to that place and was so sweet, he kissed me and all was fine. But after that. I thought he was being sweet because he was showing me his otherside because I'm one of the few people who actually give him a chance. But then he does all that and doesn't even deny that it was part of his plan.

What did I do to him that made it okay for him to use me?

And I am disappointed with myself for allowing it to happen

Is that what me being kind leads to?

He needs to understand that this situation can never spoken about and will never happen ever again.

Before I can fully process my thoughts I find myself heading downstairs

"Where are you going Spencer?" my mom asks

"Cassidy's, she needs help studying"

"Alright, be home by 11"

"I will"

I get in my car and drive to Toby's house.

When I get there I walk up the stairs and bang on the door without even thinking.

To my luck their are no cars in the driveway and Toby opens the door.

"Spencer what are you doing here?" He asks

"What was that?"

"What was what?" He questions

"Today!" I yell " I've been nothing but nice trying to get to know you and not the version of you everyone sees and talks about. I cut class with you, something I've never done before and you think that means I wanted you in anyway"

He rolls his eyes "what did I do Spencer?"

"You know exactly what you did"

"I do a lot of things. Why don't you remind me" he smirks and I get so frustrated

"You just want the satisfaction of hearing me admit that you kissed me and fingered me. So fine, Take the satisfaction because trust me it will never happen again. You're disgusting and I'm annoyed because I stood up for you only to have you use me. That's low. Even for you"

"What about you huh?" He yells "did you once push me away or tell me to stop? No. We kissed in the water, tou kissed back. You pulled away after a bit but you never complained or told me to stop. When I kissed you again you never pushed away. When I started taking off your clothes you never said anything. At no point did you make an effort to get me to stop so nice that you realized you don't like it you're coming to me to give me shit. Well guess what Spencer, once you agree to do something you can't really take it back And you can't make the other person feel like shit because you aren't happy with the outcome" he yells but softens at the end.

"I know that but you knew I was vulnerable. You knew I had never done anything so obviously the new feeling would be hard for me to want to pass up but you should've used your better judgement"

"Listen to yourself Spencer! Like honestly this is how you wanna do this. Well fine then I can simply say, I'm a guy and if a girl is gonna allow him to do something to her and he finds her attractive in anyway he's not going to stop. The only time he might not do anything is if she's drunk and throwing herself at him. That wasn't your case so I did nothing wrong"

"You're disgusting. I don't even know why I came over here to reason with you. Let me just ask you this, do you find pleasure in using girls?"

He just stares at me

"Say something!" I beg

He's about to talk when a gorgeous girl comes to the door in her bathing suit.

"Toby, Logan called he wa-oh, I didn't know you were talking to someone"

"Toby, Logan called he wa-oh, I didn't know you were talking to someone"

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"Hmm" I hum looking between him and this mystery girl

"Well, that answers my question" I say to him before running to my car

"Spencer wait!" He yells but I just get into my car and drive away

When I turn the corner my eyes just spill.

To think that he'd actually feel bad about his actions was so stupid

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To think that he'd actually feel bad about his actions was so stupid.

He's used to being with every girl and here I am thinking that he would feel bad for what he did.

I'm such an idiot.

Toby

"Why'd you let her go? You know what she thinks right?" Jenna asks as she stands beside me

"Spencer thinks things without knowing if it's true"

"We'll look at the picture. She was here talking to you and then some girl walks out of your house dressed like this" she points to her self "I'd act that way too. But I'd slap you before running off"

"How do I fix this?"

"Well for starters tell her I am your cousin." She chuckles "why does everything always think I'm with you?" She gags

"I Am not that bad"

"No you're not, but I could do so much better" she smirks as she walks back inside.

I walk inside too closing the door and walking back to the pool.

Yes I am used to being with many girls but with Spencer it did feel different. But I know nothing can go down because she'd risk a lot to be with me and ultimately end up hating me.

But if I continue acting this way she'd never speak to me I don't want that.


This is a lose lose situation.

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