The End (GxG) (Sequel to The Middle)

Chapter 1

-JAMIE'S P.O.V-

    I sigh. It's pointless. "I won't be able to sleep, boo. Not without Ly."
"You neeed your sleeeep. You get married tomorrow."
"Oh.. fuck."
"What?"
"Fuck."
"JAMIE?!" Zee shakes my shoulders.
    Shit.
"You know, Abs. She was so ready. I'm surprised she hasn't gone in shock sooner."
"Probably right."
"Breathe JJ!"
"I think I can fix this."
   Abby puts her hands up the back if my shirt and I scream.
"WHY ARE YOUR HANDS SO FUCKING COLD?"
   Mom walks back in the downstairs with a bunch of snacks.
"There was yelling?"
"She wasn't breathing. Abs took it in her own hands."
"You know.." I pause... And think. They all look at me. "I'm floored how accurate that sentence was."
"It was actually unintentional."
"I don't believe that."
    I open for a highfive and Zee takes it.
"What did she do?"
    Abby walks over to Mom and sticks her hands up the back of her shirt.
"ABBBY!" She quickly runs away from her. "Something is seriously inhuman on how cold her hands are."
   We laugh at mom.
"Why wasn't she breathing?"
"Uh.."
"Her wedding is tomorrow and she's finally getting nervous." Zee answers for me.
   I am. I am nervous. Fuck. I was fine a couple of days ago.
   I wonder how Lynn is. If she is nervous... if she can sleep..without me?
"And I won't be able to sleep.. I can't sleep without her."
"Let's eat a little and then sleep."
"I won't be able to sleep. I'm telling you. I won't be able to."
"Even if I hold you?" Mom asks.
"Can I at least text her?" I avoid a rude answer to her.
   Honestly, I don't know... even if mom holds me.. it won't be the same. No one is Lynn.
"No." Everyone answers at once.
"Fuuuuck." I wanna cry.

    After eating, we get ready to sleep. All end up sleeping on Rose and Zee's bed. Which makes me uncomfortable... cause yeah.

~   'What do you want to tell Lynn?'
     REALLY?
     'Yeah.'
     What have you told her?
     'You're having issues sleeping.'
     And?
     'She said to try.'
     I want to cry, Zee. Like drop to the floor and cry. I hate not sleeping with her. Just... Just.. tell her I love her...
     'Got it.'
     And that she's beautiful. I didn't get to say that to her today before I got dragged out of my house this morning.
     'She said she loved you too.'
      I want to cry. How do you sleep without Rose?
      'I don't.'
      Helpful.
      'You asked.'

   We watch Harry Potter to try and calm my nerves but it's not that helpful. Still, buckbeak is my spirit animal and I love him. He's a majestic beast.
    When its almost 11 when we finally lay down for sleep. And ...
"I don't think I can, Mom."
"Just close your eyes, Jamie."
    I turn over and huddle close to mom. Zee holds me from behind. And Abby reaches for my hand, which I take.
   I remember sleeping without her... And it broke my heart. I feel myself begin to cry.
"Come on, babygirl. It's one night." My mom tries to comfort me.
"I hate it, mom. I hate it."
    I sigh. "It doesn't feel right."
   This night.. even though tomorrow will be the best day of my life.. this night could easily kill me.
"Even though tomorrow you get married?" Zee holds me tighter.
"Even though I get married tomorrow."
"You'll be okay, boo." Abby's hand squeezes mine.
   Mom kisses my forehead.
"Sleep."
   I close my eyes and wait for slumber to take me.
    It's very slow. Very slow. And maybe an hour at most.
   I love you, Ly...

    Walking down the path again, with his hand in mine.
"I'm here, Bird. Just look for the sign and I am here."
"I wish I could hug you. I wish you were here to hold me..."
"I am holding your heart. I'm holding your hand. I'm giving you away."
"I'm nervous. And scared."
"You'll do perfectly, Bird."
"Will I make a good wife?"
"And mother."
   I feel myself blush to his words. Even in a dream, I blush.
"You should ask her how you're going to have your children."
"What?"
"She dreams too. I give her dreams too."
"You do?"
    He nods. He hugs me tightly.
"Look for the signal, Bird."
   
    I wake before everyone else. Abby's hand tight in mine. Or... mine tight in hers... Zee holds me tightly against her and I'm pressed close to my mom's chest. But it's not Lynn, however many people that love me are here.
   Zee says she can't sleep without Rose... But she's asleep like a baby. I'm glad I can help her with that. But I feel bad she couldn't help me.
   I was just sleeping off and on. Off and on. Off and on. But at least I saw dad.
   I'm getting married today. Jesus. I'm getting married. Today.
   I loosen my grip on Abby's hand. Probably had a deathgrip. I didn't mean to..
   Abby stirs and opens her eyes. I never realised how beautiful her eyes were. I just never had the time to notice... with my medical.
   A sharp mint green with teal streaks stare at me. For a moment it looks like she is fishing for words.
"You didn't sleep at all.. did you?" She asks in a whisper.
"Maybe.. an hour. Off and on." I whisper.
"Boo." She smiles quickly. "Ready to get married?"
"No... I'm terrified."
"You'll be fine." Zee nuzzles close to me.
"You realise yours is in a year?"
"Yeah. I'm excited. My sister is going to be my bridesmaid. And Abby. And.. well, I haven't picked anyone else."
   I sigh. "I think I'm too excited about seeing May. She's going to be so cute. Alex showed me her dress. We decided she will bring the rings too."
"My babies are getting married. God I'm so old."
"You aren't, mommy." Zee and I say at the same time.
"What do you want?"
"Why do you always think we want something?" We say at the same time again.
   We all stay cuddled. Abby moves closer and lays on me. More like plops.
"Umf." I groan. "For being 120, you like a fatass, bro."
"Aw, thanks boo."
"You slept, by the way, Zee."
"Yeah. I always am able to sleep with my sister. I'm sorry I couldn't offer the same."
"I'm sorry too. It's.. just.. L..Ly... took away dad's..nightmares.."
"I know JJ."
"Do you feel better, boo?"
"I do actually."
"Let's go for breakfast, then head out. Got to get ready." Mom says.
"Nervous?"
"Fucking yes, Abby. Beyond."
"You'll do great, sis."
  
"And whatever you want, Jamie, it's on me. Anything for the bride."
   The waiter looks shocked. "Congratulations!"
"Really, Zee. Really?"
"Live the praise, JJ."
"Thank you."
   I order simple but of course ask for a Carmel frappe with extra Carmel. Which is shocking a diner would even make it. But hey.. I need some liquid courage, caffeinated.

"You ready for this, Jamie?"
"No."
"Come on. I need help with my dress. I'm suppose to be with Lynn and not your ass."
"But I need my sister."
"She knows. We know." Abby says.
"Let's get your dress on, Babygirl."
    Jesus. I'm actually doing this.
"Yes, you are." Abby says.
"I said that outloud. Didn't I?"
"Yep." Zee confirms.
   It takes about 30 minutes to get in the dress. 20 to do make up and hair. The rest is to just wait. ..
"What if she isn't there?"
"She is already here. And she asked the same question." Zee says.
"Is she a nervous as me?"
"You have no idea. Ro said she didn't sleep at all."
"I barely did."
"But you did."
"I'm not ready."
"Yes you are." They all say.
   My thumb starts to twitch. ...hi daddy.
   It seems like time is going slower and slower. And I'm scared. Rose walks in.
"Hey, Jamie. How you holding up?"
"Not well."
"Hey babe." Zee quickly kisses Rose.
   I've seen a giant difference about Zee since the proposal. She's like a thousand times happier. But so am I.
"Hey ZZ."  She says after the kiss.
    Rose walks closer to me.
"You're so beautiful Jamie. Seriously."
"Thank you, Rose." I smile to her.
   My thoughts racing. I really want to see Lynn...
"Going to check on our other Bride." Zee walks out.
"Mom I'm scared."
   My thumb twitches again.
"Don't be. You look perfect. And you will do good."
   I nod slowly. Though it doesn't help the feeling that I need to get this over with. I just want to be in her arms. Right now.

    Zee runs in the room. Her face bright with a big smile.
"It's time, sissy."
    A breath catches in my throat. God.. ..oh.. god.
"Come on, babe. We have to take our places. You too, Abs."
"You can do this, Jamie."
"You got this, boo."
"It's your day, JJ."
    The melodies for the cue of the bridesmaids come on.
    They wave and leave.
"Mom.. is this real?"
"Yeah, baby. It is."
    Here comes the bride plays a few minutes later. Oh.. god..
    It takes about 5 minutes before Lynn's dad walks through the door.
"Ready?"
"No.."
    He smiles and takes my arm.
"Can.. we walk in the center of the aisle?"
"Yeah. I know your dad will be with us."
    I smile.
    It all starts slow... really slow. The walk to the doors. And then the song plays...
   The doors open...
   My thumb twitches and I let my hand open..
   I begin walking in the outdoor path..
   An angel.....stands at the alter.. for me..