Silent Tears

chapter 34

It was already 3rd day since he left.  I didn't hear anything from him.  This is getting worse than I thought.  Wala na ba talaga akong halaga sa kanya? I shut my eyes.  Tears been pooling na akala ko wala na akong mailuluha pa. 

The hurt is so difficult to bear. I thought no more tears that comes out everytime I cried my heart out.  i don't know.

I wanted spent my time in CIM just to have environment that will not remind me of him.  But my weak body doesn't permit to do so.  I am aching so bad.  That breathing is not enough to ease the pain. 

Good thing yaya Meding is there to take care of her.  You see, he abandoned me in his yaya's care.  How could he do this to me?

Later that day, Freya paid me a visit.  Laking pasasalamat ko sa kanya kasi may makakausap na ako aside from yaya Meding.  He gave tight embrace.  "I missed you bruhilda ka!"
I only gave her my weak smile.  I am tired to fight back my emotions any longer.  She my friend anyways.

"How are you feeling today."  nag-alala niyang tanong sa akin when she learned about me being pregnant of Daniel's child.
"Tired?" di ko rin alam ang pakiramdam meron ako ngayon.  She stayed with me the whole day.  After we had our afternoon snacks, I felt cramps on my abdomen. 

Oh please not my baby.  Usal ko.
Patindi ng patindi ang sakit na naramdaman ko.  Halos mabingi na ako sa sakit.  I heard Freya shouting at me.  "God Cassandra.  You looked pale! What happened.  Yaya Meding!" and she shouted for help.  That's the last thing I know before I passed out.

Smell of antiseptics and white walls welcome me as I opened my eyes.  I sighed in heavy breathing.  When things started to settle, my hands went directed to my flat tummy.  Oh no! God my baby.  I can't lost my child. 

Siya naman pagdilat ni Freya ng mata at lumapit sa akin mula sa kinauupuan niyang sofa.

"Thank God you're awake now! You make me so worried." mahigpit niya akong niyakap.  I sobbed as she held me tight.  "Hush now... everything's fine."

"How about my baby?" pumipiyok kong sabi.
"Don't worry the baby is fine.  You need to rest more."  then she tapped by back.

I was about to close my eyes still sore from crying, when the door flung open.  There I saw his worried face.  But anger escalated from my numb nerves.  Akala ko wala na akong lakas na mailalabas pa after everything had happened.  Kunot noo ko siyang tiningnan.  I gave him my deadliest look.  You almost killed my child. 

"Hon..." he looked helpless as he went near my hospital bed.
"No! Don't you dare come closer." I gathered all my strength to throw him away.  He still stepped further.  "I said don't!" I snapped at him and he did while looking at the IV fluids attached to me.  I can see bloodshots in his eyes but I have to stay firm.  He can't do me any good at all.

Then came a figure of a woman. "Migs!" Voice of that bitch echoed the entire hospital room.  I can see her hand reach for Daniel's arm.  Napapikit ako ng mata.  I burried the back of my head on the pillow.  Gosh! di ko alam kung saan siya kumuha ng kakapalan sa mukha. The nerve of them to come here.  I don't need them! Shit!  They both should rot in hell.  I don't care!  Sila ang dahilan kung bakit ako nandito.  I greeted my teeth.