Purity (Needs to be edited, ON HOLD)

Chapter 36

Spencer

I arrive home, the kids out with my mom and Melissa.

I sit in the barn and pull out the last letter Toby wrote me.

The previous letter talked about how Toby couldn't wait, how he fell in love with Hanna but his heart still belonged to me.

It really broke me, seeing him writing those feelings and me not reading any of his letters. My life and my kids lives would be so different if I had.

I open the other letter, the shortest letter he wrote;

Spencer.
I've waited and waited, but I can't anymore. You know how much I love you but I can't sit around and wait for a response from you that will never come.

Like i said in the other letter i'm dating Hanna, and it's getting serious and i love her.

I could never love someone as much as i love you but Hanna is a close second.

I'm going to propose to her in 2 months, but if you object i wont. I'll drop everything to be with you again.

All you have to do is reach out.

I love you Spencer, and i know you do too! You are just hurt and stubborn, but if you cared or loved me at all you will say something. It doesn't even have to be a yes, maybe just a 'congratulations' just so i know you have read them.

If not then i guess you never did care, ever, you never truly loved me and you stuck by me because i was the oppo of what your parents wanted.

Its all in your hands Spencer, the final move is on you.

-Toby

I didn't respond, he thinks i never loved him or cared.

I could've stopped this, it could've been me.

'It's not too late!' i think in my head as i get in my car abs drive back to Toby's.

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"It's not too late. You aren't married!" i say to Toby when i enter the backyard. He turns around

"Yes it is Spencer. It's been years"

"And you haven't married her. You can't act like the love you had for dissapeared"

"Why? Cause only you can do that?" he spits

"I know You're mad, but i'm sorry. I didn't think the letters were like thatx i should've read them" i admit

"Oh well" he shrugs

"Toby please!" i beg, as tears for in my eyes "i messed up. I love you, i need you. I've always only wanted you!" i sob

He sighs "i can't Spencer"

"Why not? We have kids, we havw money we can get out of here!" i exclaim as i walk towards him, now standing in front of him, hands on his arms, gently

"I can't just leave" he pouts

"Yes you can. You love me just as much as i love you. We can make this work, it will work i promise" i nod, probably looking in sane right now

"I know you were drunk and probably don't remember what happened, but i can't run away"

I don't know what he's talking about but i'm too focused to get him to say yes

"Yes you can! Come on Toby!" i smile as i pull his arm

"For god sakes Spencer i can't?" he ywlls ripping his arm from her "i'm engaged and hanna is pregnant. Things could've been different but you made your choice. And i'm fine now." Toby says honestly

I stare at Toby and tears Fall,

I can't stand her.... I feel broken and am at a loss for words.

I turn and  run off again, back in my  car quickly driving away.

i didn't answer him on time and now Im  suffering the consequences.

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Short but its something

Sorry i haven't updated.

I know it's been a while. I usually don't wait more then 5 days, but school got busy, then i got busy and then i started working on the Chapter and got really sick.
I didn't go to school for 3 days all i did was lay in bed.
I still am.sick but  not as bad as before so Here's an update.

If i don't update after 5 days then have patients, something could be wrong, i could be sick, or busy or something family related.

Right now my sister could have have baby at any time so when that happens i will be busy.

But remember i didn't forget about this, about any of my books for that matter but this isn't going to help me become something in the future so school, family then pleasure... Thanks for understanding.