Me And My JJ

41

Anaya's P.O.V

I slowly walk towards him but my eyes keep telling me that it's not him. It can't be because for one, Ali doesn't have a beard and this guy in front of me does.

"Cut the crap Anaya you know it's me" he snaps and I flinch slightly
"What happened?" I ask and he sighs and looks down, avoiding eye contact

I sit down next to him and he turns his head towards me. Only then do I see his scruffy beard and hair and his blood red eyes and you can just tell he's been crying
"Oh my god" I whisper, "tell me what happened"

"Why do you care? We're not together anymore" he sneers
"Just cause we're not together it doesn't mean I don't still care about you" I tell him and he scoffs

"Look, just tell me what's wrong" I say
"So you can go tell your new boyfriend over there how fucked up your ex is?" He snaps

"I would never do that and you're not fucked up" I say and again he just scoffs
We sit in silence for a minute until he decides to speak.
"My dads getting worse"

"As in his cancers getting worse?" I ask and he nods
Shit I forgot. No wonder he looks like a mess.

"Okay no one has to know you're hurting so come with me and I'll freshen you up" I tell him
I honestly feel so bad for him. I've never known anybody whose got cancer. And I can't even begin to imagine how it feels to know someone whose on the verge of death.

He just looks at me.
"Don't take the piss just get up"
He sighs and gets up and follows me to a separate room.
I grab a comb out my bag and comb his hair into place. I make him wash his face and tell him to drink some water.

I comb his little beard and grab some body spray from Harris and give it to him. He looks at himself in the mirror and just stares.
"Is it bad?" I ask and he shakes his head
"Thanks" he says quietly
"No worries" I tell him, "now lets go find out our results"

We walk out together and I invite him to chill with us
"Anaya what you doing?" Rukayah whisper shouts
"He's not feeling good and he has no one to sit with" I shrug
"He has his friends" she replies in a duh tone
"He's not feeling up to sitting with them though" I argue
"Fine but don't come to me when your ex and your boyfriend are kicking off" she says and I roll my eyes

We walk over to the table with the envelopes. I look at them and my hands start to shake. I can't look at the stupid envelopes. It's so weird that one envelope will tell me whether my life's gonna be good or bad.

"Hey, you'll be fine trust me" Harris reassures me
My head of year passes me an envelope with my name on it. I go into a quiet space and take a deep breath.

I look at Harris and he gives me a smile

I open the envelope and read the amount of passes I got and a huge smile grows on my lips
"How many?" He asks
"9 passes!" I say and he has a shocked face
"Why're you so shocked obvs I was gonna get 9 passes" I say and he chuckles
"Come here" he says and opens his arms

I gladly accept his hug and he hugs me tight.
"I missed your hugs" he whispers into my ear and I smile

"Cut it out we have to be in assembly now!" Alina shouts
We pull away and Harris laughs
"Let's go" I say and we go find some seats to sit on

The assembly goes on for quite a while and they just show our pictures from year 7 up until now.
"Okay so before we end this assembly and say goodbye to all of you for good, Anaya Hussain and her friend will be singing a song for you" my head of year announces and my head turns towards Harris
Why does he always volunteer me to sing songs?

He smiles and grabs my hand and we walk down to the front as everyone claps.
"What are we singing?" I ask him
"Secret love song" he smiles
The music starts and I take a deep breath

"When you hold me in the street and you kiss me on the dance floor
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that
'Cause I'm yours
We keep behind closed doors
Every time I see you, I die a little more
Stolen moments that we steal as the curtain falls
It'll never be enough
It's obvious you're meant for me
Every piece of you, it just fits perfectly
Every second, every thought, I'm in so deep
But I'll never show it on my face
But we know this, we got a love that is homeless

Why can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that?
'Cause I'm yours" I finish

Everyone claps and cheers and Harris starts,
"When you're with him, do you call his name
Like you do when you're with me, does it feel the same?
Would you leave if I was ready to settle down?
Or would you play it safe and stay?
Girl you know this, we got a love that is hopeless"

We both sing together,
"Why can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that?
'Cause I'm yours"

Then Harris,
"And nobody knows I'm in love with someone's baby"

Then me,
"I don't wanna hide us away"

Then Harris,
"Tell the world about the love we making"

And then me,
"I'm living for that day
Someday"

Then both of us,
"And nobody knows I'm in love with someone's baby
I don't wanna hide us away
Tell the world about the love we making
I'm living for that day
Someday
Why can't I hold you in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that we could be like that
Why can't we be like that?
'Cause I'm yours, I'm yours

Oh, why can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that?
'Cause I'm yours
Why can't I say that I'm in love?
I wanna shout it from the rooftops
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that?
'Cause I'm yours"

I hold onto the long note at the end and everyone cheers
"Why can't we be like that?
Wish we could be like that" I finish

Everyone claps and cheers and I smile

I start walking away but Harris stops me
"Anaya, I know I told you yesterday that I might be falling in love with you so I need to ask you... Anaya... Will you be my girlfriend?"

Oh my days
In front of everyone? Really?