lost by the world

15

      Its being two days and we haven't got the results yet, don't forget, I'm talking about my maths exams which was held two days before and I wrote nothing in it.

I'm just petrified that Sir don't punish me because I have failed in maths most of the times so, my record in maths test is pretty bad.

Mom hasn't came back from hospital till yet and yesterday I went to  meet her, she was  unconsciously lying on her bed and I felt so sick, she is going through a lot but she never looses her will power and here I'm going from depression from one year and I can't even handle that. She is so strong.

She was resting I went near her and sit besides her bed, on the chair . Her hands were injected with so many things and her side table is full of fruits and medicines and flower. She loves white lily and I like the same, because white colour represents peace and she love peace, who doesn't?

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"Skyler come down, today I'll drop you to your school" dad yelled from downstairs, " Coming dad," I reply and back my bag and tie my hair in a messy bun.

I went down and we did our breakfast, dad is taking Tom to his shop, and after that they will be going to see mom.
 
We sat in and dad puts the key in ignition to start the car, the engine roar and the car ride starts.

"How is your school going?" dad ask while looking straight face, he don't know how the hell my school life and life is going, I don't want to give him tension so I don't tell them the truth.

"Yeah it's going good, why?"I said and frown why he is asking suddenly," No, just asking, because girls of your age goes to party, have boyfriend, and I've never seen any of your friends at home having parties leaving Emma " he said in a monotone, I was about to cry, tears always do best things to me, they come  in front of people,  to make whom I don't want to show anything,I was crying from inside because dad just now told me my reality and it hurts, listening from other how the heck your life is going. I bit my lips to resist my tears and force  a smile.

"I- I just - just don't like tho - those things!" I exclaim. I want to experience everything thing but all I can experience is sadness, loneliness.

I stammer whenever I'm being ask about myself. I just hate to reply and talk about myself. I just  hate myself my body, my face, everything because always people around me made sure I feel worthless.

For next new minutes car ride was silent till we reach school.

"Bye Skyler, take care, try to make some friends, never forget you came here to enjoy your life and not to stress it.

" Bye dad, I reply and kissed Tom cheeks  " I said and turn around to start my journey to hell.

My  1st lecture is maths,I'm afraid that he don't start handling us our marks sheet. I went in and saw there was only Jackson, I went and sit in my place and Christopher is not here yet.

"Skyler, can I joint your group  today in break, because Christopher is not coming to school today" he said and I frown.

"Why he is not coming?" I ask though I'm happy that today I don't have to face him but as a humanity I ask.

" Why? ,do you had some work  with him?" he ask and caught me off guard. "No- No just asking as a humanity" I said. God I shouldn't have asked only!

" He is not feeling well so he will  come tomorrow" Jackson said and turn toward board because Sir walked in and everyone went to their place and removed books.

Again I saw, Sir was carrying a bunch of papers in his hand and I knew he is going to hand us our paper. shit. I groan.

" Class today I'm going to hand you all yours maths paper so, be ready I will call your names and take the paper one by one, without any noise" Sir said quickly and place his things on the table.