lost by the world

48

"You guys took eternity to come out "Jackson half smirk and raise his left eyebrow.

"They might get their work done "Katherine mockingly said and smile towards me, she is the mastermind and cupid here.

"No! He, he just took way too long in washroom and I was kind of waiting for him outside "I chuckle and try to shrug off my personal life.

"Yeah she is right "Christopher said and fill his plate again with some food. There was a smile playing on Jackson lips, he is creeping me out with his smirk every now and then.

"Whatever you say "Louis said.

We finish our food. I lost my appetite in washroom only when Christopher showed me his angry face. His face was whole red and specially his nose.

Half of the time I was thinking about how to confront him again at my home, will he be mad again or he will understand me.

It was just a small act but a small action carries big emotions and destruction.

Everyone paid for themselves. We all settle in same seat.

"You look really good in this T-shirt 'I try to break the ice between him and me.

"Thanks but don't I always look good? "He looked at me in my eyes, which made me shiver.

"You do! "I smile and he came close to me, his legs were touching mine.

"Things are getting steamy here; drive fast or the car will burn "Harrison looked between two of us and a creepy smile aroused on his lips.

Christopher smiled and I my face turn pink.

After that we did not bug each other. Whole ride went quiet peacefully.

We reached school and everyone stepped out. From here we all are going through our cars.

Katherine went with Harrison, Emma went with Louis, and Jackson brought his bike to school so he took his bike and I'm going with Christopher on his bike.

I hopped on and a soundless ride begins to my home.

We reached my home; he parked his bike outside and went forward to open the main door.

I place my bag on the sofa. Mom, dad and tom will be back till eight o'clock.

Christopher walked in and took a seat on the sofa calmly. He doesn't seem annoyed anymore throughout the whole ride.

"Start "he said and took a long breath.

"What? "I ask as I went in to drink some water.

"Why you got so mad that you made me leave your house in this morning "he hit the topic and made me tongue -tied.

"Oh!" I said and walk to sofa and took a seat on the right side.

"Okay! But then don't be mad at me, when you hear the reason" I fiddle with my figures nervously.

"Okay, go ahead "he said and look towards me.

"I'm afraid of losing people, who are close to me, and whom I love. When you didn't respond for five minutes I was shitting myself, god knows what I was thinking, but I was afraid" I nervously looked in his eyes and found him listening me carefully.

"What you are afraid of? "He faintly ask coming close to me.

"Afraid. I'm afraid of losing you; I don't want to lose you, I have never found a person like you I want to keep you by myself without sharing .I was frightened with the thought of losing you" my voice was wobbly throughout the whole time. I was getting so nervous with every word I was speaking.

He seemed silent; he was sitting numb, without making any movement.

"I won't leave you, not now, not ever "he said flatly.

"Thanks! "I said and a tear escape from my eyes.

He shifts in his place and I embraced me tightly.

"I won't leave you ever. And sorry for what I did "he whisper in my ear making me yank little.

We sit like that for few minutes and then leave each other.

"Our plan is up? We are good now? "He brought his hand forward for shake.

"What plan? And yes we are good now "I said and smile.

"Our Christmas plan? "he said hinting me.

"Yeah going out on a date one? "I ask playfully.

"Yes that one "he said in a monotone.

"Yes, I'll not ditch you because it's my first date and I won't take it lightly "I said and made contact with his hand. We shake our hand like we are in some sort of agreement.

"Neither will I. It's a special one for me, "he softly said and ruffled his hair and showed off his hands veins.

" Okay, I guess I should leave, today your parents are coming? "He picked his bag and started walking.

"Yeah they will be here soon "I said and followed him out.

"Okay, I'll see you tomorrow "he smiled and sit on his bike.

"Don't forget about the project, and Katherine is in our group we all three have to complete it, you were not there when Ms. Abraham told this. She told us to inform you "I said clutching the door knob.

"Okay, we will complete it. Bye! "He said and starts his bike.

"Bye "I close the door and went to my room to take rest.

I went to my bed for siesta .I kept on flipping I was not able to sleep.As I close my eyes Christopher face appears in front of me, his smile, his lips and his kiss made me feel so good.

His lips were so soft against me.

I still remember the way he looked that night, I felt he was one of the character from some good novel.

Mom, dad and Tom came around eight o'clock with food.

We were having dinner when my dad spoke up. "You slept alone? "He took another morsel and chewed it.

"Yeah kind of "I filled my mouth with food so he won't ask more questions.

After that he didn't bother me. "mom did you enjoy at you mom's house? How are they?"

"They are good; they were asking about you "she said without looking up from her plate.

"I'll see them after few days; I've one last day of school tomorrow, then holiday" I took my dish and place in the sink.

"Okay!" she sigh. Our dinner looks like we are in a press conference when no one is allowed to talk. Only the sound of munching food can be heard.

After that I took at all the dishes and washed it and went to sleep.

I completed all books, I'm left with no books to read, and tomorrow I've to get some books from library which will accompany me in this vacation. It's hard and difficult finding good books to read. I find it hard to search good books rather than searching awful dress in malls.

After debating with myself I agree to reread a book. I went to sleep at one in the morning.

I already messaged Katherine saying that she has to meet me in the library so we can do our projects. She agreed with me.

Ms. Abraham gave this kind of project because we were having a lesson about suicide in our finals. She also choose this topic so all students gets to all about these thing. She gave different group different topics but related to suicide and depression.

Talking about dying is lot easier for the person who don't know the value of life. I know how it feels to be on the edge of dying. I've seen my mom few times saying it's better to die instead of eating that god damn medicines and therapy.

She was like a red rose, grown so beautifully but now she is only left with wilt and thorns in it.