Silent Tears

chapter 5

I feel like flying? Sarap sa pakiramdam.  It's like, the music bathe me.  I'm drowned on it.  I danced like there's no tomorrow.  Sweat is slowly dripping on my neck.  The warmth at my back contributed the sultry feeling I'm having right now.

I strectch my hand up in the air as justine shouted "wooohhhh!" while dancing.  I flipped my hair off my nape to ease the temperature that's building up. Gosh! It feels great.
I felt the tight grip on my waist and something's poking at my lower back.  Patay malisya akong pumihit paharap.  Sabay naman nun ang pagtugtog na next song ng banda.

SHE'S THE ONE.

If there's somebody calling me on she's the one

Nakaharap ako ngayon sa malapad na dibdib na suot ay white button shirt?  Sandaling pagkagulat yun kasi naramdaman kong umikot ang paningin ko. Pumulupot ang braso sa bewang ko. It stroked my back up and down. And up and down.  I felt calm.

We were young we were wrong
we're fine all along
If there's somebody calling me on she's the one

May ibang hatid ang himig ng musika.  Parang akong dinala sa alapaap.  It feels like heaven.  I stretched my neck upward and shift my head side to side.  We are swaying to the beat of music.  Of who I am dancing with, I care less though.  Masyado mabigat ang ulo ko para e check kung sino ito.  Basta I am comfortable being in his arms.  Parang familiar sa akin ang ganitong pkiramdam.  Na sanay ako makahawakan niya ng ganito.  His smell...

When you get to where you wanna go
And you know you're smiling

I hold up my arms to his neck.  Nakapikit pa rin ako.  Takot akong malaman na totoo ang hinala ko sa kung sinuman ang kasayaw ko ngayon.  Not knowing that with this position ay para na kaming magkayakap.  Mas idiniin pa niya lalo ang katawan niya sa akin.  His hardness stimulates my sexuality. 

Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko na halos hindi ako makahinga.  Yakap na yakap na niya ako ngayon.  Hinahalikan niya ang buhok ko.  Masuyong hinagod ang likuran ko.  Parang panaginip lang ang lahat ng ito.  Kung panaginip man ito, ayokong magising.  I want to live in dream like this.

When you said what you wanna say
And you know the way you wanna say it
You'll be so high you'll be flying

I was her she was me
We were one we were free
If there's somebody calling me on she's the one

If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one.

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Ang hindi namin alam, lahat na pala ng atensyon ng mga kaibigan namin ang sa amin na nakatutok.  A sweet smile is plastered on their faces.  Kinikilig sa nakikita nila. 
Justine came to us.  He smiled at me widely.
"Take her home Dark.  I think her drinks is too much for her already.  She can't managed it on her own.  Kami na ang bahala sa sasakyan niya."  He used to call me dark rather than Daniel.  Actually all of my friends are.

"Oo nga dude.  Mukhang may tama na nga si Cass eh"  It was Joshua.  Playful smile on this dickhead.  Alam ko na ang tumatakbo sa utak nito.  Di ko na lang pinansin.   I faced him poker faced.

"Thanks jaz.  Dude una na kami."  I told them.  I nodded at her friends not far from us.  I mouthed we'll go ahead.  They responded through thumps up and smile.  We then left the dance floor.  Went outside the bar.  Parang may mga pakpak ang paa ko habang naglalakad papuntang parking space.  I carried her in bridal style.  Mukhang nakatulog na kasi siya.  Pambihirang babae ito.  I beeped my alarm open.  Pumaikot na ako when I settled her inside.  Tulog na tulog siya sa kanyang kinauupuan.  I fixed her seatbelt.  Di ko sinadyang masagi ang dibdib niya.  The usual flow of current is there.  Her long, shapely legs are now inviting my touch.  Pumikit ako.  This is not good Daniel.  Can't you wait until she's sober?  Kastigo ko sa aking sarili.  Agad akong umayos na upo at umpisang paandarin ang sasakyan ko.  I changed gear to acceleration.  This must be the long drive of my life.