The End (GxG) (Sequel to The Middle)

Chapter 86

-LYNN'S P.O.V-

    Shocking. Like extremely. How the shit did this even happen?
"Technically, I didn't do it."
"You say that a lot, Jamie."
"I didn't know she did that. Okay. I'm innocent."
"Look at heeeerrrr."
"Mommy" she starts giggling.
"Jamie. What the fu" she quickly covers my mouth.
"We were playing. Okay. I didn't know."
     Alex hugs my leg. "Mommy mad."
"Slightly. Maybe. Sort of. Kind of. Yes."
     Jamie leans up and kisses my cheek. "It's okay. Calm down."
     Lost in her eyes long enough I don't notice she's cupping my cheeks... with paint covered hands. I want to scream. Jesus fuck.
    As she pulls back she's in laughter.
"Panda."
"Mommy. I sorry."
    She's almost 2. Jesus Christ help me.
"Mhm."
"Okay. Babygirl, I think it's bathtime and then bed." Jamie picks Alex up.
"No bed."
"Yes bed. Panda, You are going to sleep."
"No."
     Anger sets in her eyes. Jesus. Help. Me. I just got home from work to handprints of blue paint all over the halls and on the doors.
"Babygirl, don't argue right now. You're in trouble. It's not the best time to be back talking." Jamie says.
"NO." She yells.
"I'm done." I raise my hands in the air. "No story time."
"Unfair." Alex says in a grumpy tone.
"All fair in love and war, Alex."
    Jamie takes Alex in the bathroom and starts washing her. I follow the footprints leading to the garage. How the fuck did Alex get in the garage?
     I sigh and clean the paint from the floor. I mean, fuck. Just fuck. I want to scream but Alex is doing that enough as is.
    I almost feel sorry for Jamie having to deal with Alex during her tantrum. But I just got home from work and now I'm cleaning paint. This is the life.
     Jamie walks in and starts helping me finish cleaning up the paint cans.
"What even happened, Koala?"
"I was working. I didn't see her leave until she came back in covered in paint. I don't know how the fuck she even got in here."
"Jamie. This. Is. Fucking. Crazy."
"You think this is crazy, she won't stop crying and screaming. She was flailing her arms to get attention and actually hit me."
    Everything in me stopped. Everything.
"W..Where?" I choked out.
"I'm okay, Ly."
"Where, Jamie?"
     I'm terrified. I don't know why exactly. Maybe just because she bruises easily.. And it scares me.. because she already has enough pains after a seizure..
"It was just on the chest, Ly. I'm good. Don't worry."
     As we finish cleaning the paint, I can still hear Alex wailing. I sigh to it. But I can't help but feel terrible about everything.
    Jamie hugs me as we stand.
"I'm okay, baby."
"I worry. I worry, okay? Leave me to worry. I'm so sorry, Jamie."
     She nuzzles into my embrace. I don't know how long I've held her. Long enough to where Alex has stopped screaming.
     I keep her in this hold. I just need her. I've been horrible lately.
"You're thoughts are extremely positive, Ly."
     I laugh lightly to her joke. She always makes me feel better.
"Jump."
     She jumps and I catch her. She holds on to me and I hold on to her. I slowly stroll into the house and begin the journey upstairs.
"I love you, you know, Lynndsie?"
"I've been a terrible wife."
"No you haven't. We have to work. It's part of life. You're perfect to me."
     I laugh at her. "Whatever you say, Jamie."
"Mommy." Alex cries as we walk pass her room.
"You better be sleeping, Alex. I'm not playing games tonight."
"Story."
"Alex. No. Sleep."
"Please."
"Jesus fucking Christ help me." I mumble.
"Alex, mommy said no. Go to sleep before you get in more trouble." Jamie says.
    I hear a flop and a grumble from Alex before I walk away. I don't bother going to the bed, I go straight to our bathroom and turn on the shower. Jamie rests her head against my shoulder and sighs.
"I'm sorry. I should have watched her."
"We should watch her. WE. Yet I'm not fucking here for you and it isn't fair. It's not right. I'm a terrible fucking wife."
"Ly. You're not. Please stop saying that."
"But it's true. I should be here."
"It's my fault, Lynn. Not yours. I should have watched her closely."
    Tears of frustration. Fucking hate this. Jamie jumps down and we start undressing. I hide my face from her because I know she will be sad if I cry in front of her... And I don't want to see the sadness in her beautiful deep blue eyes.
    We climb in the shower and begin cleaning ourselves. Thank you water for hiding my tears. ...but I see something that only makes it worse.
     I lightly run my hand over the new bruise Alex caused Jamie. She wipes the paint from my face.
"You cry for no reason, baby. I'm okay. You've done nothing wrong."
"I should be here for you."
"You are."
"You know what I mean."
"Ly, you have responsibilities beyond us and Alex. As do I. There was nothing that you did wrong to cause this. And I'm okay."
"I just feel terrible. I should be here. I should be helping. It's not fair to you to have to deal with all this shit by yourself."
"I'm not alone, Lynndsie."
     She brings me in a tight hug. Her warm body feels nice on mine and I miss her. I know she's in my arms but it's hard to breath without her.
"You need to calm down, my love."
     It's rare for her to call me that. Really rare. She only does it when something is seriously bothering me. But she does it to calm me and it works.
"Let's just go to bed, okay? Start anew tomorrow. We will clean up the paint together." She looks up to me.
    Right.. cause tomorrow is Saturday and my hours are off.
    I nod slowly.
"She's killing me." I say in a sigh.
"Oh for sure." Jamie laughs.
    I love her laugh. It's beautiful and heavenly. Angels are literally singing to me.
"She is me too, you know." Jamie says.
     I nod.
     We get out and get dressed. Well. Not fully.
     I lay down and she climbs on top of me.
"Do you remember when we tried after Alex?"
"Yeah."
"Do you remember what I said to you?"
"I think so."
    She leans up, her eyes lock with mine. Her eyes show so much sadness I don't like to see.
"I love you more than you could ever imagine, Lynndsie. You're perfect to me, for me and I love you for all that you do. You have other things to do besides with me. Just because Alex goes crazy sometimes doesn't mean you're a bad mom or a bad wife. You should never have those thoughts and I'm sorry if I made it seem that way."
    Her eyes fill with tears.
"If you love me. You will see what I see in you. If you love me, Ly. You will know you're not a bad wife. You're so good to me. You're so perfect and yet you don't have to be."
"I do love you. I do."
"Then please. Please, Lynndsie. You are my everything. You are perfect."
    She leans in and kisses my lips. Between the kiss, she smiles against my lips and whispers softly. "I love you so much." She kisses me again and I can't help but lightly pull her closer to me.
    As she pulls back, she kisses my cheek.
"Are we okay?"
"I think so, yeah. I'm sorry I was like this tonight."
"Don't be sorry, baby. Don't be sorry, okay?"
"I'll try."
     She rests her head at the nape of my neck. She's so warm. Beautifully warm.
"Our daughter is absolutely batshit crazy." She laughs.
"Oh yeah. For sure."
"It's said that the children are 10 times worse than their parents."
"I was not crazy. I was a good girl."
"Oh babe. You are not a good girl."
    I squeeze her ass and she laughs at me.
    Her heart slows and her breaths even. She's so warm that she's sending me in my own trance for sleep.
"Jamie." I coo.
"Mm."
"Jamie."
"I love you, Ly."
"I love you too, Koala."
    I fall asleep quickly to her.

    Alex crying wakes us up. I'm already looking forward to naptime. Jamie kisses my cheek.
"Tagteam on breakfast?"
     I nod and sigh.
    Jamie gets up and we both go our ways. I grab Alex. I'm not mad at Alex. I'm mad at myself mostly.
"Mommy."
"Morning, Panda."
    She holds on to me tightly. She cries into my shoulder. She seems to enjoy doing this to Jamie and I.
"S..Sorry." She stutters out as she cries.
"You're alright. No reason to cry, Alex."
    She sniffles and nuzzles closer to me. Her arm moves and I know she moved to suck her thumb. We've tried so hard to stop her from that but it comforts her.
    I walk downstairs and Jamie already has breakfast on. This woman is a miracle. I sit Alex in her highchair and she yawns.
    I try to help Jamie with breakfast. Man I'm tired. Jamie stands up slightly and kisses my cheek.
    I look behind me and Alex is asleep. Her head is tilted all the way back and her mouth is open.
"Jamie."
   Jamie turns around. She laughs lightly.
"Picture perfect?"
    I nod and Jamie hurries off to get her phone. A moment later she comes back and she takes a pic. She looks at me and shakes her head.
"I can't believe her. She woke us up and yet she passes out."
"She likes sleep but also loves food."
    Jamie turns off the stove and hands me plates.
"See how long it takes her to wake up when you put food in front of her."
"Dare you to record it."
"Dare challanged."
    I sit her plate I'm front of her. Jamie does a thumbs up as she records. Literally 45 seconds.
    She stirs for a moment and fixes her neck. She looks down and grabs her fork. What the fuck.
"47 seconds." Jamie mouths.
    I roll my eyes and sit down with Jamie and our plates. We eat. She eats. And once we're done...
"Uh-Oh."
     Why. Just why. I mean, we're use to it. But damn.
     I clean up the kitchen and Jamie takes care of Alex. After I'm done, I head upstairs and as I hit Alex's room, Jamie walks out. Alex is passed out.
    Jamie takes my hand and leads me to our room. She flops on the bed and does snowangles. I love this. She's so beautiful.
    I climb in bed and she takes her spot. I hold her tightly.
"You're beautiful too."
   My heart flutters. My heart races. Always like this.
"Thanks, J."
    She lightly kisses my neck and falls to me.
"I love you, Ly."
"I love you too, Koala."
    I fall asleep to her. I love this woman. Her heart beat is a beautiful rhythm I love.