Purity (Needs to be edited, ON HOLD)

Chapter 45

Toby

Hanna has stayed at her sisters house today, wanting some family time. Leaving me alone to think.

I'm interupted by the door.

"Spencer" i breathe when i open the door.

She's all dressed up, Meaning she went to her date.

"I want a tattoo"

"What?"

"You said if i ever wanted one to let you know. Well i want one."

I step to the side and grab my jacket from the closet.

"Lets go" i nod, grabbing my key off the bowl on the table by the door and walking out, phone in my back.pocket.

Locking the door behind me.

"Let's take the truck.. For old times sake" she shrugs and i.nod.

"Alright"

I don't know what this is about, but if it means we can at least be friends i'm down for it.

Spencer

I know this is probably wrong, but I can't help it.

I just, after today I had to be around him to prove to myself that we can just be friends.

I want him in my life with out it being weird, he's the father to my children, I'm going to have to associate with him, I don't want awkwardness, I want to be able to talk to him without it being entirely weird.

"Do you know what you want?" He asks me.

"Umm..... I was thinking, like the kids names, above my heart, not too big and not too small, but I've always wanted to tattoo the kids names on me, but I never got around to it"

He nods, "I like that"

I smile "thanks"

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"I'm nervous" I tell him honestly

He shakes his head. "Don't be, I mean, sure it stings but it's not that bad"

I nod, "sit close please, just distract me the best you can" I beg him and he pulls his seat closer to me as I lay on the chair.

The guy rubs something on the spot over my boob before pulling my bras strap down.

I tuck it in my bra, hearing Toby breathe hard and turn away.

I chuckle quietly, he's still the same, jealous and protective.

I see from the corner of my eye the guy grabbing a needle and immediately turn to Toby.

"Make conversation please"

"Umm..... How was your date tonight?"

"Can we talk about something else please?!" I beg, that won't help me relax right now.

"Okay" he nods, thinking "have you decided if you're staying and if you are have you decided where you'd live?"

"Yeah" I nod "we are staying, I was thinking of.. I don't know where I'd live yet" I change my answer.

"What were you gonna say?" He asks

"Nothing"

"Spence"

I sigh "i was maybe gonna get back our old apartment, I'm friends with the buildings owner, and it's only be rented once after you moved out for three years, now it's vacant cause she thought I might've wanted it when j came back here and didn't sell it" I admit

"That's fine, you don't have to hide anything. We are friends and friends share things" he says and I nod.

"Very true" I say as I squint my eyes together, now feeling some burning and tingling.

He holds my hand, "how's work been?" He asks

"Good, I haven't done any work since I've been here but it's good. I-I have to switch to a firm here though since I'm going to move here" I say and he nods.

"The worst part is over" he smiles at me and I smile back, feeling accomplished.

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"Keep it wrapped for four days, no contact with water or anything, after that you can remove the bandaid and put this solution on it for two weeks, it all should be good. Just keep alert for rashes or bumps, go to the doctor or hospital, it's not likely to get an infection or anything after getting a tattoo but it's just for precaution" the man explains to me.

"So you mind if I get there initials on my wrist?" Toby asks me

I shake my head "of course not. By all means, go"

He smiles and sits in the chair, getting 'R.A' written in cursive on his wrist.

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"That was great" I cheer as we get into his truck.

He nods "can I ask you something?" He asks as he begins to drive.

"Sure" I nod

"Why did you come to me tonight? You were on the date"

I sigh "the date was going fine until I realized where he took me"

"Which was?" He asks confused.

"The lake" I mumble and he glances at me, the car stopped at a red light, before looking away.

"How could he possibly know about the lake?" He asks, a little snap in his town

"I don't fucking know, a family rented you the cabin by it, maybe it was his. And it's not like you own it, he could've found it some how" I snap back.

He rolls his eyes "so what, you came running to me for what?" Beginning to drive again,

"I needed to heal, not everywhere we went together I can run from I need to move on, so sorry that I came to you hoping we could at least be friends since you are gonna be in my life anyway, I thought let's at least try to get along. But no sorry, only I think that way, you don't so whatever, I'll just walk from here, Im not in the mood to  fight"

"You aren't walking out of a moving car at this hour, you have kids to get back to I'll drop you"

"Stop, just stop it!" I yell, loudly

"Stop what?" He questions.

"Stop snapping at me, then acting like you care. I'm not 16 anymore, I don't want to sit and wonder if you care or don't anymore. Either you want to be my friend or you don't. But if it's yes you can't put things in my face and make me feel certain ways, you're either all in or all out. Toby, I don't want it to be weird between us, don't you get that? You don't make it easy to be around you cause I feel like I always have to watch what I say so you don't snap at me" I admit, yelling but becoming quieter at the end.

"I-I don't know why I do that"

"Cause you're angry at me, I am too. But that's the past Toby, and you can't hate me forever, we've both moved on, we have kids together, we should try to be civil"

He nods, "you're right, Im sorry"

'I'm sorry as well" I admit

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"Thanks for taking me" I thank him when we get back to his house, I walk over to my car.

"Anytime" he smiles "drive safe"

"I will, goodnight Toby"

"Goodnight Spencer"

With that I'm driving home