lost by the world

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Skyler (POV)

It was Saturday morning when Mom and Dad came  at around 11:00am.

I was happy seeing my mom again at home, she is total not feeling well as I said she is all dizzy for 2-3 days.

In that 3 days she acts like a child and sometimes she even talks like that. we talked about this to doctors and they informed us this is because of the medicines.

She has takes high power of medicine, which is totally doesn't like. She don't take her medicines on tine, dad has to sit and make her eat, just like a mom forcing his kid to eat food.

I prepared a light breakfast, toasted bread with  butter and sugar. She has to eat light calories food in this situations.

We ate our breakfast and mom went to her room and I helped her. Mom was sleeping  like a beauty queen and I was watching her, she has got light dark circles bag under her eyes, her beanie was on side table, her hair was all gone leaving few hairs and which is filled with  few nits in them.

How our family us to be happy, I mean we are happy today also but not that much, I use to come from school and she use to serve me food and love me a lot, she use to always there by my side never leaving me alone.

But now all things has changed, I have cook food, look after her for few days and do all house hold chores. Now I'm always alone, never having anyone's back.

But I have to be strong, after that slit my wrist incident, I didn't do anything to myself, yeah, but I'm always thinking about depression, sadness my mind is never filled with positive thoughts it is always filled with negative thoughts.

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"Mom, you are up so early why? and where are you coming from ?" I ask her as I went down she was coming in from the door.

"Nothing, I was just relaxing in our garden, watching some natural beauty!" she examined and came and sat on the nearby bean bag.

I went near her and hugged her tightly, because I was in need of one from so many days.

She hugged me back and a tear roll down her cheeks.

" What mom? this is why I don't come near you? why are you crying? I ask, drying her tears.

" I'm  dying every day seeing you in this manner, you are so small, handling everything thing, your life, house, Dad and Tom, you are never enjoying your life, I have never seen you going out in a party, no road trip, no nothing just plain life. This is all because of me, I'm sorry Skyler but I can't do anything, the day when I'll be fine, I'll make sure you enjoy every single moment of your life"She said and a tears started rolling down like a waterfall.

"Mom, I don't like going for clubbing, parties. I love you and I don't want to go far away from you" I said biting my lips for. controlling my tears and went into kitchen.

"Mom, sit there I'm making noodles for you and then I'll head to school" I said.

I would love to go parties,clubbing, road trip but no one ever involved me in their group, I can't go alone on a road trip so I just lie that I don't like all this things.

After preparing noodles I went into hall room to see mom watching TV and smiling, after so long I'm seeing her laughing, otherwise it is like she has forgotten how to grin and laugh.

"Here mom take this and enjoy" I hand her, her plate and start eating mine.

Around 7:30 am I left the house bidding good bye to mom.

From today onwards I have to start my session with Christopher. I informed mom about this and she told me its okay if I'll be late to come home.

(flash back)