lost by the world

8

I'm about to finish my novel, its 3:30 am in the morning and I'm up till yet because of this novel, whenever I feel I'm alone, I read books they help me a lot. It's Friday night I don't have school tomorrow so I can be up till any time as, I finish my novel I started watching   F. R. I. E. N. D. S till 4 am I became dizzy and started yawning so, I kept my laptop aside and went to sleep.

"Skyler get up, you need to go on a walk, otherwise you will become like a giant pig, so its better you get up, right now, I hear my mom shouting and trying to take  my bad sheet, which was covering my body, I get up and saw its just 8:00am in the morning," Mom, let me sleep it is Saturday and I don't want to go anywhere," I groan in my bed while again trying to cover my self,"you,better get up Skyler otherwise you will be grounded for whole Sunday, as I hear this, I sat straight in my bed and groan" why, why god, why me? "I said.

I was all ready to go on a walk I was wearing a blank tank top and a pair of black leggings which reach till my knees, and a black cap and my hair in high ponytail , I was all ready, to go on a jogging I pulled out my earbud and plug in my ear and went out, as I went out a cold wind touch my face which make me shiver but I have to go otherwise I will be grounded.

                I was running and now I was completely exhausted so, I decided to go by my near by garden, I went there and sat and saw some children playing with their toys and while there parents sitting and watching them and talking too others, I sat on a bench and the garden is completely green, I love greenery, I love trees and nature. After watching some kids and doing jogging in the garden, I saw non other than Christopher, he was sitting on a bench and drinking water because of his long breath the water was constantly falling, which indicates that he had a long run, I try to ignore him, I'm good at ignoring people because circumstances has made me this way, as I walked past by him, he saw me, he freaking saw me, "Hey, Skyler what are you doing here" Christopher ask while smirking, "Just came here to watch a movie, by the way the movie was nice, you should go and watch it" I reply while getting irritate, his smirk fell down instantly and this time he frown "movie, at garden, there is no movie going on in this garden Skyler so stop lying" he said, "obviously, I came here for jogging, otherwise why would I be here? and Sometimes, I come here for watching nature beauty," I reply in duh tone. "oh, I see, you love nature?" he ask, "yeah , who don't like it!" I reply anxiously.

           Why are you running behind me, Christopher, stop running behind me otherwise I'm going to call police and complain by saying that you are watching my ever step, so you better stop it right now" I said while walking ahead of him " It is a road and anyone can walk behind you or ahead of you so stop doing that" I hear him chuckle.

            As, I turn around to see him because he was not talking now, this guy talks a lot man, I saw him entering in a house and waving me, "I live here Skyler, I was not watching your steps," with that he went inside. Oh, god he live a road ahead of me, god no I don't want to see him again, help me, I exclaimed and went to my home. As, i walked inside I saw mom and dad talking, while Tom playing with his breakfast" hey, mom and dad , good morning " I said and went to kiss Tom, he was not in the mood today so he kinda shrugged me, which makes me feel bad.

         
               " Now, look at yourself you look so, slime" she exclaim, "mom, how can I get slime in just one day" I reply in a bit annoyance. "but you look good though" she said while taking plates and walking in kitchen.

I am in room studying for exams, which is in just up coming weeks, I was studying from afternoon and now its evening, I have been studying so hard to get maths in my head, but maths is so mean that he don't want to go in head. I am trying so hard but maths is as difficult as forgiving the virtues of our enemies, like really I think I am going to fail in maths exam it's so hard how can anyone solve this,sometimes I feel like stabbing a knife in that person stomach who invented maths or sending them to jail for their lifetime, without any pen and paper, otherwise they will start writing more if we provide them pen and book over there.

It was 8:00pm in evening and today we are going out to have dinner because dad said so, We all were ready I was wearing a normal plain white T-shirt and white Cardigan with black jeans and brown boots, Tom was waiting for dad eagerly while shifting in his place constantly and mom was getting ready till now.

"You all are ready," dad ask while walking in, " yeah, dad just mom is coming then we can go" I reply and Tom went to dad and sit in his lap.

"What, you want to order" dad ask me, while I was busy observing the surrounding the lights were dim and sweet music is being played and the people around us are enjoy, "ummm I'll get some pasta carbonara with some extra cheese" I reply while watching the menu card carefully.

We were done eating and now we are on the way to go beach, yeah we are going on a beach now because my mom wanted too go, so we are going, I love going beaches at night it's so good to sit in sand and watch stars and clouds carefully and the cold breeze touching your face every time making you shiver and pleasurable.

As we reach the beach it was cold, and the sky was the mixture of blue and black and stars decorating it perfectly, just like sliver glitters shining perfectly every single time. We all sat in on the mat while watching the night and the waves of the beach, dad went to get Ice cream and mom is enjoying with Tom and me I was just observing and taking things inside me.

I'm lying on the mat and as I turn around I saw a couple sitting close to each other and kissing each other it felt so good, watching people in love the way they see, the way they talk to each other, I want to experience this every single thing, but I think god don't like me much because not even a single boy is interested in me, I know I'm a lazy and not that initiative taking one, but at least one single boy, just one! I exclaim to my self and a single tear run down my eyes.

We are back now, I was a bit dizzy and restless I was just keeping my head on window of the car and the wind touching my face every time, which makes me feel good and there was no car on the road so, I put my left hand out of the car window and the wind was so fast that the was taking my hand back every single time, but I try to bring it forward, this is how the life works, it will take you back but you have to try hard to bring it forward again and again.

"Good night mom, good night dad and thanks for today little trip" I said while yawning and went to my bed and directly to sleep. Now I don't want to do anything or think about the day, so, I just slept.

         At  4:00 am I wake up in fear, I just had a nightmare which was so horrifying , I saw mom is dying in her bed in hospital, gasping for air but she is not able to, and she is crying, I went down to see if mom is okay, I turn on their room light and saw mom is safe and sound and sleeping like a sleeping beauty so, I went up and again went to my bed to try to get some sleep, tomorrow is Sunday, at around 5:00am I sleep, I have nightmare sometimes  which make me feel horrendous.  I try to get over it every single time. But can't get over it.