lost by the world

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Skyler (POV)

School was pretty normal for me now, as I did not get bullied by Trisha and her minions. I don't understand why people bully another people. Though I heard that the person who is already low wants too, or try to make other people feel low. They just want to feel happy while making other feel depressed and sad.

When you are sad or depressed or going to any kind pain you come out to search if any other person is going through it and you start searching about your kind of sadness on google or any other site. When  I  was getting bullied I came to know bully makes a person aggressive, lack social skills, think negative, experience difficulties in solving problems and the person often have characteristics such as being physically weak, as well as easily distraught emotionally. According to many surveys held percent of bullying is increasingly day by day instead of decreasing. Every person had seen bully in their life, out of which very few step ahead to stop that threat.

The bully makes person feel nothing, sometimes it grows on you which make some people to step forward to stop everything by suicide . A person get isolated, feel rejected, exclusion, anxiety and get a fear to interact with new people or people.

Bully has played an important role in my life, not in a positive way but definitely in a negative way. As I already said I had tried killing myself so many times, when I use to get bullied people around me just use to stand and watch like a great movie, shooting is going on, all stunned, eyes balls popping out,but no one got the moves. All standing ice cold, like a mannequin.

Suicide is just of seven alphabets but carry a heavy meaning, emotions, heavy thoughts which make sure you feel cold, frozen.

When I use to get thoughts of suicide, I use to always prepare suicidal note in my mind, once I even wrote a page or two and said goodbye at the end. But I couldn't do that thinking of my mom and dad. My Mom didn't kept me her womb for nine months just to see this day.

Though, leave all that, I'm gonna live my life whole, how ever it comes to me good or bad. I always go through a situation where I've to fight or fly, do or die. Now I choose to fight, because without fighting I can't say how the outcome will be.

You always have to fight for one self, world is not always going to support you or your family members. Sometimes you are in a situation where you are the only one who have the power to come out. Not everyone is always going to hear you. You are the only one who have to hear yourself.

Sometimes we create an image of ourselves in back of our mind which hunts us, where we don't want to go back or look or even think about it. Thinking of that image makes us weak in our knees.

This are all Christopher's word and some of my Dad. They are so positive and they always try to send their positive vibes in others.

I've been trying really hard to be positive, I'm not letting any bad vibes in my mind. Positive thinking leads you to success.

I was sitting with Katherine in our English class, class has not been started yet. I think Katherine saw me in the hall way with Christopher, as Christopher was walking close to me, his hands were touching mine, and he was looking in my direction, when I was making fun of him and he smiled at me.

"Love is in the air" Katherine said and made a heart using her hands.

"What are you talking about?" I ask innocently though I know she is mocking me.

"I know what's going on in between you and Chris, the way he looks at you, girl.... I can die just looking in his eyes, his eyes clearly shows that he likes you" Katherine said and smile like a cupid got a perfect match.