One Shots

PPD

(This is just something I thought I'd share, no it's not a oneshot so if you'd like to stop reading I suggest you stop right now)

What is PPD?
Paranoid Personality Disorder (PPD) is basically the worst thing ever. Making it hard to form relationships and trust people. In my case, everyone hates me. Everything I tell them they will use against me. I annoy them and only tolerate me because they can get something from me. Sex, a smoke up, etc. They can use me for their personal gain. The worst part about PPD is that you know it's not true, but cannot help but feel this way. That no one actually likes or wants to be around you.
I'm an open book yeah, but that's because I think it's what people want. Maybe if I tell them what they want they'll actually like me. They'll want to be around me instead of wondering what's wrong with me.
Feeling that your parents regret having you every time you look at them cuts into you. Feeling that no one truly cares or wants to see you happy builds up over time. It makes you depressed and suicidal even. This is no way to live.