Silent Tears

chapter 18

Matulin lumipas ang mga araw.  Mag walong buwan na rin akong nagtratrabaho dito sa Poveda.  Mom trained me patiently.  Well, I'm glad I learn to love my job here.  Self fulfilling.  Nakasanayan ko na rin ang schedule ko na bugbog sa dami ng trabaho.  Akalain mo, I am doing three kinds of job at the same time.  I am literally the "ang babaeng walang pahinga".

Kinuha ko na si Jen para siya ang maging secretary ko dito sa Poveda.  I can't think of any as competent as she is.  Any concerns of CIM Fashion House goes directly to my office here in Poveda.  Naging extension office ko na din kasi ito.  We  visited CIM  once to twice a month to twice a month depends on the availability of the schedule.  Di kami pinalad na manalo sa NY festival but we are the first runner-up.  It was timely kasi  may focus na ako sa bago kong trabaho ngayon.

We are busy come this summer.   Since we always do fashion shows on a particular season, like this summer, then on christmas, schooldays, graduation and the likes.  So nagiging busy na kami niyan kasi mahaba at mabusisi ang preparation per fashion show.  I am hands-on when it comes to selection of models, particular clothes to wear including shoes, bags, and accessories.  The Poveda Fashion Institute now has a sister company manufacturing trends of shoes and bags.  Si mom ang CEO, ito yung Annabelles'.  May mga boutique outlet na ito sa mga malls due to client's demand.  Therefore, our company is getting bigger each year.  Very overwhelming din ang pag angat ng gross sales ng lahat ng sangay ng kumpanya.  Well,  I must acknowledge the effort of the company's CEO.  For outreaching for excellence kaya narating ng kumpany ang ganito ka peak na margin.

Like now, I am in the middle of final screening of models.  When a fair skinned woman entered the room.  Mukha ba siyang naligaw na model?  Tapos na ang screening eh.  I surpassed my qualification to be one. Sayang.  But I was taken aback when a figure of a man came into view.  Si Daniel?!  Then it dawned me,  that woman is his rumored girlfriend although he never admitted it in public.  Her name is Monette, daughter of one of the investors.  I must admit that she is very sexy in her revealing black dress.  Mas lalo tumingkad ang kaputian niya.  She has a bronzed gold colored hair with a volume curls that adds to her sexiness.  The typical type of Daniel's woman.

Buti na lang patapos na ako.  Si Freya na ang nagbibigay ng final briefing sa mga models.  I gave Jen the final list of those qualified models to join the ramp.  I really should go before pa nila ako mapansin.  I felt a strange feeling having them in this same room, breathing same air.  Discomfort?  Hurt?  I don't know.

I texted mom of coming home late.  I still have my afternoon class to handle.  Buti na lang next week na ang summer break.  Di na gaano kahigpit ang schedule ko.  Baka pwede na magliwaliw.  I immediate collected my things when Monetted called my name.  I rolled my eyes.  Not now!  Lumapit sila sa akin.  Its been so long na di ko nakita si Daniel.  Busy ito lagi sa out of country business trips niya.  O di kaya busy lang ito kay Monette.  Pakialam ko ba sa kanila?
"Are you in a hurry?"  she asked samantala nanatiling tahimik lang si Daniel sa tabi niya.
"Ahm... yeah! I still have my class in the other building."  nanatiling nasa mga niligpit kong gamit ang atensyon ko.  I didn't bother to look at them.  Well,  I am in my usual white one piece dress with a long black blazer  kumpara sa kanya na sobrang sexy na damit.  The heck.  Why am I comparing myself to her.  Gosh!
"Mukhang ok na ang prep nyo sa summer collection fashion show." she added.
"Yeah"  simpleng sagot ko.  Can she noticed I don't wanna talk to her.
"You seem so busy.  Ayain ka pa naman sana namin maglunch?"
"Oh thanks! But you don't have to.  I really have to go.  Excuse me."  sabay exit ko na hindi sila tinitingnan.  Ayoko.  I can feel his eyes on me.

I immediately eent out of the screening room.  I collected my breath soon as I was outside of the room.  Kanina pa pala ako halos hindi humihinga.  Pinuno ko ng hangin ang mga baga ko.  Pakiramdam ko nahihirapan akong huminga eh.  Wala naman akong history ng asthma.  Baka kasi allergens ko silang dalawa.

Why do I have this kind of awful feeling everytime na I see Daniel with another woman.  I don't have the same affection as beforw right?  Matagal nang wala ang pagmamahal na yun.  I have outgrown it.  I shouldn't be feeling the same.  Hindi ako nagseselos, okay?  Damn!  Di nga?

Well,  he just like that.  He uses to hurt me.  He will let me feel cherished like a very special kind of a woman  but suddenly drop me like a hot potato.  In short pa-fall.  Pa-false hope.  Malaki siyang paasa sa mundong ibabaw.  And i hate him for doing this to me.

I drove shortly to the next building.  This is my last schedule for the day.  We will do the runway as their final exam.  They're gonna wear their own works.  From swimwear to formal dress.  And I can say that this batch is the best.  I only got 8 students who successfully passed and will finally graduate next week.  All of them agreed to join the bigger group of Poveda.  I love their fresh ideas in fashion design.  Malaking tulong sila sa kumpanya, for sure.  They are so eager with the thought of working with the company.  Sobrang saya ko. My hardwork is paying off.  Nakakataba ng puso na I am helping making their dreams come true.
I was surprised when after a little while the practical exam is done, nagsidatingan ang mga pagkain.  Nag order na pala sila.  Mini celebration daw namin ant advance treat nila sa akin bilang pasasalamat.  We have complete meal course, dessert and drinks.  I texted Jen and Freya to come over and join us which they gladly obliged.  Sila pa?  Mga mukhang pagkain yun eh. 

It was an overwhelming experience.  They are my breath of fresh air.  I can't wait having them in the company soon.