lost by the world

10

After returning from Ice cream shop, I went home, as I entered on the doorstep, I saw that the door was locked, Dad told me that they will be back till 3:00 pm, and now its 6:30 pm.

I called dad "hey, dad is everything okay? you both aren't back till yet, is everything fine, dad?" I said
impatiently.

"Skyler, we were in line, while check up for blood test but Elli suddenly fell down on the ground, I took her to the doctor and the doctor informed me that her blood pressure unexpectedly went down, so she is in the hospital and we will be back till tomorrow.  As I hear that I got goosebumps all over my body, again, god, how can you do that to my mom? "Can I talk to her dad?" I said while balancing myself and tears started rolling down.

I bite my lips as usual I do when I don't want to cry out loud. "No, honey she is resting now, when she will be up, I  will call you and then you can talk, and stop crying, I can clearly imagine that you are crying" Dad reply in a monotone.

"Okay dad but please call me, goodbye " I said and cut the call.

I pick Tom from our neighbours house and went inside my house to see it was all dark inside just leaving one light on.

I on all the lights and made Tom sit on the dining table "want to eat something Tom?" I ask, while placing my bag on the sofa and sitting  beside him.

"No, but can we go to Aunt Zara house, I want to go there? " he said making  innocent face which I can't neglect.

"Let me get freshen up, then we can go" I said and walked to my room. I came back after few minutes wearing comfy clothes and a converse "lets go Tom, you're ready?" I said.

" Hmmm" he reply and started walking toward door, I locked the door and we have to talk a cab because dad has taken the car so...

We are at Taylor house her mom name is Zara, after taking a one  hour ride we came here alive, these days traffic, god!

"Hey Aunt Zara, how you doing?" I ask while making myself comfortable, "Fine, and what brought you here Skyler, I mean you are here at this time " she reply.

"Nothing, just Tom wanted to come here and mom and dad are in hospital so yeah, we came here to sleep over, is it okay ?.

" Why are your parents  in hospital? she ask.

" Mom blood pressure went down suddenly so they end up in hospital " I reply.

After hearing this  I saw Aunt Zara calling my dad  to get information .

   I went into Taylor's room she was busy in her mobile, I clear my throat and when she hear me she hugged me tightly.

" What are you doing here and at this time?" she ask, keeping her mobile in her pocket.

" Nothing, just Tom wanted to come here so I came here, leave it, how is  your studies  going? I ask.

"Ugh, just boring I can't understand Maths and History  subjects at all, I feel like an alien in that class, as if I don't understand which language sir is using, not even a single word goes in my brain" she said over dramatically.

"Look, I can teach you history but our feeling is mutual in maths, maths sucks" I said and she started removing her history textbook.

After 1 hour, we are lying in her bed she was just making continuous jokes on history subject, her jokes were like,
1st person : give me all your money, otherwise I'll change your history!
2nd person : we can't swap it with geography?
1st person : don't change the subject.

Her jokes are  like her only boring and garbage.

We talk for few minutes and after that we had dinner and Tom went to Aunt Zara room to sleep with her.

I was in Taylor room she was talking to her friends on phone and I was just lying in her bed and thinking about myself and Tom. I've been through a lot, now I've habit  to be ignored  by my near one also, when Taylor is in her mood to talk, she will talk without watching time and when she don't want to talk she just shrug off the person, so I don't like to disturb her.

I wanted to talk but she was busy talking so I didn't bother her .This type of people don't know while they are ignoring us, they are teaching us to live without them.

Tom is so innocent, he is having brunette hair just like me, he is 3 years old and he is always in discipline, too cute and he is the only reason why I'm m here today, otherwise I would have been in hell. He don't deserve all this things, his age years kid plays in mummy lap and they need all love from their parents but what we can do? when mom will be fine that time she can give him plenty of her love. I feel pity for him some time. poor guy.

Sometime I feel like I should share my things with Taylor but she came out to be same people just like others. People always shades me  just like Taylor do, even she  has insulted me sometimes but when you don't have no one, you accept what you have weather the person be worst. " when people treat you like they don't care, believe them" I had came to this conclusion.

"Good night Taylor," I said and turn around, my back facing her and my face facing the wall, tears started rolling down and I felt like I'm dead as if she can't even see me she didn't bother to reply me, she just shrugged me and continues talking to someone on her phone, I'm dying apart and she doesn't even know.

I think Samantha says right I'm just a freak, I should just go and die and people won't even know I existed.

I cried till 4:00 am  in the morning, Taylor was asleep, I went in her washroom to clean my face and came back, I went to see Tom,  because he is the only person who doesn't ignore me, he is only one who talk to me, when I don't want too, he was far asleep.

I went and sat down on the floor  and watch him sleep, watching him makes me calm. At around 4:30 am I went back to sleep. I have brought my school bag here , I'll be going school from here only.

I went to sleep and I as lay down on the bed I felt tired, sleep isn't sleep anymore, it's an escape for me.

I work up at 7:00 am, I slept for 2 and a half hours. I was feeling so tied but because I didn't sleep well. I've to go school because exams are going to come in few weeks.

I got ready, I have brought myself one dress and one for Tom. I got ready, I was wearing oversized grey sweater and black skinny jeans.

I walked into school, I came to school by public transport , I called Emma last night and inform her that I'll be taking public transport to come school, I don't want to  make her come here just for me.

I love travelling in public transport but sometimes it make me see how people go to their  work place, I feel like I'm in a big container and I'm the smallest thing in it, who is observing things and just making  funny faces at small  children.