lost by the world

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Skyler (POV )

"It's about finding status of depression and suicidal rate all over the world, we can explain it with the help of graph, charts and images, and we have to submit it as our Christmas break  gets over" he said. And my emotions started flying inside my body .

Whenever I hear about Suicide and depression, it makes me week in my knees, just like  first love, when you hear about your first love, you can feel all the things related to love, all happiness emotions, all kisses, all the time you have spend together with your love ones, all comes to your mind when you hear your lovers name.

Just like that whenever I hear about depression and suicide, I can feel all the emotions coming back and hitting my mind like a hurricane. All the bad times I've spend in depression, all the times when I had sleepless night with, crying everyday, it feels like I've spend a long time with depression and suicidal thoughts.  My bad memories makes me feel exhausted, and all my happiness drift as fast as wind.

"Hey,Where are you? In your own world?" Christopher said standing in front of me.

"Ummm yeah, Sorry, I was in my own world!" I said and stood in front of him.

"Well then let me be in your world!" he said with a smirk.

"What?" I ask as I wasn't completely out of  my world.

"Then let me be in your world, I'll be prince and you will be my princess" he said and that smirk didn't left his face.

I punch his chest playfully, "Shut up, what's wrong with you, are you even serious?" I ask as I walk back to my bed and left Christopher standing back there.

"I never joke around you, note my every single word, I don't say a single word like that only" He said and walk back to where I was sitting.

"So, how are we going to finish this Project? I ask while getting shifted in my place.

" Nothing, just, I'll come over here to complete our project in Christmas vacations, Is it okay with you? "He ask.

"Why don't we just finish it as fast as we can, so you don't need to come over my home!" I said as I don't want to share anything related to depression and suicide with him anymore. I will break in pieces if he knows about my condition, it will shatter me as well as him. Though I have told him about my depression but only a little.

" Why? You don't like me coming over here?" he ask in a serious tone.

"No, No, It's nothing like that, I just, I was just telling you that we should complete this project as fast as we can so you and me can celebrate our Christmas vacation happily" I said in one breath.

"Okay, let's see!" He said and sat in awkwardness .

"So, what's your plan for Christmas?" Christopher ask.

"Nothing, just a fine dinner with My grandparents and parents"I said truly.

" Okay, So you are not going anywhere, aren't you? "he ask again.

" I just now said that I'm not going anywhere, I'm all alone spending my Christmas time with my parents and grandparents! "I said and got up from the bed, he really makes me nervous, and I can feel anxiety growing up in me.

I stood and started piling up my piled books again. I just need to touch someone constantly when I get anxious.

" Okay, so would you like to go out with me?" he ask, coming and standing  by my side again.

"Why?" I ask unsurely, I don't know what to say, because nobody has asked me before like this.

"What, Why? I mean can you come out with me we will enjoy, Try something different this Christmas, we will go out and we will be back till nine o'clock then you can spend time with your grandparents also!" he said.

"I don't know, I need to think!" I said and didn't face him, my face was towards wall and his face was towards my back.

"What do you need to think in it!" he said still not coming forward and facing me.

"Ummmm I'll only come with you on one condition!" I said and smirk.

"What! Did you just said you will come out with me on one condition, girls out there die to go out with me!" he said and I hear a loud groan.

"Didn't I told you, I'm not like most girls!" I said.

"Okay, Okay, what is your condition?" he said impatiently and this time he faced me.

"I need you to take be back to  'DONATE A SLICE', will you take me there?" I ask not looking up in his eyes.

I hear a loud laughing noise , and that voice belongs to Christopher, he was laughing, he looks so adorable when he laugh or smile, and he look hot when he is serious.

" What? "I ask this time getting close to him and made eye contact.

" This is where you want to go? on Christmas! "he ask still not over his laugh.

" Yes! I want to donate some money and some presents to the homeless people, I want to do something good on that day "I said.

" Really? "he ask.

" Yes, I'm sure"I said.

"Okay, I'll take you there but then you have to come with me where I'll take you" he said smirkingly.

"Okay, but You will bring me back by nine o'clock" I said.

"Okay" He said and started walking out of my room. I guess he is leaving.

His one leg was inside and one was outside of my room when a main question popped up.

"Christopher" I said with a loud voice.

He turned around and smile.

"What, I knew you can't resist me, you want a last glimpse of me, don't you?" he said and again walked in.

"Don't act too smart, I just want to ask something" I said and his smile left his face.

"Okay, ask!" he said

"Did you ask me on a date indirectly?" I ask.

"Who, me?" he said surprisingly and sat on the right corner of my bed.

I went to the left corner of my bed and talked to an invisible person. "Did you ask me on a date?" I said mockingly.

"Sky are you alright, there is no one in that corner, whom are you talking with? I didn't know you have ghost in your room" he said while holding my right arm.

"I know there is no one here, but I thought you were able to see someone else beside the two of us" I said.

"Why did you think like that?" he said with a complete frown.

"Because You were the only one in the room, Whom I can ask, and you acted like I'm asking someone else, so I continue to play your stupid game" I said.

"Okay, I'm sorry, Ms. Skyler William will you go on a date withe me" he said bending on his knee and gently bowing his head and bringing his right hand forward.

When I see him, Being with him seemed like a necessity, and when he took my name, it felt beautiful!

He is taking my full name for the very first time and it bring a jolt to my body, I can feel goosebumps on my whole body.

"I did love too" I said and slip my left hand in his right hand. He kissed my hand and hugged me tightly.

"Thanks, Sky" he whisper in my ear softly.

"Well, thank you for asking me out" I whisper in his ear as softly as I can and my hands went into his hairs, ready to mess his good looking hair.