One Shots

If I said "I love you"

Another great one by marisa407
Ramin POV:

Dear Sierra,
I am sorry. I'm sorry that I didn't say this sooner. The thing is I didn't know how to say it, I was worried that after I told you, you would just stop talking to me. I was coward, afraid to admit the truth.
There was something going on deep within my heart. A strange feeling that I didn't seem to understand. I didn't really know why you were always on my mind every now and then. Every time you were near, I just didn't know what to do. Every time you giggled or smiled I felt my heart skip a few beats, I felt my palms sweet and my face grow beet red. When you start to talk, I hardly found a word to say....it was like I'm out of breath. My hearts beat so fast when you talk. My heart wants to jump out of my chest when you sing. I want to scoop you into my arms when I sing with you.
     I feel so lifted each time you're around. So much beauty surrounds me every time you smile. It's like you are everything. You are my everything that I wish, dreamed and desired for. I want you Sierra I want you to be mine and only mine. Every picture I have you and I together are the pictures I have atop of my bunk in camp. I don't know how to say this Sierra, but I have fallen for you. I love you.
     I fallen in love with you since the beginning when I asked you to my first Military Ball dance, five years ago, I only said we would go as friends but that night something sparked in me. Five years I've been in love with you and I don't say anything. That moment when I saw you in your beautiful red gown walking down your mother's stairs I realized I fell in love you. Like the coward I am, I never said anything because I was afraid my heart would shattered into millions of pieces if you said you didn't love me back. I am also idiot in thinking you would do that to me. You are too sweet of person to do that.
     Sierra, every day on the battlefield I think about you. You are keeping me alive during this war between countries. It pains me to be away from your smile, laugh, touch, warmth, overall it pains me to be away from you. I love you so much Sierra. It hurts that I can't hold you at night, like how you fell asleep in my arms after we went to the cinema. It hurts that I can't smell your warm strawberry scent from your shampoo. You are always in my mind, by the time I wake up t'ill I close my eyes. I just want to see your face. I want to hear your precious heartbeat and be lost in your embrace. I gaze at the moon in hopes you are thinking about me like I constantly think about you. I love you.
    Let me hold you in my arms, and allow yourself to surrender to my heart: I seek you not as the conquest but as a partner in my life: the half that I've been missing out all of my life. For I see past the beauty that is a shell of you, there is a vision that is more than words could ever define. There is a love in your heart that shines brighter than any light could, there is a passion that seeks to be free, but only to one who is worth of your love and affection. I pray that person is me.
    I hope and wish you feel the same way too. How I wish we could be together one day, but if it would be from happening, if love would not give a way for us because all you wanted from me is only my friendship, it's okay for me.
     I will still love you no matter what. However, if you feel the same way too, you will definitely bring joy to my lonely soul. You will definitely give warmth to my cold lonely nights. Colors will bloom along my way and you will see smile in my heart every day.
That is how much I love you. That is how much I need you in my life.
    If I don't make it back alive from this war please move on without me and don't suffer my darling. You are too precious of a flower to dwindle. If I said the words, if I spoke my heart, if I said out loud what I feel, I wonder what our lives would be like if I said I love you.

​​-Sergeant Ramin Karimloo
​​​     Frist Class
​​​    U.S Navy