I Still Believe In Us

Chapter 5

Rachel's POV

Why life gets harder when you expect it to go smooth again . All the sufferings I had were coming back with new kinda pain . I never thought this life would throw me in dark hole like this .

It's been two weeks since I found Aaron  cheating on me . But I keep quite I didn't get mad , I didn't fought with him . He don't even know I know .

His behaviour with me is getting worse  . He acts like he hates me now . But why ? What have I done? isn't it he who is wrong?

All my life I received hate from my own parents . When I met Aaron I thought  I would never feel hated again but i was wrong .

Now I feel like I am  burden on him . But I still have hope that he will love me again .part of me knows that he still loves me he is  just lost and I will help him to find his true self again . I will make him love me again.

I will do anything to save our marriage ,to save our love . I will not lose this battle . She may be new for him and he is attracted to her but I should never forget that what we shared was magic , magic of true love , magic of Faith .

I have experienced hate before especially from my loved ones but everyday it hurts the  same or even more  Pain increases  day by day .

People would think that life as daughter of famous Lawyer and senior heart surgeon would be so good , you wil get whatever you want money, New clothes every week , many friends but no, my case was different . I was like some kind of burden on my parents . They never loved me . My day never passed without them cursing me , abusing me and telling me how worthless I am .

Life at school was not good either . I never had too many friends except Jess and Kyle .

My parents always treated me like shit I was not allowed to come to parties with them where their friends come with their children . Whenever they threw party at our home they used to lock me in store room and tell people that I am on vacations or i am staying at some friend's place .

I still remember those painfull nights when I used to hear people laughing , sounds of loving music , taping of feet when they dance and I was locked there in dark store room. Everybody was  happy except me . I always asked my parents if I was adopted and they always  replied saying wish you were .

I always thought I am not enough until I met Aaron he made me believe that i am lot  more than enough and now he is the one who is making me feel the old way again . I think I am really not  enough . I am not even beautiful maybe that's why my parents hated me so much and that's why Aaron is cheating on me .

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I was waiting for him in living room from last 3 hours It has now become my routine to wait for him .

Finally he was home .

"Aaron" I said as he enters living room and sat on sofa I could smell strong scent of ladies perfume from him . My heart ache every time I look at him knowing that he was with some girl some time ago .
I stood up and walked towards kitchen to get water for him .

Returning to living room I found him taking off his jacket and losing his tie .
"Here" I said giving him glass of water .
He took it from my hand and drank it quickly .

"You must be hungry I made dinner for you" I said smiling at him .
I am trying to please him , trying to make me realize that I am capable of loving him more than any other woman .

"I already had my dinner" he said without even looking at me . I wonder how someone can change this much just is few weeks

"With friends" he added now looking at me

Is guilt washing over you Aaron ? Why are you giving explanation when I never asked?

"I never asked Aaron" I said with teary eyes but i blinked couple of times trying not to cry in front of him .

"I am going to sleep" he said and went out of living room leaving me stand there .

"Why Aaron ? Shouldn't I be the one to get mad and yet you are here showing me anger ? What have I done to deserve this?"  I said however I knew no one was hearing me out .

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I laid down on bed . And looked over him . He was sleeping peacefully didn't he cared about the pain he was  causing  me? I silently kept on crying .

I am good at crying without anyone hearing me .

I had spend many nights crying silently in my room cause my parents hated hearing me cry not because they loved me and didn't like seeing their child cry but bacause my crying disturb their peace  .

Maybe I deserve this . My parents were right I am worthless . I don't deserve to be loved . I am burden on everybody .

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How difficult it is to bear so much pain . I can't share it with anybody . Not even Jess , she is on vacations with her boyfriend I don't wanna disturb them .

Sleep never came to me last night . I heard his footsteps entering in kitchen .

"Good morning" I said but didn't got reply

He sat on dinning table and started serving himself.

"Umm Aaron"  I asked nervously not knowing that should I ask him or not but I had to .

" can we go somewhere tonight . I mean like  a date"

He looked at me with emotionless face

"Rachel you didn't marry some ordinary man who do simple job I have entire company to handle I don't have time to go on a date" he said causing tears to fill my eyes

You don't have time to spend with me but you have plenty of your time for her huh?

"Okay"  I said lowering my head I didn't wanted him to see me cry.

"I am going bye" he said after finishing his breakfast

When he was just about to walk of out of front door I called him out

" Aaron"

He turned back to look at me

"Love you" I said with teary eyes .

He looked at me for some time before speaking

"Take care Rachel" and with that he walked out

I fell down on my knees . I couldn't take the pain anymore but no I have to . I have to fight for my love .

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Two more days have passed and Aaron is treating me even more worse now .
Everyday I wake up to find new bruises from last night on my body . He is now hurting me physical too .

He is unaware of my bruises cause i start to wearing full clothes . But don't he notice when he gets too hard on me . Now I feel like an object to him to use every night for his pleasure and need .

Everyday goes on with same pain . Sometimes I think if he never realize what he is doing? What if he never loves me the way he used to?

But I Still Believe in us , in our love .

I need to be strong . This pain is not gonna stay .

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