Purity (Needs to be edited, ON HOLD)

Chapter 10 - Updated*

Spencer
2 days later

"Can I talk to you?" I ask as I join Cassidy on the rocks outside of school.

We both have the same free period and I saw her wonder out here earlier.

The past two days without Cassidy have been weird. And honestly I've felt nothing but shit for the way I treated Toby even though I am mad for what he did he still didn't deserve what I said.

Now with Cassandra I'm honestly just annoyed because when it comes to Toby she just wants to know things so she can one.up the situation. Not saying she wouldn't give me support if I needed it but she likes to make it seem as if anything she and toby does is superior and I don't wanna face that.

"Wanna insult me too?" She asks

"I deserved that" I sigh as I sit next to her. "Listen, I was a total asshole the other day i know that. After saying everything i instantly regretted it. Toby just got me so mad with his instigation I just wanted to hit him where it hurt but I didn't realize the severity of it."

"What happened between you two?" She asks me

I sigh "this has to stay between us because I am ashamed"

"Did you guys have sex?" She questions looking at me with big eyes.

"No!" I exclaim, "no no. Um... but we did kiss..... and I did let him uh....I let him finger me which lead to me..... having an orgasm..." I admit.

"Oh" she responds

"Yeah and then I yelled at him for using me and he told me I never told him to stop therefore he did nothing wrong. He pushes that it'll happen again because I can't resist him when I just wanna forget it happened and be friends if possible if not just be civil but he's making it hard by constantly bringing it up and reminding me about it. I guess I just snapped at that point. I know it was wrong but I couldn't help myself." I explain

"I get it.... I really do it was just unexpected... how do you feel though? Like how did that feel?" She asks me

"Weird, invasive but then end result did feel good. But then realizing what had happened after ruined the experience" I admit

"Do you like Toby" she questions, looking at me and turning to me, taking my hands in hers.

"No.....um... I don't know. It was fun seeing his nice side and yeah subtle flirting he does gets me all excited but I don't like him like that."

"Well as I said before, it you did I support you"

"Thanks" I nod.

"I'm sorry I ran off and avoided you without talking about it"

"It's alright" I nod, leaning on her "ove missed you"

"I've missed you too" she smiles hugging me "wanna hang later?"

"Yes. We need to. But now i do have to find Toby.... i need to apologize"

"Good luck finding him. He didn't come today he said he needed to think and normally when he says that he makes himself scarce"