Silent Tears

chapter 12

If he could turn back the hands of time, will it lead them to forever? He deeply breathe in and out. Naninikip ang dibdib niya. Yeah, he wasted almost six years of being jerk around. Alright! It was not like he wanted it to be. He is wasted himself and too broken all those years. I love her and it pains me to see her from afar. Too afraid that if i push myself on her, she might slip away... again. No! I won't let it happen. I just can't. Napailing na lang siya sa pumapasok sa isipan niya. Am I thinking too much. God knows how much i missed her. Mababaliw na yata siya nito.

His phone beeped. It's from his hired PI.
Sir, her send off party is now at Montrero Mansion. She is already inside with family and friends.
Para bang ito ay go signal at agad siyang napatayo. Pumasok na bathroom at naligo. Maya-maya kumuha na siya ng damit at mabilis na nagbihis. He grab the car keys at nagmamadali bumaba at lumabas ng penthouse niya.

Gabi na nang umabot siya sa labas ng bahay ng mga Montrero. Pumikit siya ng mariin at tumingala habang nakasandal sa driver's seat. Labis labis na gusto ko siyang makita. But I just can't barge in.

Palagi noon sila sa kanyang condo kapag walang pasok sa school o di kaya ay sabado.
Kakatapos lang ng kanilang mainit na pagniniig. Yakap niya sa likuran si Cassandra. She smelled like him. For sure nakahalo na ang pawis niya sa katawan nito. Kaya amoy Dark na pinaghalo ng amoy na rin ng dalaga. I love moments like this. After-making-love moments. Yeah.
"Hon, i know how you love fashion design. Would you like to go for it?" Malambing kong tanong sa kanya. She stiffined. Alam kong ayaw niya.
"Ayoko." Matamlay niyang sagot. I know kasi pinagod ko sya? Eventhough I can't see her face, i know she is pouting.
"Hmmm?" I'm kissing her nape to her neck side.
"Dito lang ako sa yo Dan. Malayo ang Paris eh." Humigpit ang pagkahawak niya sa braso kong nakapulupot sa katawan niya.
"Meron na man fashion design school dito sa Pinas eh." Pangungumbinsi ko sa kanya.
"Yeah but not as good as in Paris" nilingon niya ako.
I can't help but claim her lips. She is a goddess at her very young age. I am so damn lucky to have her. Mainit na palitan ng halik ang nangyari. Nag umpisa naman maglakbay ang mga kamay ko sa malambot at makinis niyang katawan. Can't get enough of her.
"Daann..." then she gave in to me in sweet surrender.

Yun ang mga pinakamasayang araw sa buhay ko. Ang panahong pinagsaluhan namin. The excitement and desire for each other that deepen as each passing days. Di nga lang nagtagal kasi kusa ko siyang isinuko. Hindi sa naglaho ang matinding pagmamahal ko sa kanya. It is my great love that let me spread her wings and fly to reach for her dreams. And she did with flying colors. She is now what she should be like. Masakit man sa akin pero ganun ko siya kamahal. I hope her mom will make it happen for us to be together again. Kahit gaano kaliit na tsansa ay kaya kong palaguin makamit ko lang muli ang kanyang puso

At heto ako ngayon. Nagkasya na lang na nakatanaw sa labas ng bahay nila. But this distance can't hold me back to take her again as mine.

Pinaharurot ko na ang sasakyan ko papunta sa kung saan mailabas ko ang aking sama ng loob. I am fucking always like this. Nagpapakalma sa akin ang alak at panandaliang aliw ng babae. Alam kong hindi nila kailanman matumbasan ang kaligayahan ko sa piling ni Cassandra. Ngunit ito ang makayanan ko upang maibsan ng kahit kaunti ang lungkot at pagdadalamhati ko. Di ko pa alam saan ko pupulutin ang sarili ko pagkatapos nito.
I found myself parking my car at Club Angel. Ito yung pagmamay-ari namin magkakaibigan.
I saw a brunette woman near the bar counter. Yeah, she has a sexy figure, maputi at matangkad. I know her. She is Monette. My fuck buddy. No stings attached. That what I like about her. She knows our boundaries. What I can give her and sadly what I can't offer her.
I went near her and settle on the same spot.
"Hi!" I smiled at her.
"Hey Migs. How are you. I missed you.
I just shrugged. "Never been this good"
"Wow! Look at you, you're smokin' hot." Desire is evident in her eyes.
Ngumiti lang ako sa kanya. Tipid na sumagot. "Thanks."
Lumapit siya na bahagya sa akin at bumulong, "someone's get to be laid tonight." Sabay kagat sa labi niya.
Yeah I think distruction not bad this time.
Humalakhak siya sa napakalanding tunog.
Nilingon ko siya sabay sabing "Your place."