Silent Tears

chapter 16

Blue green colored sea looks so enviting for a swim.  Sea breeze blew my soft curI as I stare on its horizon.  Staying here in Amanpulo is a good choice after all.

I just wanted to be alone to far away land.  This is the best way I thought could possibly regain from unending painful experience.  Deep within me, I am shattered into pieces.  I will come back as my whole self again.

I enjoyed my stay here.  So refreshing.  So relaxing.  The place is breathtakingly beautiful.  

After this, I am pretty sure to achieve my golden sun tanned skin color that I've been dying to have.

Two days before my vacation would end here,  I opened my phone.  To slowly adjust myself from being shut-off to the real world.  I cringed by the thought of it.  If only I could live her like forever,  I really would.  Flood of notification rushed in.  Unending beep of my phone.  Sobrang namiss nga nila ako.  I smiled to myself.  All came from family and friends.  Kinukumusta nila ako.  Kahit ipahanap pa nila ako, I'm pretty sure athey won't find me.  I intentionally use different name in my flight and other travel details.  Para hindi ako nila agad ma trace. 
Teka, Daniel even have hundreds of missed calls and messages. 

Honey, where are you?

Hon, what happened? You took commercial flights instead?!

Days after that...

Where the hell are you?  I'm so much worried.

I wanna talk to you.

I missed you hon.

Please come back.

Tinawagan ko si cheska.  Buti ito yung tatawagan ko.  Kaya nitong ilihim kung nasaan ako.

Pangalawang ring lang ay kaagad itong sumagot.
"Hey Cassey! Nasaan ka ba?  Sabi ni Jen you immediately took a leave for God damn two fucking weeks?!" 
I stayed quite.  Highblood na kaagad ang Cheska. Jez!
"Tito Arthur and tita Marissa are so worried.  We are so worried about you!  Pagkagising namin,  you're not around anymore.  You just left with that note!  Haler!  Anyare sa yo babaita ka?!" Hysterical niyang sambit sa akin.  Napansin ko nga ang kakaibang closeness ni Daniel sa kanila dad at mom which is really weird to me.

"Uuwi din ako.  I just need sometime alone.  Don't worry,  I am so much fine now."  I told it more than to myself.  I need to be fine and I claimed it to be. 

Kung andito ka lang,  everyone went crazy on speculating things that later on we spacify ourselves that things will be fine.  Kalokah ka.  Cannot be reached pa ang phone mo.  Daniel went crazily mad with your disppearance and even hired his PI just to find you.  But as clever runaway princess as you are,  no traces being left.  Naka reflect pa sa PI report na you are taking commercial flight back to the Philippines.  Yun lang wala ng iba."  Mahabang litaniya sa akin.