The End (GxG) (Sequel to The Middle)

Chapter 34

-ROSE'S P.O.V-

     She wants kids with me. I choked when she asked cause I thought she was kidding. I'm serious, I thought she was kidding.
    After her deafening silence, I now know she isn't.
~Baaaaaabe. Ditch Jamie and pick up some foooood.
    I need to talk to her.
~And Ice cream? Please...
~Yeah. Where so you want to get food? -Zee.
~Dealers choice, babygirl. :)
~I'll be home in 20. -Zee.
~Okay, I love you.
~I love you too, Ro. -Zee.
   I wait for her but play games. I end up setting my ratio to 1.01 on black ops. Which makes Zee mad cause she's been trying to get pass 0.99.  She walks downstairs and puts the food down.
"Babe. 1.01."
"Whhhhyyyyy are you playing without meeeeee?"
"Cause I was waiting for you and playing helped time pass."
   She pulls out a giant cup of ice cream and I'm done. Down. Nope. Bye block ops.
    My feet carry me to her. She smirks as I walk over. I stopped in my tracks.
"You know, it's my house. I don't need to actually wear clothes."
     She bites her lip. Fuck. I want her.... But I also want my ice cream.
    I twirl in place once before taking the ice cream from her.
"Dinner first, Ro."
"Baaaaabe no."
"Babe, yes."
"Baaaaaaaaabe. NO."
    I start taking bites.
"Ro."
"No."
"Rose." Her voice stern.
    Fuck. I dart for the stairs and hide in the upstairs kitchen. The sounds of her walking up the stairs in stomps is scary.
    I continue taking bites. Mm.
"Say what?"
    I quietly get up, crouching and start to sneak away. Being with Sam is great for your ninja skills. And if you've been around her as long as I have..... you learn to listen carefully.
"Hi, baaabe." I hear light footsteps behind me.
   I get up and start running. I start screaming. Didn't even notice the door opening.
"What the fuck is going on in here?"
"SHE WON'T LET ME HAVE MY ICE CREAAAMMMM."
   I keep running, Zee hot on my heels.
"Come on, guys. She's naked."
"CALL HER OFF, MOM. USE MOTHER AUTHORITIES."
"You really? Really? ...Really? You're making mom team for you?"
   She goes in for the tackle but I dodge. She rolls on the floor and gets back up. Her eyes bleed rage.
    We.. were playing before. Now I'm scared. Yet still eating my ice cream.
"ROSE. GIVE ME THE ICE CREAM." She yells.
    I look down in the cup. Hiding a smile and a laugh. .. I hand her  ..
An..
Empty...
Container.
    I run again.
"ROSE!"
     I start screaming again and don't stop running. Well... until I make mom my human shield.
"Hey, mom. How was your day?"
"Well, I walked into my daughter and her fiancee running like crazy idiots upstairs. And you happen to be using me as a shield, naked. I'm doing good."
"Thank you, mommy. You're the best. Although I need one last favor... Maybe keep her up here for a bit? I'm terrified."
    I look into Zee's eyes. They burn. A near black cloud with fucking lightning casts. Oh. The rage. I'm actually starting to shake in fear.
"With eyes like that, I'd be scared too."
"So you'll help me?"
"Nope."
    She walks to the kitchen, leaving me face to face with Zee. I haven't actually seen her so angry.. I was just playing.
   Zee walks closer and I flinch.
"I... uh.. I'm..." I choke.
    I look down from her eyes and start to walk downstairs. Jesus... Even when my dad is pissed it's nothing like when she is. Not this time...
"Ro?"
   Goddamn... Why am I so scared? I know she will never leave me.. just the rage.. the.. look..
"Babe?"
    I lay on the bed and hide my face in the pillows. I feel tears soak the pillow quickly... I'm TERRIFIED...
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing.."
"Don't lie to me."
    She climbs on me and begins to rub my back. I love the feeling but I can't stop crying...
"Talk to me."
"Your eyes... I'm sorry. ..scared." I choked the last word.
"Ro, I'm not mad."
"I didn't mean to make you mad. I didn't mean to. Just playing."
     She climbs off of me. "Look at me, Roro."
    I roll on my side and look at her. No anger in her eyes just sadness.
"You flinched. You fear me?"
    She reaches to cup my cheek and I flinch again. I didn't meant to... I didn't know I was so..afraid.
    Her eyes flash with pain, I close mine. I can't see her eyes anymore as her tears form.
"What have I done?" I hear her voice waver with tears.
    A silence loudly takes the room.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to look so mean. Harsh. Would you forgive me? For this?"
    Her hand lightly touches my cheek and I jumped. I keep my eyes closed as her hand rests.
"You know I would never hurt you."
    I.. just the anger. I'm scared. It was over ice cream... I was just playing around.
   She kisses my forehead.
"I would never hurt you, Rose."
"I've.. the rage.."
"I would never hurt you, Ro. Never. Do you understand?"
"Your eyes.."
"I was mad you ran. Mad you ate all the ice cream. Mad because you were using mom as a shield. Mad because you were running around the house naked with mom home. But I'm not mad anymore. I'm worried. And hurt. My own wife will be afraid of me. If you still even want me."
"I will always want you" I cry out. "I don't know why I got so scared. I know you wouldn't leave... but.. the look in your eyes... scared me.. scares."
"Look at me now."
     I hesitate before opening my eyes. Hers lock on mine. The blue of the oceans rise with forming tears.
     No ounce of mad. No ounce of anger or extreme rage. Just love, pain and sadness...
"Forgive me, Rose. Please forgive me? I didn't mean to scare you. I don't want you to ever fear me. Or to ever think I would hurt you. I love you more than anyone could ever hold love for another."
"Can we eat and sleep?"
     Her tears spill pass her waterline of her eyes. Her thoughts loud: She will never forgive me. Live in fear of me. Probably leave me. What have I done? I hate myself.'
"I do forgive you. I won't leave."
"Let's eat? Maybe watch a movie and then sleep?"
"Okay."
     Eating is in silence. Her eyes on me the whole time. The movie was in silence... though we cuddled.
     Her thoughts loud... of how I will live in fear of her.
     I was afraid in the moment. But I'm not now.
     She curls closer to me as the movie ends.
"I'm not afraid of you."
"But you were."
"Mhm. But I'm not now. It doesn't matter, ZZ." I pause.... Slightly choke.. But suck it up...
"Also.. Yes. I would love a family with you, ZZ. I would love to have kids with you. I want to take that step one day."
   She leans up and looks at me quickly.
"Really?"
"Yes."
"And I've had a dream or two."
"You know I had a big one."
     Her eyes show love. A lot of it. "I can't wait to hold him."
"In my dream we called him Andrew."
     She laughs and smiles. "Yeah. In my dream he was."
     She hesitates to kiss me ...which hurts.. She closes her eyes and lays on her back.
     I quickly straddles her hips and lean down, pulling her lips into a kiss. She hums into the kiss. Something is off.... I pull back and she is crying.
     I wipe her tears and she only cries harder.
"I don't want you to be scared of me."
     She opens her eyes. The light blue ocean has sparks of deep blue.... sadness.. small lines of green... worry.
"I'm not." I try to comfort her with a smile.
"You were."
"Yes, ZZ. I was. It was just the look in your eyes. It scared me. Not you. You don't scare me."
"You thought I was going to hurt you."
"No. And I know you wouldn't leave me either."
    Her tears don't stop. This girl is breaking my damn heart.
"Babygirl, we're fine. We're okay."
     I lean down and kiss her, her tears leave taste on her lips. I hate when she cries... it takes her a moment before she actually kisses me back. A kiss turns to a few.
    She lightly smiles against my lips before I pull back.
"Better?"
"Mhm."
"Really?" I feel like she is lying to me.
"Yes."
     The look in her eyes reveals she's not lying.. I smile and lean down for another kiss. She kisses back instantly.
     One kiss leads to another. Then another. Then more. She drives me insane. I want her baaad. I pull back before I get too heated.
    She kisses my cheek and pulls me down, I lay my head on her chest.
"You want to sleep like this, Zhee?"
"Yes. I love to hold you."
"Okay, Babygirl."
     She takes a deep breath and whispers.
"Ro.."
"Zhee." I whisper back.
     A fight to see who falls first.
"Ro."
"Zhee."
     I hear her heart slow quickly.
"Ro.."
"Zhee..."
     I feel myself begin to drift quickly.
"I love you, Roro."
"I love you too, babygirl"
     As she falls, I fall with her.