ENDLESS JOURNEY OF LOVE

CHAPTER 50

Lezlhiana's

"We have to abort it."

I was shocked to hear that. Within a few seconds away, I threw a hard punch to him dahilan para bumagsak siya sa sahig. He freaking deserves it! He fucking deserve a million punches.

"What made you think of that as a solution? Obviously ikaw ang ama but what kind of father are you?" I said in disbelief. I couldn't believe it until now. This is not the Allen that I knew.

Hindi siya makapagsalita. Hindi siya tumayo mula sa pagkakabagsak and umupo lang siya. Ayaw niyang iangat ang ulo niya at nakayuko lang siya. I badly want to give him one more punch pero napatigil ako. I heard him sobbing.

"I don't want to lose you that fast." he said. Niyakap niya ang mga tuhod niya at doon siya umiyak ng umiyak.

"yet you're still going to lose me." I said to him at doon niya inangat ang ulo niya. "Stand up, idiot!" I order at sinunod naman niya.

Bumalik siya mula sa pagkakaupo niya kanina at saka hinawakan ang kamay. "Yes, I'm going to lose you but I don't want you to suffer anymore. I don't want that."

Lalong kumunot ang noo ko at saka ko siya sinampal. Ang sarap lang bugbugin ang mga lalaking ganito magisip. "You think this is a sacrifice and suffering? It's a blessing, Ian. Gusto mo ba akong mamatay nang walang iniiwang alaala sayo?"

Nagkatinginan kami ng mata sa mata. I don't know pero bigla akong nakaramdam ng awa. I can't blame him. All he wants is to be with me safely and unharm. Ngayon na lang niya ulit ako nakasama ng malaya and he just can't take it to see me suffering again while taking the child everyday.

I let out a sigh. "I'll still carry this child even if it will kill me. Mamamatay na rin naman ako and I want to leave this gift to you for making you so alone all this time and resenting you. I know na nasabi mo lang yun out of concern pero intindihin mo ang pinupunto ko. Please." I said in a low tone. Aftet stating those words, napahawak ako sa tiyan ko. I can't wait. Hindi ako makapagantay. Maybe after several years, I will just be watching them with so much happy from above. I can't wait for that moment.

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Six months. Six months fly so fast. Naging VIP ako ng wala sa oras at hiniwalay nako ng kwarto. He's big and I'm so happy to see that. Buti nalang at nagising na sa katotohanan si Ian kasi kung hindi, I will really give him a million punches. Despite of us having a baby, malungkot pa rin ako. Avery is not yet here to see it. She's still in coma. After I started getting treatment for pregnancy, hindi ko na nagawa na makita siya. The doctor didn't even allow me to walk and kung lalabas daw ako dapat nakawheelchair.

Biglang tumunog ang phone ko at binasa ko yung message ni Ian.

"I went out of town for business. It's just for three days. I'm sorry."

What's with the apology? Okay lang naman sakin ang magwork siya pero yung pinagtatrabahuan niya ang hindi. I recently discovered na company pala ni Albea yang Emilia na yan. Well, it started from the greediness of her mother. Pero hayaan na natin. I'm leaving everything in the past.

Biglang bumukas ang kwarto and I saw Almira with her dextrose. Kumunot ang noo ko in curiosity. "Anong ginagawa mo dito?"

She smile. "Can we go have a walk to the garden?"

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The garden was filled with patients. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pumayag ako na sumama with her. I'm sitting on a wheelchair at siya ang tumutulak sakin. Sometimes, I have thought na baka dalhin niya ako somewhere tas end of life ko na. Gosh.

Tumigil kami sa fountain and it seems familiar. Ah, this is where I start pretending. Hayop yung Albea na yun. Sinampal pako noong oras na yun. I don't deserve a slap from that bitch. Makakaisa din sakin yon.