Silent Tears

chapter 4

She bacame a woman now.  The lost years have been so good to her.  I find relief knowing that what I did before made her of who she is now.  A renowned fashion designer.  Her works gained so much approval from models, socialites and celebrities.  She has spread her wings.  At least no regret that those times we've been away from each other made her successful in her field if career.
I can see a woman who have so much confidence in herself.  But for me, she is my innocent and sweet honey.

I kept my silence.  Her presence is overwhelming.  I used to be contented seeing her from afar. Yeah, I had her secured without her knowing it.  She is highly guarded according to my command. Lahat ng may attempt na ligawan siya o gustong mapalapit sa kanya ay pinahaharang ko.  They just fade away.
Yeah she is undeniably gorgeous.  I just pretended not to notice her.  Baka kasi di ko mapigilan ang sarili ko makagawa pa ako ng di niya magustuhan.  Knowing her, ayaw niya ng PDA.  But I missed her so damn much.

Dumating na rin si Justine, ang birthday celebrant.  He is one of us before until he disclosed himself as being gay.  Still our relationship goes on.  He still have our respect. 
"Danny, well, well, well..." pinukol ko siya ng masamang tingin.  Alam ko na saan patungo ang usaping ito.  Ayoko na maging awkward para kay Cassandra ang sitwasyon namin ngayon.

She is now sitting infront of me.  Her legs are much exposed to my sight.  She have the creamy long legs,  naging bilugin na rin ang butts niya.  Alumpihit siyang umupo.  I can still recall how she tasted in between those legs. Fuck!  She is torturing me now.

She is now talking with some of our friends.  Her shoulders is also exposed in that piece of shit she is wearing now.  Fuck! She is fuckably desirable.  I can feel my pants getting tighter. Hmmm... Somebody needs release.  My buddy really missed her too. 

Justine called for everyone to the dance floor. 
"The night's not young anymore guys.  Let's sway endlessly. C'mon!"

Some of her friends offered drink.  She reluctantly accepted it.  Sa kanya lang nakatuon ang atensyon ko ngayon.  I know how low she could tolerate alcohol.  Naka apat na baso na sya ng margarita.  Pulang pula na ang mukha niya.  I know she already had enough.  Inakay na siya papuntang dance floor.  She almost stumbled down.  Tipsy na nga siya.  I think more than that.  Sinenyasan ko na sila Freya na ako na ang bahala sa kanya.  I caught her by the waist  when she lost her balance.  Her scent filled my nose as I sighed deeply. 
"Bring her to the dancefloor.  Baka mahimasmasan na yan.  It's your chance now pretty boy."  Tudyo ni justine sabay kindat sa akin.  Napailing na lang.  Well, maybe he has the point.

I led her to the dance floor kasi mukhang kaming dalawa lang ang naiwan dito. 

I can feel her weight as walked to the dance side by side.
Pumainlang ang tugtog ng banda.  CLOSER by CHAINSMOKERS

I know it breaks your heart
Moved to the city in a broke-down car
And four years, no calls
Now you're looking pretty in a hotel bar
And I, I, I, I, I can't stop
No, I, I, I, I, I can't stop

We started swaying kasabay ng upbeat na tugtog.  Her body is as soft as I remembered... the last time i touched it.  She swayed together with the beat of the music.  I puffed some air. 

So baby pull me closer
In the backseat of your Rover
That i know you can't afford
Bite that tatoo on your shoulder

We ain't ever getting older
No we ain't ever getting older.

I am holding her by the waist this time as she continued swaying her body.  Her body rubbed against mine.  She raised her arms as she flipped her hair off her nape.  Mas lalo kong nasamyo ang amoy niya.  Sobrang bango pa rin niya.  She smelled berries and vanilla.  I let go of my urgency on kissing her hair.  God she giving me a boner now.  Fuck!  Napapikit ako sa mga ala-alang pilit na bumabalik sa isipan ko. Our times of being together. I smiled bitterly at the thoughts.  Bumilis ulit ang tibok ng puso ko.